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2023.06.06 14:32 thunderbrdmusic Genius bluff from Stefan11222? - May 2023 High Stakes Review (/w Avr0ra) [ENG SUBS]
![Genius bluff from Stefan11222? - May 2023 High Stakes Review (/w Avr0ra) [ENG SUBS]](https://b.thumbs.redditmedia.com/ppXupY7RffgiEGr_YuC7OPIuksYisrQ0nFlJZwyRsGM.jpg "Genius bluff from Stefan11222? - May 2023 High Stakes Review (/w Avr0ra) [ENG SUBS]") | Good day! submitted by thunderbrdmusic to poker [link] [comments] In this video, we talked with Avr0ra about the offline poker show in May, which featured the biggest pot in TV history with Tom Dwan, as well as a couple of hands with Stefan11222, DavyJones992, LLinusLLove. Tobias "dudd1" Duthweiler wins ~$3.6M in Triton tournament. Enjoy watching! https://preview.redd.it/sdemhm8g6e4b1.png?width=1280&format=png&auto=webp&s=da4c29541a2254a76239a3233dacb1986056249a https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hUgGkGKHlXE 00:00 Review of high stakes reg wars 00:51 How often do new players get into high stakes? 01:50 Genius bluff from Stefan11222? 10:25 Linus vs DavyJones992 18:46 Dead money concept 21:40 Offline poker at Hustler Casino 22:12 Hand featuring Doug "WCGRider" Polk 22:58 Tow Dwan wins the biggest pot in history 23:22 Does it make sense for online regulars to play live shows? 24:39 What happens when a player becomes the best 1x1 in the world? 25:35 Why did Tow Dwan end his online career? 30:01 Side earnings of offline professionals 31:38 Is it getting harder to make money playing poker? 33:29 Is online poker doomed? 33:56 Top players of the month, Dudd1 wins ~$3.6M in Triton tournament 35:22 Zgirouski fixes on high stakes 36:00 Best player of the month 36:26 Announcement |
2023.06.06 14:29 parkingauthority Two years of undiagnosed problems
For the past 2 years I have been working with my gyn to try to understand what is happening to me.
As a teen/early adult (18-22) I was super prone to BV and seemed to always be on some sort of antibiotics (that then gave me yeast infections) and be constantly fighting off the next infection. When I found boric acid I was so relieved and thought all of my issues were behind me.
I had a good year at 23 and had little to no vaginal issues and then randomly at 24 started getting frequent dark discharge and having pain in the opening of my vag which made sex super painful.
The discharge and pain can happen for months at a time and then randomly clear up for a week like nothing happened. I’ll resume life as normal and then it starts flaring up again. Ive been given every steroid cream, pill, and ultrasound to try to understand whats happening. One of my ultrasounds showed fibroids and a later one showed fluid in my cervix which can indicate infection.
I am so over doctors saying they dont know and throwing the kitchen sink at me with bullshit meds.
ANY advice or words of consolation are appreciated. Im only 26 and fear my vag will be broken forever.
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As a teen/early adult (18-22) I was super prone to BV and seemed to always be on some sort of antibiotics (that then gave me yeast infections) and be constantly fighting off the next infection. When I found boric acid I was so relieved and thought all of my issues were behind me.
I had a good year at 23 and had little to no vaginal issues and then randomly at 24 started getting frequent dark discharge and having pain in the opening of my vag which made sex super painful.
The discharge and pain can happen for months at a time and then randomly clear up for a week like nothing happened. I’ll resume life as normal and then it starts flaring up again. Ive been given every steroid cream, pill, and ultrasound to try to understand whats happening. One of my ultrasounds showed fibroids and a later one showed fluid in my cervix which can indicate infection.
I am so over doctors saying they dont know and throwing the kitchen sink at me with bullshit meds.
ANY advice or words of consolation are appreciated. Im only 26 and fear my vag will be broken forever.
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2023.06.06 14:25 kepigenic cannot live in my mind anymore
Hi, I’m not sure if this is the best place to let out this long winded vent that I’m about to drop — but it seemed like the best option I had. So, here I go.
I’ve (F20) struggled with suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. I was in therapy, but stopped going after it became too taxing for me and the process of getting put on medication in my country is just way too extreme and not something that I ever cared enough to do. The thoughts have kind of disappeared as of late and it made me really happy, but now I’ve entered a relationship and I think they’re coming back and it’s ruining my life.
It feels wrong to call what happened to me my “traumas” since it truly isn’t that serious, but that’s the best way I know how to describe how everything affected me. I grew up fat, gay, ugly and all around unlikable in a very small and religious town and, as a result of this, I’ve dealt with a lot growing up. My personality when I was younger was genuinely so horrible that my first and only best friends openly told me at age 7 that they couldn’t stand to be around me (I was a bully, but I have a very loud and fiery personality of a mom who I absorbed the traits of). Between the ages of 7-18 I was made the butt of the joke constantly by random kids at school who would piss each other off by running up and telling me that their friends had crushes on me — to which they’d then begin fighting because the thought was so disgusting. My first and only real life relationship ended after 3 months because my partner refused to be seen initiating contact with me. When I came out to my parents, they accepted me, but told me sincerely how disappointed they were that I would be going to Hell and that I was a disgrace to them.
There’s more that happened in my childhood, but those are the essential highlights. I was unlikable. Everyone made sure to make me know of this. I currently suffer with severe abandonment problems, body dysmorphia, depression and anxiety and there’s been several eating disorders throughout the years because of how everything deeply affected me. To this day, I feel this weight on my shoulders constantly that I will always be nothing more than just a burden.
Since my last relationship that I mentioned, I’ve almost exclusively begun to online date. Me and my girlfriend (F20) originally bonded over similar insecurities, but unlike me, she’s had a lot more real life experience. Her experiences haven’t been good IRL, but despite this, I still find myself worried that I’ll still manage to become the sole disappointment in her life. She’s never done a single thing to make me feel like this could be the case, but that just makes me feel guiltier. I don’t know what can be done to make me feel secure.
We plan to meet earlier on next year, but it’s like all of these insecurities because of my past are bubbling up now to try and ruin things between us. No matter how hard I try to stifle them, they always come back. I don’t think I will ever be good enough for anyone, I don’t understand why anyone would ever willingly put up with me. I feel like such a constant burden and it’s getting so tiring, sometimes I really think I should just get it over with and end myself. I will always be that 7 year old who got abandoned by friends and bullied and then shamed by their mother for not being the child she wanted. There is such a deep ache in my chest and I don’t know if anything can ever fix it.
If you read this far, thank you. I’m sorry for how long winded this was, I just really wanted to let off some steam. I’m sorry again.
submitted by kepigenic to offmychest [link] [comments]
I’ve (F20) struggled with suicidal thoughts for as long as I can remember. I was in therapy, but stopped going after it became too taxing for me and the process of getting put on medication in my country is just way too extreme and not something that I ever cared enough to do. The thoughts have kind of disappeared as of late and it made me really happy, but now I’ve entered a relationship and I think they’re coming back and it’s ruining my life.
It feels wrong to call what happened to me my “traumas” since it truly isn’t that serious, but that’s the best way I know how to describe how everything affected me. I grew up fat, gay, ugly and all around unlikable in a very small and religious town and, as a result of this, I’ve dealt with a lot growing up. My personality when I was younger was genuinely so horrible that my first and only best friends openly told me at age 7 that they couldn’t stand to be around me (I was a bully, but I have a very loud and fiery personality of a mom who I absorbed the traits of). Between the ages of 7-18 I was made the butt of the joke constantly by random kids at school who would piss each other off by running up and telling me that their friends had crushes on me — to which they’d then begin fighting because the thought was so disgusting. My first and only real life relationship ended after 3 months because my partner refused to be seen initiating contact with me. When I came out to my parents, they accepted me, but told me sincerely how disappointed they were that I would be going to Hell and that I was a disgrace to them.
There’s more that happened in my childhood, but those are the essential highlights. I was unlikable. Everyone made sure to make me know of this. I currently suffer with severe abandonment problems, body dysmorphia, depression and anxiety and there’s been several eating disorders throughout the years because of how everything deeply affected me. To this day, I feel this weight on my shoulders constantly that I will always be nothing more than just a burden.
Since my last relationship that I mentioned, I’ve almost exclusively begun to online date. Me and my girlfriend (F20) originally bonded over similar insecurities, but unlike me, she’s had a lot more real life experience. Her experiences haven’t been good IRL, but despite this, I still find myself worried that I’ll still manage to become the sole disappointment in her life. She’s never done a single thing to make me feel like this could be the case, but that just makes me feel guiltier. I don’t know what can be done to make me feel secure.
We plan to meet earlier on next year, but it’s like all of these insecurities because of my past are bubbling up now to try and ruin things between us. No matter how hard I try to stifle them, they always come back. I don’t think I will ever be good enough for anyone, I don’t understand why anyone would ever willingly put up with me. I feel like such a constant burden and it’s getting so tiring, sometimes I really think I should just get it over with and end myself. I will always be that 7 year old who got abandoned by friends and bullied and then shamed by their mother for not being the child she wanted. There is such a deep ache in my chest and I don’t know if anything can ever fix it.
If you read this far, thank you. I’m sorry for how long winded this was, I just really wanted to let off some steam. I’m sorry again.
2023.06.06 14:23 Bilge1212 Can i get sick from my unvaccinated cat?
I've been having GI issues, diagnosed with gastritis, for a month and many doctors evaluated my situation, done many tests and scans but everything came back clean. I'm 18 years old male with no alcohol or smoking and i've lost 10 kilograms so far.
I have an unvaccinated indoor cat that's never been on streets, never fed with meat and i'm always in close contact with him, i let him touch my face etc. He looks healthy and doesn't show any signs of problem. Although after all these, i'm suspecting of being infected by a bacteria or parasite from him.
Do you know anything like this or have you seen a case similar to mine? I'll get him checked in the next few days and hopefully things will get clearer but until that i want to ask you about this. Please help. Thank you.
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I have an unvaccinated indoor cat that's never been on streets, never fed with meat and i'm always in close contact with him, i let him touch my face etc. He looks healthy and doesn't show any signs of problem. Although after all these, i'm suspecting of being infected by a bacteria or parasite from him.
Do you know anything like this or have you seen a case similar to mine? I'll get him checked in the next few days and hopefully things will get clearer but until that i want to ask you about this. Please help. Thank you.
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2023.06.06 14:22 Late-Difficulty-5928 Getting out of a funk
Tldr: This got a lot longer than I intended. A lot to catch up on! The first part is about where we were. The second is what we are doing to fix it. We organically folded into a holistic method of dealing with clutter and made a lot of important connections while doing it. The kitchen experience has been, by far, the best and most healthy decision we have made.
It's been a while since I have participated here. Some pretty sad things happened and I had not made much progress. I've never been good at sharing when I am being a fuck up or asking for help. I wasted away my entire winter and now warmer weather is rolling in, which is going to prevent me from working in the garage until this coming winter.
Its not all bad, though. I managed to avoid backsliding and engaging old coping mechanisms that compound the hoarding situation. I managed to hold the house together during a time of grief and while it wasn't ideal, it's about a lifestyle, not a meal. Right? It's not that I haven't felt any guilt over not moving forward. I definitely have. It just hasn't been a particularly helpful or motivating feeling.
Depression and grief wreck everything, though. While that part of my life held the line, I still have a drinking problem and I don't really eat my feelings, but I do care less about my body, in general. I quit being active and let my diet slip enough to gain thirty pounds of organ strangling fat, caused by pouring 2-5 beers on top of 3-6 shots of booze every night. Then day drinking on the weekends. I have never been a day drinker. I've always been a functional alcoholic - meaning I can abstain, but when I start, I dont stop until it is all gone and most of the time I want more. The majority of my life, I would probably drink once every few months. The drinking every day is relatively recent. I know this isn't AA, but I will get to how it's related.
About a month ago, I woke up and thought, living like this is going to kill me. What if something happens to my partner? Because he is right there with me. Along with the unhealthy choices and their consequences, I was not sleeping well. That hard, visceral fat makes it incredibly difficult to breath and get comfortable. That's on top of serious health problems I already have. Six months of this and something had to give.
We woke up and started searching for a healthy eating challenge. You know the whole ADHD thing and turning things into a game usually yields some type of immediate success. We made a grocery list and cleaned out the fridge. We took three garbage bags of expired food out of the fridge. I'm not a food hoarder, even. I could give a shit about anything in there. We've both just been too depressed to worry about cleaning out the fridge - for six months. He went to the store. I did a deep clean on the fridge, which was nearly empty. We unpacked the groceries together, and let me tell you. I was super giddy over seeing all the fresh produce and how clean and organized the fridge was. I opened the fridge a few times, just to look at it, it was such a beautiful thing.
We have carried on this schedule for a month. Wake up on the weekend, meal plan for the week and make a grocery list. He goes to the store, I clean out and wipe down the fridge, check the pantry, and print any recipes we need for the week or grab them from our binder, and put them on a clipboard that hangs on the kitchen wall. Only recipes we love go in that binder. Life is too short to eat mediocre food. If we don't love it, the recipe goes in the trash.
The first week, I started meal prep, which is something I have never done before. Like having smoothies for breakfast - buying just enough bananas for a week, cutting them up, splitting into servings and freezing means zero bananas go in the trash. I haven't thought about making banana bread, that I am obviously not going to make, all month. I also spent enough present and sober time to notice the walls were getting a little dusty and grimy, so I washed most of those. The one left requires moving furniture, so it had to wait.
During the second week, I did some more meal prep and did a cursory clean out of the pantry, checking dates and organizing where everything could be easily accessed and seen. That was another trash bag of expired food out the door.
I used to get so angry because I would spend a week cleaning and organizing the kitchen. He would just stuff things in there, not paying attention to how things were organized. Yesterday I opened one of the cabinets and it struck me. Seeing the contrast between the pantry and fridge and these cabinets, I don't think any of those spaces have ever been organized in a way that makes much sense. We don't have upper cabinets, but instead two six foot tall floor cabinets. One cabinet has been things we use often and the other things we use less. Kind of. Then two cardboard boxes of plastic. God knows what. Then we have a lower cabinet, with random shit shoved in there.
I spent the day reorganizing and keep in mind, I've been through all this stuff at least once in the past two years. Barely anything in the cardboard boxes has been used. Lots of tupperware from the 90s. Lids with no bowls. Stained bowls with no lids. Don't ask me why I didn't toss these last time, because they were gross looking, even when clean. All of that went away and there are no longer two cardboard boxes stuffed in my cabinet. Two trash bags and a box of (recyclable) plastic later and you can see and access everything easily and like items are together. Everything has a place and it's evident where everything goes.
So . . . Now there is no more cabinet, fridge, or pantry Jenga. It's more pleasant to cook in there, easier to clean the fridge, easier to put the dishes away. With food being such an integral part of living, it just makes life easier. I hate to admit it, but for the first time in my life, I understand why having highly organized cabinets matters. And for the first time in a long time, I am not just ready to get rid of things. I feel like going through this process is gently rewiring my brain to think about objects and space a lot differently. I felt nothing but excitement over the prospect of an organized space, as I was tossing all that plastic in the bags. I've been motivated sans the period of depression. I've never been this motivated. I have been aware for a while that I wasn't going to organize my way out of the garage hoard or the house clutter. I believe cleaning out a space, where the objects inside were meaningless to me and seeing just how much of a difference it made has highlighted how much I need to get rid of if I want the rest of my life to be as beautiful as my refrigerator.
Health wise, we quit drinking beer and went from six shots a night to four. We are cutting back as we lose weight. We no longer buy booze for Sunday. We chill and have a few glasses of wine. Cleaning and organizing, I am on my feet more and getting more activity. I'm eating a Mediterranean diet and three meals instead of two. I weighed in this morning and I have lost a total of 12 lbs in a month. I still have another 18 to get to my weight before the depression and another 20 for a healthy weight. My body is squishy again, which is better. I sleep better. I have more energy, which feeds into being able to do more work around the house. I feel better mentally and physically.
So, yeah. I missed out on garage season. It's house season, though and I have a very productive Summer ahead. It's amazing what focusing on my nutrition has done for us. That's not in the general sense that just eating better will fix your mental illness or disorder. But focusing on the entire experience of nourishment and making it easier and more pleasant to cook healthy meals. Bonus points are that we are having fun cooking together and actually saving money by not overbuying and doing a little meal prep. That also resulted in a very insignificant amount of waste over the past month.
Over the Summer, I hope to add a kitchen island for more counter space, give the cabinets a fresh coat of paint, get the brand new dishwasher hooked up, and continue to make my kitchen a pleasant place to spend time.
Anyway . . .
If you made it this far, thanks for joining me on this journey. I know it was a novel. I appreciate you!
submitted by Late-Difficulty-5928 to hoarding [link] [comments]
It's been a while since I have participated here. Some pretty sad things happened and I had not made much progress. I've never been good at sharing when I am being a fuck up or asking for help. I wasted away my entire winter and now warmer weather is rolling in, which is going to prevent me from working in the garage until this coming winter.
Its not all bad, though. I managed to avoid backsliding and engaging old coping mechanisms that compound the hoarding situation. I managed to hold the house together during a time of grief and while it wasn't ideal, it's about a lifestyle, not a meal. Right? It's not that I haven't felt any guilt over not moving forward. I definitely have. It just hasn't been a particularly helpful or motivating feeling.
Depression and grief wreck everything, though. While that part of my life held the line, I still have a drinking problem and I don't really eat my feelings, but I do care less about my body, in general. I quit being active and let my diet slip enough to gain thirty pounds of organ strangling fat, caused by pouring 2-5 beers on top of 3-6 shots of booze every night. Then day drinking on the weekends. I have never been a day drinker. I've always been a functional alcoholic - meaning I can abstain, but when I start, I dont stop until it is all gone and most of the time I want more. The majority of my life, I would probably drink once every few months. The drinking every day is relatively recent. I know this isn't AA, but I will get to how it's related.
About a month ago, I woke up and thought, living like this is going to kill me. What if something happens to my partner? Because he is right there with me. Along with the unhealthy choices and their consequences, I was not sleeping well. That hard, visceral fat makes it incredibly difficult to breath and get comfortable. That's on top of serious health problems I already have. Six months of this and something had to give.
We have carried on this schedule for a month. Wake up on the weekend, meal plan for the week and make a grocery list. He goes to the store, I clean out and wipe down the fridge, check the pantry, and print any recipes we need for the week or grab them from our binder, and put them on a clipboard that hangs on the kitchen wall. Only recipes we love go in that binder. Life is too short to eat mediocre food. If we don't love it, the recipe goes in the trash.
The first week, I started meal prep, which is something I have never done before. Like having smoothies for breakfast - buying just enough bananas for a week, cutting them up, splitting into servings and freezing means zero bananas go in the trash. I haven't thought about making banana bread, that I am obviously not going to make, all month. I also spent enough present and sober time to notice the walls were getting a little dusty and grimy, so I washed most of those. The one left requires moving furniture, so it had to wait.
During the second week, I did some more meal prep and did a cursory clean out of the pantry, checking dates and organizing where everything could be easily accessed and seen. That was another trash bag of expired food out the door.
I used to get so angry because I would spend a week cleaning and organizing the kitchen. He would just stuff things in there, not paying attention to how things were organized. Yesterday I opened one of the cabinets and it struck me. Seeing the contrast between the pantry and fridge and these cabinets, I don't think any of those spaces have ever been organized in a way that makes much sense. We don't have upper cabinets, but instead two six foot tall floor cabinets. One cabinet has been things we use often and the other things we use less. Kind of. Then two cardboard boxes of plastic. God knows what. Then we have a lower cabinet, with random shit shoved in there.
I spent the day reorganizing and keep in mind, I've been through all this stuff at least once in the past two years. Barely anything in the cardboard boxes has been used. Lots of tupperware from the 90s. Lids with no bowls. Stained bowls with no lids. Don't ask me why I didn't toss these last time, because they were gross looking, even when clean. All of that went away and there are no longer two cardboard boxes stuffed in my cabinet. Two trash bags and a box of (recyclable) plastic later and you can see and access everything easily and like items are together. Everything has a place and it's evident where everything goes.
So . . . Now there is no more cabinet, fridge, or pantry Jenga. It's more pleasant to cook in there, easier to clean the fridge, easier to put the dishes away. With food being such an integral part of living, it just makes life easier. I hate to admit it, but for the first time in my life, I understand why having highly organized cabinets matters. And for the first time in a long time, I am not just ready to get rid of things. I feel like going through this process is gently rewiring my brain to think about objects and space a lot differently. I felt nothing but excitement over the prospect of an organized space, as I was tossing all that plastic in the bags. I've been motivated sans the period of depression. I've never been this motivated. I have been aware for a while that I wasn't going to organize my way out of the garage hoard or the house clutter. I believe cleaning out a space, where the objects inside were meaningless to me and seeing just how much of a difference it made has highlighted how much I need to get rid of if I want the rest of my life to be as beautiful as my refrigerator.
Health wise, we quit drinking beer and went from six shots a night to four. We are cutting back as we lose weight. We no longer buy booze for Sunday. We chill and have a few glasses of wine. Cleaning and organizing, I am on my feet more and getting more activity. I'm eating a Mediterranean diet and three meals instead of two. I weighed in this morning and I have lost a total of 12 lbs in a month. I still have another 18 to get to my weight before the depression and another 20 for a healthy weight. My body is squishy again, which is better. I sleep better. I have more energy, which feeds into being able to do more work around the house. I feel better mentally and physically.
So, yeah. I missed out on garage season. It's house season, though and I have a very productive Summer ahead. It's amazing what focusing on my nutrition has done for us. That's not in the general sense that just eating better will fix your mental illness or disorder. But focusing on the entire experience of nourishment and making it easier and more pleasant to cook healthy meals. Bonus points are that we are having fun cooking together and actually saving money by not overbuying and doing a little meal prep. That also resulted in a very insignificant amount of waste over the past month.
Over the Summer, I hope to add a kitchen island for more counter space, give the cabinets a fresh coat of paint, get the brand new dishwasher hooked up, and continue to make my kitchen a pleasant place to spend time.
Anyway . . .
If you made it this far, thanks for joining me on this journey. I know it was a novel. I appreciate you!
2023.06.06 14:22 yepvaishz AITA for Not Wanting to Attend My High School Reunion?
Hey Reddit, I'm an 18-year-old high school graduate and I'm facing a dilemma regarding my upcoming high school reunion. I'd appreciate some input on whether I'm being an asshole in this situation.
Recently, I received an invitation to attend my high school reunion, through a really close friend of mine , which is scheduled to take place in a few weeks. It's been a couple of months since I graduated, and honestly, I haven't had the greatest experience in high school. I struggled with fitting in, faced bullying, and had a difficult time academically, due to my mental issues and attacks.
Now, I'm torn about attending the reunion. On one hand, it could be an opportunity to reconnect with some old friends and see how everyone has changed. On the other hand, the thought of reliving those memories and potentially encountering the people who made my high school experience unpleasant makes me anxious.
I'm leaning towards not attending the reunion to avoid potentially negative emotions and stress. However, some of my friends and family think I should go, as it could be a chance for closure or personal growth.
So, Reddit, am I the asshole for not wanting to attend my high school reunion? Should I push myself out of my comfort zone and give it a chance, or is it okay for me to prioritize my own well-being and skip the event?
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Recently, I received an invitation to attend my high school reunion, through a really close friend of mine , which is scheduled to take place in a few weeks. It's been a couple of months since I graduated, and honestly, I haven't had the greatest experience in high school. I struggled with fitting in, faced bullying, and had a difficult time academically, due to my mental issues and attacks.
Now, I'm torn about attending the reunion. On one hand, it could be an opportunity to reconnect with some old friends and see how everyone has changed. On the other hand, the thought of reliving those memories and potentially encountering the people who made my high school experience unpleasant makes me anxious.
I'm leaning towards not attending the reunion to avoid potentially negative emotions and stress. However, some of my friends and family think I should go, as it could be a chance for closure or personal growth.
So, Reddit, am I the asshole for not wanting to attend my high school reunion? Should I push myself out of my comfort zone and give it a chance, or is it okay for me to prioritize my own well-being and skip the event?
2023.06.06 14:22 GoBrewYourself Seeing strangers enjoy your weird creation feels so rewarding
I just recently released a free public beta to squash some bugs and balance my game. Up to this point I had been working on it essentially 100% solo for 18 months, and after a while I honestly couldn't even tell if it was fun anymore.
So far way more people signed up for the beta than I thought, and I can't believe how enjoyable it is to watch people discover this dumb thing I poured my life into. Really makes a lot of the struggle worth it even if I don't sell a copy!
Thought I'd share to see if other devs didn't know what to think of their own game until random people started playing
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So far way more people signed up for the beta than I thought, and I can't believe how enjoyable it is to watch people discover this dumb thing I poured my life into. Really makes a lot of the struggle worth it even if I don't sell a copy!
Thought I'd share to see if other devs didn't know what to think of their own game until random people started playing
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Hey /borrow! Please note while I do have roughly $5,000 in outstanding loans, I also have paid back 10 loans for a total of $5,162.00. I have an aggressive repayment plan over the next few months. to clear my current outstanding loans by March 2018 followed up by this loan in April 2018.
I can explain privately why this particular loan is so important and I am willing to sign a promissory note regarding this particular loan.
If you're interested in helping I appreciate it.
Best Regards, Faith.
PS: repayment would be $1000 in April. Thanks!
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If you're interested in helping I appreciate it.
Best Regards, Faith.
PS: repayment would be $1000 in April. Thanks!
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Hey /borrow! Please note while I do have roughly $5,000 in outstanding loans, I also have paid back 10 loans for a total of $5,162.00. I have an aggressive repayment plan over the next few months. to clear my current outstanding loans by March 2018 followed up by this loan in April 2018.
I can explain privately why this particular loan is so important and I am willing to sign a promissory note regarding this particular loan.
If you're interested in helping I appreciate it.
Best Regards, Faith.
PS: repayment would be $1000 in April. Thanks!
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2023.06.06 14:18 peejay050609 AITA for wanting my birthday money?
In my family, it’s common for each of us to give each other money for their birthday about £30. I don’t live with my family anymore, but we’re all still close and we all still talk to each other and visit each other etc.
The family consists of me (eldest son), my mum and dad (still together) and my youngest sister. Both my sister and I have partners and my sister also has a young son. My sister and her son live a few streets away from our parents, but I and my partner both live a couple of hundred miles away.
I love my family, but without trying to sound too big headed i’ve definitely done better from a financial point of view. I’m certainly not rich, but we do well enough to afford a roof over our head and we have a small amount in savings. I’ve loaned my parents and sister money at times and have forgiven a lot of debt that they owe me. I distinctly remember having to loan my parents some of my student loan money so they could pay their rent, which left me short until they could pay me back.
By contrast, my dad is medically retired and my mum works in a supermarket. My dad worked as a chef in his career, but had to retire due to arthritis. Mum doesn’t bring that much home, and her wages can be under 1000 a month. Dad gets universal credit (welfare) to help until he can receive his state pension next year. My mum wasn’t very good with money in the past, and I have vivid memories of hiding from bailiffs in the past. She’s gotten better since then, and can afford to go on holiday at least once a year.
My sister also works in retail, but receives universal credit for her and her son to top up her wages. He has a very loving house and I would never want to make my nephew go without.
Usually, I try to send my families birthday money through on time. Sometimes I’m late, but I haven’t gone a year without making sure they get something for their birthday.
Unfortunately, it hasn’t been the same in return. Usually, I get my birthday money a few months after the actual day itself, with both my mum and sister saying that they’re short for one reason or another. There have been years when I don’t get money at all, just a card. To top it off, my parents can usually afford to go on holiday and my sisters weekend photos on social media of going out with friends.
It feels unfair to me. I don’t begrudge my parents having holidays or my sister going out at the weekend, they all work extremely hard and it always makes me happy to see how my nephew has a really loving home life and can go out to do the things we couldn’t always afford to do. But then again, I feel like a bit of an afterthought. Whenever I point this out, my mum gets defensive, my sister is silent and usually I just have to forget the whole thing until Christmas (which thankfully goes a bit smoother).
My birthday was a week ago.
Am I being an arsehole for wanting my birthday money? I feel like I’m being spoilt for asking but this has happened every year since I was 18.
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The family consists of me (eldest son), my mum and dad (still together) and my youngest sister. Both my sister and I have partners and my sister also has a young son. My sister and her son live a few streets away from our parents, but I and my partner both live a couple of hundred miles away.
I love my family, but without trying to sound too big headed i’ve definitely done better from a financial point of view. I’m certainly not rich, but we do well enough to afford a roof over our head and we have a small amount in savings. I’ve loaned my parents and sister money at times and have forgiven a lot of debt that they owe me. I distinctly remember having to loan my parents some of my student loan money so they could pay their rent, which left me short until they could pay me back.
By contrast, my dad is medically retired and my mum works in a supermarket. My dad worked as a chef in his career, but had to retire due to arthritis. Mum doesn’t bring that much home, and her wages can be under 1000 a month. Dad gets universal credit (welfare) to help until he can receive his state pension next year. My mum wasn’t very good with money in the past, and I have vivid memories of hiding from bailiffs in the past. She’s gotten better since then, and can afford to go on holiday at least once a year.
My sister also works in retail, but receives universal credit for her and her son to top up her wages. He has a very loving house and I would never want to make my nephew go without.
Usually, I try to send my families birthday money through on time. Sometimes I’m late, but I haven’t gone a year without making sure they get something for their birthday.
Unfortunately, it hasn’t been the same in return. Usually, I get my birthday money a few months after the actual day itself, with both my mum and sister saying that they’re short for one reason or another. There have been years when I don’t get money at all, just a card. To top it off, my parents can usually afford to go on holiday and my sisters weekend photos on social media of going out with friends.
It feels unfair to me. I don’t begrudge my parents having holidays or my sister going out at the weekend, they all work extremely hard and it always makes me happy to see how my nephew has a really loving home life and can go out to do the things we couldn’t always afford to do. But then again, I feel like a bit of an afterthought. Whenever I point this out, my mum gets defensive, my sister is silent and usually I just have to forget the whole thing until Christmas (which thankfully goes a bit smoother).
My birthday was a week ago.
Am I being an arsehole for wanting my birthday money? I feel like I’m being spoilt for asking but this has happened every year since I was 18.
2023.06.06 14:18 toddlersareevil Backed out of moving to be near my mom
This might be more appropriate for another sub, but there’s less chance of it going viral here, I hope. I’m a mom of 4 (21f, 16f, 10f, 6M). For the sake of the story I’ll refer to kids by ages.
I live 3 hours south of my mom, 21F lives with her because my mom lives in a more progressive area; she’s happy and has friends there after some very sad and lonely teenage years. After my best friend moved out of state, I had nobody left to keep me where I live. I’d follow my bestie in a heartbeat, but we can’t afford to leave the state yet. Covid shutdowns set us back years financially.
It’s a long and complicated story but the summary is that my mom rented a cheap house a few blocks from her father’s house she and her brothers inherited. The brother that occupied the house died 18 months ago and basically let it rot for over a decade. She told me and my husband who are both very handy that we should come live there and we could just pay property tax and do the work. Yay, cheap ass rent! Right?
The biggest benefit for me was that I would have help with my youngest two kiddos. Not babysitting, mind you. Not often, anyway. Just another adult to pick up a little slack here and there. 10F has severe ADHD, 6M is autistic. I homeschool them both because their needs were not being met in public school. Mom is retired and 21F is a fantastic big sister. “We can all support and help each other!” She said.
Well, husband and I got to work. Turns out there is termite damage to the upstairs floor joists, a collapsed septic, and root intrusion on the pipes. New HVAC was needed, all new flooring, painting, and kitchen/bathrooms needed remodeling… and not for aesthetics. Still not deal breakers. We could deal with the floor joists and remodels, and hire out the HVAC and plumbing. We already financed the new HVAC and water heater and a few hundred in building materials.
What my mom failed to mention is that her marriage was over. I’d mostly moved into the house and husband was coming to help in his off time. She abruptly left her husband after a fight one night and moved in with me. What she also failed to mention is that she expected me to take over all her finances and medical scheduling. And be her counselor. And be her legal liaison and take over as executor of both her parents estates, one of which is incredibly complex. I overdosed on my ADHD meds less than a year ago because my mental/emotional load was so high. She knows why I overdosed. I was very open about it. I was incredibly put off that this retired woman was so eager to dump her load onto my plate with that knowledge.
Well, I needed to return to the other house to retrieve some items and prepare for the move. She urged me to leave 6M with her and 21F. When I came back, I learn from 21F that my mom complained the entire time I was gone that I’d left her with such a huge responsibility. (21F works full-time) . There was an early morning HVAC appointment I’d set up. She just needed to be there and let them in…and she texted me non-stop complaining about their presence. She knows my son is a full time job.
I went from laying tile and gutting bathrooms to spending all my time handling her business, and listening to her talk about how the man she was married to my entire childhood was a better husband than the one she’d just left. The man who abused me in every way imaginable…and she knew! That was so incredibly triggering for me.
All our talks in recent years about generational trauma, breaking cycles, and being able to self-reflect and recognize how our actions and words can harm our children were just talk. I’d been very open with her about the ways she’d unintentionally harmed me. She’d acknowledged and apologized for those things and it took years, but I was able to eventually forgive.
I recognize that the end of a relationship can bring out the worst in people so I tried to be understanding and gently set boundaries. But it only resulted in the same toxic reactions I’d grown so intimately familiar with as a child. Walking on eggshells. I felt like a broken, helpless child again.
Turns out she bought a 40 ft travel trailer and intended to live on the property without knowing we’d need to do a full upgrade to the electrical to power it, and remove two gigantic live oak trees to get it parked. In the meantime she moved into the bedroom my son, husband and I already occupied and she bought us an air mattress. She was spending all her money on the trailer payment. We’d now have to take on 100% of the repair expenses. Turns out, my husband couldn’t get a comparable job offer in the area. It would halve our income. That was the nail in the coffin. I knew we couldn’t follow through with the move. And that’s not even half the behaviors I dealt with.
The way she spoke of me, you’d think I’d hung the moon. But when I told her we weren’t coming and why (I stuck to the financial reasons when I broke the news) she hung up on me and blocked me after implying I’d fucked her over financially. Once I was no longer doing what she wanted me to, I was no longer the one who hung the moon. That hurt.
I’m done. I sent her an email telling her how that made me feel. Several days later, I got a card from her in the mail thanking husband and I for all we’ve done to make the house a home in such a short time. It was just like old times. Pretend nothing happened after a conflict. Not this time, mom.
Being a mom with zero support system is so hard. And it was really difficult to have a support system, albeit a small one, dangled over my head like that.
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I live 3 hours south of my mom, 21F lives with her because my mom lives in a more progressive area; she’s happy and has friends there after some very sad and lonely teenage years. After my best friend moved out of state, I had nobody left to keep me where I live. I’d follow my bestie in a heartbeat, but we can’t afford to leave the state yet. Covid shutdowns set us back years financially.
It’s a long and complicated story but the summary is that my mom rented a cheap house a few blocks from her father’s house she and her brothers inherited. The brother that occupied the house died 18 months ago and basically let it rot for over a decade. She told me and my husband who are both very handy that we should come live there and we could just pay property tax and do the work. Yay, cheap ass rent! Right?
The biggest benefit for me was that I would have help with my youngest two kiddos. Not babysitting, mind you. Not often, anyway. Just another adult to pick up a little slack here and there. 10F has severe ADHD, 6M is autistic. I homeschool them both because their needs were not being met in public school. Mom is retired and 21F is a fantastic big sister. “We can all support and help each other!” She said.
Well, husband and I got to work. Turns out there is termite damage to the upstairs floor joists, a collapsed septic, and root intrusion on the pipes. New HVAC was needed, all new flooring, painting, and kitchen/bathrooms needed remodeling… and not for aesthetics. Still not deal breakers. We could deal with the floor joists and remodels, and hire out the HVAC and plumbing. We already financed the new HVAC and water heater and a few hundred in building materials.
What my mom failed to mention is that her marriage was over. I’d mostly moved into the house and husband was coming to help in his off time. She abruptly left her husband after a fight one night and moved in with me. What she also failed to mention is that she expected me to take over all her finances and medical scheduling. And be her counselor. And be her legal liaison and take over as executor of both her parents estates, one of which is incredibly complex. I overdosed on my ADHD meds less than a year ago because my mental/emotional load was so high. She knows why I overdosed. I was very open about it. I was incredibly put off that this retired woman was so eager to dump her load onto my plate with that knowledge.
Well, I needed to return to the other house to retrieve some items and prepare for the move. She urged me to leave 6M with her and 21F. When I came back, I learn from 21F that my mom complained the entire time I was gone that I’d left her with such a huge responsibility. (21F works full-time) . There was an early morning HVAC appointment I’d set up. She just needed to be there and let them in…and she texted me non-stop complaining about their presence. She knows my son is a full time job.
I went from laying tile and gutting bathrooms to spending all my time handling her business, and listening to her talk about how the man she was married to my entire childhood was a better husband than the one she’d just left. The man who abused me in every way imaginable…and she knew! That was so incredibly triggering for me.
All our talks in recent years about generational trauma, breaking cycles, and being able to self-reflect and recognize how our actions and words can harm our children were just talk. I’d been very open with her about the ways she’d unintentionally harmed me. She’d acknowledged and apologized for those things and it took years, but I was able to eventually forgive.
I recognize that the end of a relationship can bring out the worst in people so I tried to be understanding and gently set boundaries. But it only resulted in the same toxic reactions I’d grown so intimately familiar with as a child. Walking on eggshells. I felt like a broken, helpless child again.
Turns out she bought a 40 ft travel trailer and intended to live on the property without knowing we’d need to do a full upgrade to the electrical to power it, and remove two gigantic live oak trees to get it parked. In the meantime she moved into the bedroom my son, husband and I already occupied and she bought us an air mattress. She was spending all her money on the trailer payment. We’d now have to take on 100% of the repair expenses. Turns out, my husband couldn’t get a comparable job offer in the area. It would halve our income. That was the nail in the coffin. I knew we couldn’t follow through with the move. And that’s not even half the behaviors I dealt with.
The way she spoke of me, you’d think I’d hung the moon. But when I told her we weren’t coming and why (I stuck to the financial reasons when I broke the news) she hung up on me and blocked me after implying I’d fucked her over financially. Once I was no longer doing what she wanted me to, I was no longer the one who hung the moon. That hurt.
I’m done. I sent her an email telling her how that made me feel. Several days later, I got a card from her in the mail thanking husband and I for all we’ve done to make the house a home in such a short time. It was just like old times. Pretend nothing happened after a conflict. Not this time, mom.
Being a mom with zero support system is so hard. And it was really difficult to have a support system, albeit a small one, dangled over my head like that.
2023.06.06 14:18 Odd-Attorney-007 Dad(57M) is cheating on my Mother and is suffering from anxiety disorder as well
My dad's mental health began deteriorating 6-7 years ago, right when an illness that even doctors weren't able to diagnose for 3 years. My mother's been sick her whole life, like 2-3 times a week she will be sick, atleast thats what I have noticed in my 27 years of life.
Now, my father is a military veteran. He served for 24 years. We(Me and my mom) used to stay with him for like 80-90 days a year other time he used to be away from home. Although he wasn't a part of the infantry unit so it will be fair to say he isn't much battle tested. He retired 12 years ago.
Now he has been cheating on my mother for more than 5 years now. His mistress is my mom's sister. But 3 months ago his anxiety episodes began getting bad real bad like he would drink a lot even hit my mom, something he never did before in 30 years of marriage. My maternal aunt i.e his mistress came to stay with is during my birthday week and his anxiety and drinking went beyond control. Its like he gets stuck in a loop and constantly repeats what he wants and won't stop unless that demand is met.
Now, during his drinking induced blackout he did some loose talk and thats when I actually got suspicious and I took his mobile and linked the Whatsapp to my tablet and I have been reading his chats for past 2 months. I have enough evidence on my hand to prove he is cheating. Now, 2 days ago some fight broke between them (dad and his mistress). And they were hurling abuses at each other over call (I eavesdropped) and over text (Whatsapp). She is travelling to a hill station along with her colleague friend and now ever since yesterday my father's anxiety is off the charts , he is constantly calling her non stop. Last night she called and told me to ask my father not to bother her. I tried to talk some sense into him but all in vain. Today in the afternoon he tells me and my mom that he is going to his friends house, a friend from his military days, a friend to whom he never met for almost 18 years and all of a sudden he wanted to meet him. We knew he wanted to confront my aunt. So I took the car keys and he tried to snatch them now I am trying not to get into a fist fight with my own father but he wasn't stopping so I yelled "I am well aware about your affair!". He took a step back and got highly defensive like how could you even say that...blah blah. I showed him the screenshots,I made sure my mother didn't hear us. Now I dont know what to do going forward. Me and my are dependent on him in terms of livelihood, I am about to graduat and will be looking to make myself financially viable so that I can take my mom out of this house. I couldn't tell her, she won't be able to handle it so I dont know what to do now. For context I am from Asia so apply asian family logical reasoning.
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Now, my father is a military veteran. He served for 24 years. We(Me and my mom) used to stay with him for like 80-90 days a year other time he used to be away from home. Although he wasn't a part of the infantry unit so it will be fair to say he isn't much battle tested. He retired 12 years ago.
Now he has been cheating on my mother for more than 5 years now. His mistress is my mom's sister. But 3 months ago his anxiety episodes began getting bad real bad like he would drink a lot even hit my mom, something he never did before in 30 years of marriage. My maternal aunt i.e his mistress came to stay with is during my birthday week and his anxiety and drinking went beyond control. Its like he gets stuck in a loop and constantly repeats what he wants and won't stop unless that demand is met.
Now, during his drinking induced blackout he did some loose talk and thats when I actually got suspicious and I took his mobile and linked the Whatsapp to my tablet and I have been reading his chats for past 2 months. I have enough evidence on my hand to prove he is cheating. Now, 2 days ago some fight broke between them (dad and his mistress). And they were hurling abuses at each other over call (I eavesdropped) and over text (Whatsapp). She is travelling to a hill station along with her colleague friend and now ever since yesterday my father's anxiety is off the charts , he is constantly calling her non stop. Last night she called and told me to ask my father not to bother her. I tried to talk some sense into him but all in vain. Today in the afternoon he tells me and my mom that he is going to his friends house, a friend from his military days, a friend to whom he never met for almost 18 years and all of a sudden he wanted to meet him. We knew he wanted to confront my aunt. So I took the car keys and he tried to snatch them now I am trying not to get into a fist fight with my own father but he wasn't stopping so I yelled "I am well aware about your affair!". He took a step back and got highly defensive like how could you even say that...blah blah. I showed him the screenshots,I made sure my mother didn't hear us. Now I dont know what to do going forward. Me and my are dependent on him in terms of livelihood, I am about to graduat and will be looking to make myself financially viable so that I can take my mom out of this house. I couldn't tell her, she won't be able to handle it so I dont know what to do now. For context I am from Asia so apply asian family logical reasoning.
2023.06.06 14:16 MouffieMou Team Engrave
Hello! i'd like to say i'm fairly new, the reality is i've been playing for months, maybe i'm over a year already i totally forgot. thing is, i'm still trying to learn what to do in various situations, i'm trying to get most of the characters unlocked so in case it turns out they're good i have an headstart, also stats pile up when u get more characters so.. yeah. i know i have to max out Jing Ke and possibly Zhou (1000% multipliers seems pretty op) i read Chiyome is also very good, so everytime i see these banners i'm goin to pull some extra copies and slowly get them to 6. thing is, what else can i get to do engrave? i want to ATLEAST get to floor 18 to comfortably farm red artefacts :D im having lots of trouble in the earth and water ones, fire is done floor 18 3 stars, the wind is at 18 but 2 stars, i guess ill wait to be so overleveled to overpower the enemies and survive somehow.
so *TLDR* please, can you tell me exactly who to aim for to have the teams i need for ANY type of content and *especially to clear engrave*? type of content: guild bosses, towers, super arena, lord of sky, dragon attack
THANK YOU SO MUCH >_
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so *TLDR* please, can you tell me exactly who to aim for to have the teams i need for ANY type of content and *especially to clear engrave*? type of content: guild bosses, towers, super arena, lord of sky, dragon attack
THANK YOU SO MUCH >_
2023.06.06 14:15 Illustrious-Grass102 Hearthstone is in the much better shape now than in 2016-2017 “golden age” and here’s why
First part of the post is presenting arguments and in the end I will explain why the popularity has actually declined. Let me begin by saying that I played a LOT during the early era of HS, the most during Old Gods, Gadgeztan, Ungoro, Knights of the Frozen Throne etc. The time that is now considered to be “the golden age”. So everything that I’m about to tell I have experienced and witnessed
1.Randomness, “nowadays the game feels like everything depends on random card generation”. Indeed, in the older times you didn’t have so much card generation effects. Instead specific rng cards were present like knife juggler, mage’s flamewalker and others, which is arguably a worse way of diversifying games. Because you couldn’t impact the specific rng effects whatsoever. Juggler would either hit a target you want or not, old lightning storm would either kill 3 health minions or not. Yogg-Saron is the prime example of such effects. He could literally win you the game straight up or kill you or do absolutely nothing, it’s random! It’s a fun card to recall now but it was just ridiculous from a competitive standpoint. Whereas contemporary card generating effects almost always give you a room to predict your opponent’s pick and make the correct/best move. For example Hipster only gives your opponent spells that are not in your deck, thus giving a limited number of cards to play around. Rogue concoction mechanic only provides a handful effects to choose, so you can and should anticipate your opponent’s future move and play accordingly. Or DH Taste of Chaos only allows them to discover a Fel spell which again you can anticipate and play around. 2.Balance changes and updates. In older HS you had one deck(undertaker hunter, aggro shaman with patches, pirate warrior you name it) that was clearly better than the other ones and was dominating standard for months! Blizzard made changes very rarely and that lead to cards like Patches the Pirate being unnerfed for almost a year! And that year was 2017. Nowadays they change cards more frequent. We have minisets between expansions that keep the game fresh. And they even buff cards that are too weak! Something that was unheard of with previous development teams. 3.Diversity. Over the years we’ve received many new cool game modes. Classic which is fun to try and find out just how powerful Rogue was. Duels that is completely broken but that’s kind of the point. Free adventures with dungeon runs and lore. Battlegrounds that are awesome and live their own life. Man, in earlier HS there were arena, standard(that was more stagnant), paid adventures and wild, that’s it. When it comes to meta. Nowadays it’s quite difficult to pinpoint the universally best deck in the ladder. Due to the frequent updates the game feels fresh and meta is constantly evolving. With 11 classes meta is more balanced and way more diverse than what it used to be. 4.Economy. I’m sure nobody will argue that it has improved. The current battle pass system allows you to play any game mode you want and still earn resources which is great
“Ok then, if Hearthstone is better now why the popularity has declined so much?” If you haven’t noticed the decline in player count has been happening not only in HS but all over the online card game industry. Gwent that was my favourite ccg and that people used to call “the killer of hearthstone” no joke, has f*cking died! Runeterra also a great game had its peak in 2020 then declined. Marvel Snap had a successful release, now it’s sort of stagnated. Why? Maybe ccg is just a doomed genre? No, but it’s a very niche one. When Hearthstone first released it was a phenomenon. The super high quality online card game like no other from Blizzard! Remember, in 2013 Blizzard was one of the most greatest gaming companies in the industry. Their name alone attracted a huge mass of people. The World of Warcraft was more popular than ever and Hearthstone being in the same universe played in advantage. And most importantly Hearthstone was the first online ccg on such a scale. The hype was immense and other studios began creating their own card games. Hearthstone began skyrocketing in players, that in turn attracted streamers and content creators, which allowed to make a big community that created videos, guides, memes etc. all of which spread through the internet and attracted even more new players. A lot of whom weren’t really big fans of the genre. They were just riding the hype train and trying the big new thing. After a couple of years the hype had faded away and the reality came into view. Collectible card games are just inherently not as attractive to people as shooters, mobas, mmos and other more popular video games genres. So naturally there came the decline. It was approximately from 2018 to 2021. Some games have survived some haven’t(RIP Gwent). But in 2022 Hearthstones actually stabilised. And since then it began slowly growing in numbers again. Card games found their player base and are rising again.
“Ok, ok, but why do I FEEL the game was better back then?” - It’s nostalgia
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1.Randomness, “nowadays the game feels like everything depends on random card generation”. Indeed, in the older times you didn’t have so much card generation effects. Instead specific rng cards were present like knife juggler, mage’s flamewalker and others, which is arguably a worse way of diversifying games. Because you couldn’t impact the specific rng effects whatsoever. Juggler would either hit a target you want or not, old lightning storm would either kill 3 health minions or not. Yogg-Saron is the prime example of such effects. He could literally win you the game straight up or kill you or do absolutely nothing, it’s random! It’s a fun card to recall now but it was just ridiculous from a competitive standpoint. Whereas contemporary card generating effects almost always give you a room to predict your opponent’s pick and make the correct/best move. For example Hipster only gives your opponent spells that are not in your deck, thus giving a limited number of cards to play around. Rogue concoction mechanic only provides a handful effects to choose, so you can and should anticipate your opponent’s future move and play accordingly. Or DH Taste of Chaos only allows them to discover a Fel spell which again you can anticipate and play around. 2.Balance changes and updates. In older HS you had one deck(undertaker hunter, aggro shaman with patches, pirate warrior you name it) that was clearly better than the other ones and was dominating standard for months! Blizzard made changes very rarely and that lead to cards like Patches the Pirate being unnerfed for almost a year! And that year was 2017. Nowadays they change cards more frequent. We have minisets between expansions that keep the game fresh. And they even buff cards that are too weak! Something that was unheard of with previous development teams. 3.Diversity. Over the years we’ve received many new cool game modes. Classic which is fun to try and find out just how powerful Rogue was. Duels that is completely broken but that’s kind of the point. Free adventures with dungeon runs and lore. Battlegrounds that are awesome and live their own life. Man, in earlier HS there were arena, standard(that was more stagnant), paid adventures and wild, that’s it. When it comes to meta. Nowadays it’s quite difficult to pinpoint the universally best deck in the ladder. Due to the frequent updates the game feels fresh and meta is constantly evolving. With 11 classes meta is more balanced and way more diverse than what it used to be. 4.Economy. I’m sure nobody will argue that it has improved. The current battle pass system allows you to play any game mode you want and still earn resources which is great
“Ok then, if Hearthstone is better now why the popularity has declined so much?” If you haven’t noticed the decline in player count has been happening not only in HS but all over the online card game industry. Gwent that was my favourite ccg and that people used to call “the killer of hearthstone” no joke, has f*cking died! Runeterra also a great game had its peak in 2020 then declined. Marvel Snap had a successful release, now it’s sort of stagnated. Why? Maybe ccg is just a doomed genre? No, but it’s a very niche one. When Hearthstone first released it was a phenomenon. The super high quality online card game like no other from Blizzard! Remember, in 2013 Blizzard was one of the most greatest gaming companies in the industry. Their name alone attracted a huge mass of people. The World of Warcraft was more popular than ever and Hearthstone being in the same universe played in advantage. And most importantly Hearthstone was the first online ccg on such a scale. The hype was immense and other studios began creating their own card games. Hearthstone began skyrocketing in players, that in turn attracted streamers and content creators, which allowed to make a big community that created videos, guides, memes etc. all of which spread through the internet and attracted even more new players. A lot of whom weren’t really big fans of the genre. They were just riding the hype train and trying the big new thing. After a couple of years the hype had faded away and the reality came into view. Collectible card games are just inherently not as attractive to people as shooters, mobas, mmos and other more popular video games genres. So naturally there came the decline. It was approximately from 2018 to 2021. Some games have survived some haven’t(RIP Gwent). But in 2022 Hearthstones actually stabilised. And since then it began slowly growing in numbers again. Card games found their player base and are rising again.
“Ok, ok, but why do I FEEL the game was better back then?” - It’s nostalgia
2023.06.06 14:11 Vylestar Averaging 15-30 min REM Sleep
Doing everything right I can think of
How are some of you getting 1-2 hours of REM consistently?
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- Sleep schedule on point
- No alcohol
- Exercise everyday
- Walk everyday
- Last meal 3-4 hours before bed
- Room temp 68 degrees
- Blue light blockers
- Light dimming before bed
- Sleep tea with ACV
- Light rain white noise
- Lost 20lbs and got rid of snoring (184lbs->164lbs)
How are some of you getting 1-2 hours of REM consistently?
2023.06.06 14:09 Jhonjournalist Numerous Kidney Sufferers in Gaza Fight for Their Lives
 | submitted by Jhonjournalist to u/Jhonjournalist [link] [comments] Due to a lack of medical care and supplies, more than 1,200 Palestinians with renal ailments in the besieged coastal enclave of Gaza are experiencing significant health problems. These patients run the risk of not being able to attend their scheduled dialysis appointments and are subject to serious health risks, according to the Hamas-controlled health ministry in Gaza. A Medicinal ScarcityThe Gaza Strip has been without diagnostic tests for more than 18 months as a result of the Israeli occupation’s ban on the delivery of mobile imaging equipment and X-rays. After the Palestinian Islamic Hamas movement seized power in the region in 2007, the blockade was put in place.As a result, patients like Samia al-Jammaly, a kidney disease sufferer in Gaza, must wait a long time for their routine blood tests at al-Shifa Hospital.
Another patient from Gaza, Sameh al-Ayoubi, experiences persistent agony and is unable to access any other kind of care. Al-Jammaly and Al-Ayoubi call on the international community to put Israel under pressure to lift its restrictions on medical supplies and equipment so that patients can freely travel between Gaza and the West Bank. 10% of the world’s population is afflicted by chronic renal disease, which is ranked 18th on the list of fatal illnesses. Learn More: https://www.worldmagzine.com/health-and-medical/numerous-kidney-sufferers-in-gaza-fight-for-their-lives/ |
2023.06.06 14:08 Crandy_12 17 years later....
I don't even know where to start with this. I am reparenting myself and have been for the last 4 years. I am 35, exhausted, and still feel heartbroken frequently.
I am my family's scapegoat. The oldest of 3 girls, all 4.5 years apart. My dad was (and still currently is after nearly 40 years) the district prosecutor in my community. He is a recovering alcoholic who drank heavily throughout my childhood. My mom went back to school to be a social worker when I was 8ish years old, and continued going through two masters degrees. This was the 90's, and online college wasn't a thing; she was frequently gone at school, when I was in middle school she split her time at home half of the week and at school in married housing three hours away the other half. We were kids at home with our alcoholic dad, who was also drunk on his own power. He was abusive verbally and physically, though not in the traditional hitting way. He would grab and push and squeeze my face while pushing me up against the wall. When I was 14, he told me I was his greatest mistake in life and that I should have never been born. I would call my mom at school, and she would side with his lies and that I was a "hysterical and dramatic child".
I started "acting out" in high school around 16. I experimented with alcohol in high school, which still feels like a really fucking normal thing for a kid to do. I had a boyfriend. I lost my virginity at 15. When my mom found out that I had had sex 3 weeks later, a huge fight ensued. Screaming, calling me a 'ho", etc. . My 15 year old brain screamed that I was leaving and my hormonal teenage brain said "I am leaving this house on my own, or you will carry me out." My mom packed me up in the car, drove me to a hospital an hour away, took me to the ER and told them that I was having unprotected sex, needed a pregnancy test, an STD test, and that I should be admitted to a psych facility as I was a "danger to myself". She dropped me off at a psych facility 2 hours from home, and I didn't see them or hear from them for a week. When I got home, my punishment was to never speak to my boyfriend again. I wasn't even allowed to tell the poor kid why, he just never heard from me again. The psych facility had me sign a "contract" that I would never contact him again.
This continued on and on for years. I turned 18 in November of my senior year and I moved out. The next 6 months were nuts. I was arrested twice. Once for minor in consumption, once for minor in possession, and my mom's sister sued me to teach me a lesson over $600 I borrowed to fix my car at 17. Each time I had an interaction with the law, the police told me my mom and dad had called me in to teach me a lesson. When I was grown, the police told me that they were always instructed to bust me first to make an example out of me. Their marriage was a mess, they were unfaithful to each other, hated each other, and the only thing they could agree on and bond over was controlling me.
It has been almost 20 years. I have put myself through college and therapy. I have been married, divorced, ignored for months on end by my family over the years. I have had my own struggles with alcohol and feeling loved. I got a DUI at age 22. I now have 3 college degrees and am a pediatric nurse practitioner. Everyday I want to be the person I needed as a teen for my patients.
I accepted a new job two weeks ago, and in applying for my state licensure, an MIP that I got at age 18 came up on my background check. An MIP that I got from my mom and dad calling me in. I was the sober driver that night, and when I was pulled over I blew 0.00 BAC. I wasn't holding any alcohol, but a person in my backseat had a case of beer. I got an MIP because it was my car and I was the driver, and my DA father set the rules.
17 years later, I have to explain to the board of nursing and my employer why I left high school with a criminal record.
So what did I do? I call my mom. My mom, who I believe has spent years "working on herself". The woman is a goddamned family therapist, and was learning techniques and skills through all of those years. My dad was lenient to everyone in town except me. I think the term was "throw the book at her" growing up.
My mom last night:
"I’m saying that you blame everything on us when you were the one out making decisions that affected your future as well. You were an adult at 18 as well."
"We had no control over your actions at that time. You need to take some responsibility for all you did that got you in trouble."
Me: "I am 35. Don't you think I have taken enough responsibility over the last 17 years?"
They deny it. All of it. I am still being gaslit.
I was a kid. A fucking kid. And now I am an adult, and I am still answering for normal kid things and my parents not being there for me.
What the fuck. What in the absolute fuck. My dad prosecuted me. They both abused their power in our town, and used it to try to control me. Who makes sure their teenager leaves high school with a criminal record to "teach them a lesson" about drinking at 18?!
There is so much else that goes with this story that includes being thrown out with my stuff in trash bags x3 growing up. Once in the rain, I was dropped off at my parent's by a friend, and my stuff was outside in trash bags and the doors were locked. I lived on a friend's couch for 6 months at 19. All the while, my upper middle class family was using ME as their scapegoat for why our family was so fucked. If I threatened to call child services, my dad would say "go ahead, call them. Who do you think prosecutes those cases? Me. Who do you think the police or going to believe? You or me? Me."
I respond like I am told to: "I appreciate that you have your truth, but please respect that I have mine too. I feel like I am owed an apology from you, Dad and my aunt, and I feel like it is time that I get that without being shamed at the same time. We are all adults. If we are going to talk about how I was an adult when I was drinking at age 18, then we should talk about how you all parented at age 45. It’s not okay to look at me at 18 under a microscope and escape any responsibility you had as my parents and aunt."
I am angry, embarrassed, sad, and so so so so so so tired of being gaslit. When I bring up my pain, they deny those things happened and/or tell me that it was all my fault as a teenager and I should hbe thought about my future at the time. My younger sisters learned from an early age that I was "a mess" and "had problems", and that is they way our relationships still play out, even though I am far more successful and driven than either one of them. I no longer have a relationship with alcohol, but by choice. I don't like how it makes me feel physically or emotionally.
Where were my parents? And why can't they see that they were the grown-ups? My heart hurts, and I am beyond embarrassed and exhausted that 17 years later, I still have to answer for an MIP at age 18 because my parents couldn't regulate their own emotions.
That's all. That is my story. I just want to feel loved and normal and have a support system in my family. I operate as an only child now and treat my sisters like cousins. But FFS, I just want someone to acknowledge they didn't make the right decisions as parents. I need the gaslighting to stop.
These things aren't okay. They weren't okay then, and they aren't okay now. I know they are different people 17 years later, but Jesus, can't they objectively look at their parenting choices by this point?
I was just a kid.
Edited to add: I questioned all of this and my reality in my late 20's. I requested my medical records from the psych facility and my criminal background from the state. When you read it, it is even more absurd and nearly identical to how I remember it.
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I am my family's scapegoat. The oldest of 3 girls, all 4.5 years apart. My dad was (and still currently is after nearly 40 years) the district prosecutor in my community. He is a recovering alcoholic who drank heavily throughout my childhood. My mom went back to school to be a social worker when I was 8ish years old, and continued going through two masters degrees. This was the 90's, and online college wasn't a thing; she was frequently gone at school, when I was in middle school she split her time at home half of the week and at school in married housing three hours away the other half. We were kids at home with our alcoholic dad, who was also drunk on his own power. He was abusive verbally and physically, though not in the traditional hitting way. He would grab and push and squeeze my face while pushing me up against the wall. When I was 14, he told me I was his greatest mistake in life and that I should have never been born. I would call my mom at school, and she would side with his lies and that I was a "hysterical and dramatic child".
I started "acting out" in high school around 16. I experimented with alcohol in high school, which still feels like a really fucking normal thing for a kid to do. I had a boyfriend. I lost my virginity at 15. When my mom found out that I had had sex 3 weeks later, a huge fight ensued. Screaming, calling me a 'ho", etc. . My 15 year old brain screamed that I was leaving and my hormonal teenage brain said "I am leaving this house on my own, or you will carry me out." My mom packed me up in the car, drove me to a hospital an hour away, took me to the ER and told them that I was having unprotected sex, needed a pregnancy test, an STD test, and that I should be admitted to a psych facility as I was a "danger to myself". She dropped me off at a psych facility 2 hours from home, and I didn't see them or hear from them for a week. When I got home, my punishment was to never speak to my boyfriend again. I wasn't even allowed to tell the poor kid why, he just never heard from me again. The psych facility had me sign a "contract" that I would never contact him again.
This continued on and on for years. I turned 18 in November of my senior year and I moved out. The next 6 months were nuts. I was arrested twice. Once for minor in consumption, once for minor in possession, and my mom's sister sued me to teach me a lesson over $600 I borrowed to fix my car at 17. Each time I had an interaction with the law, the police told me my mom and dad had called me in to teach me a lesson. When I was grown, the police told me that they were always instructed to bust me first to make an example out of me. Their marriage was a mess, they were unfaithful to each other, hated each other, and the only thing they could agree on and bond over was controlling me.
It has been almost 20 years. I have put myself through college and therapy. I have been married, divorced, ignored for months on end by my family over the years. I have had my own struggles with alcohol and feeling loved. I got a DUI at age 22. I now have 3 college degrees and am a pediatric nurse practitioner. Everyday I want to be the person I needed as a teen for my patients.
I accepted a new job two weeks ago, and in applying for my state licensure, an MIP that I got at age 18 came up on my background check. An MIP that I got from my mom and dad calling me in. I was the sober driver that night, and when I was pulled over I blew 0.00 BAC. I wasn't holding any alcohol, but a person in my backseat had a case of beer. I got an MIP because it was my car and I was the driver, and my DA father set the rules.
17 years later, I have to explain to the board of nursing and my employer why I left high school with a criminal record.
So what did I do? I call my mom. My mom, who I believe has spent years "working on herself". The woman is a goddamned family therapist, and was learning techniques and skills through all of those years. My dad was lenient to everyone in town except me. I think the term was "throw the book at her" growing up.
My mom last night:
"I’m saying that you blame everything on us when you were the one out making decisions that affected your future as well. You were an adult at 18 as well."
"We had no control over your actions at that time. You need to take some responsibility for all you did that got you in trouble."
Me: "I am 35. Don't you think I have taken enough responsibility over the last 17 years?"
They deny it. All of it. I am still being gaslit.
I was a kid. A fucking kid. And now I am an adult, and I am still answering for normal kid things and my parents not being there for me.
What the fuck. What in the absolute fuck. My dad prosecuted me. They both abused their power in our town, and used it to try to control me. Who makes sure their teenager leaves high school with a criminal record to "teach them a lesson" about drinking at 18?!
There is so much else that goes with this story that includes being thrown out with my stuff in trash bags x3 growing up. Once in the rain, I was dropped off at my parent's by a friend, and my stuff was outside in trash bags and the doors were locked. I lived on a friend's couch for 6 months at 19. All the while, my upper middle class family was using ME as their scapegoat for why our family was so fucked. If I threatened to call child services, my dad would say "go ahead, call them. Who do you think prosecutes those cases? Me. Who do you think the police or going to believe? You or me? Me."
I respond like I am told to: "I appreciate that you have your truth, but please respect that I have mine too. I feel like I am owed an apology from you, Dad and my aunt, and I feel like it is time that I get that without being shamed at the same time. We are all adults. If we are going to talk about how I was an adult when I was drinking at age 18, then we should talk about how you all parented at age 45. It’s not okay to look at me at 18 under a microscope and escape any responsibility you had as my parents and aunt."
I am angry, embarrassed, sad, and so so so so so so tired of being gaslit. When I bring up my pain, they deny those things happened and/or tell me that it was all my fault as a teenager and I should hbe thought about my future at the time. My younger sisters learned from an early age that I was "a mess" and "had problems", and that is they way our relationships still play out, even though I am far more successful and driven than either one of them. I no longer have a relationship with alcohol, but by choice. I don't like how it makes me feel physically or emotionally.
Where were my parents? And why can't they see that they were the grown-ups? My heart hurts, and I am beyond embarrassed and exhausted that 17 years later, I still have to answer for an MIP at age 18 because my parents couldn't regulate their own emotions.
That's all. That is my story. I just want to feel loved and normal and have a support system in my family. I operate as an only child now and treat my sisters like cousins. But FFS, I just want someone to acknowledge they didn't make the right decisions as parents. I need the gaslighting to stop.
These things aren't okay. They weren't okay then, and they aren't okay now. I know they are different people 17 years later, but Jesus, can't they objectively look at their parenting choices by this point?
I was just a kid.
Edited to add: I questioned all of this and my reality in my late 20's. I requested my medical records from the psych facility and my criminal background from the state. When you read it, it is even more absurd and nearly identical to how I remember it.
2023.06.06 14:06 Nikittymeow416 18 Years Ago this month My friend fell 40 feet off a cliff to his death....
He actually died on June 2nd, 2006 and I was only 16 at the time. We had been drinking together at a place called the Rims and to this day we don't know if it was suicide or an accident.
At the time, a lot of people thought I pushed him, and it REALLY fucked with me because he was one of the most unique, and beautiful souls I had ever met... I loved him and looked up to him so much.
He had a lot of problems (alcohol and opiates), but was just incredible and lovely and soooo soooo one of a kind of irreplaceable... His family were just the greatest people you would ever meet too...
I still feel tremendous guilt to this day, and blame myself. (I remember screaming to get the attention of the people who lived under the cliffs. I almost might have died myself because I tried to climb down the cliff.)
Going to the police station afterwards, and eventually being told he died was just... Ugh.... (My mom was actually a night ICU nurse and knew right away because there were no trauma calls that came in)
I never got any therapy after it happened, and NGL I took a very similar path. Got hooked on opiates and drank all the time... I got sober in 2016 (my mom actually died suddenly in 2017 but that's a whole other can of worms) but yeah...
He would have been 41 today (his birthday is 06/06/1983.... His 23rd birthday in 2006 was on 06/06/06 and he had been making prophetic posts on his myspace at the time)
Anyways... I'm in a much better spot now, but for the longest time I wasn't. If you have severe trauma in your life... Get some help ASAP or you can process that grief in VERY destructive ways and ruin your life.
Jeff, I don't know where you are, but I am so sorry this happened to you and I think about you ALL the time. You were a treasure, and so many people love and miss you to this day.
Thanks for reading... I have tears streaming down my face but this was very cathartic for me and I feel better.
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At the time, a lot of people thought I pushed him, and it REALLY fucked with me because he was one of the most unique, and beautiful souls I had ever met... I loved him and looked up to him so much.
He had a lot of problems (alcohol and opiates), but was just incredible and lovely and soooo soooo one of a kind of irreplaceable... His family were just the greatest people you would ever meet too...
I still feel tremendous guilt to this day, and blame myself. (I remember screaming to get the attention of the people who lived under the cliffs. I almost might have died myself because I tried to climb down the cliff.)
Going to the police station afterwards, and eventually being told he died was just... Ugh.... (My mom was actually a night ICU nurse and knew right away because there were no trauma calls that came in)
I never got any therapy after it happened, and NGL I took a very similar path. Got hooked on opiates and drank all the time... I got sober in 2016 (my mom actually died suddenly in 2017 but that's a whole other can of worms) but yeah...
He would have been 41 today (his birthday is 06/06/1983.... His 23rd birthday in 2006 was on 06/06/06 and he had been making prophetic posts on his myspace at the time)
Anyways... I'm in a much better spot now, but for the longest time I wasn't. If you have severe trauma in your life... Get some help ASAP or you can process that grief in VERY destructive ways and ruin your life.
Jeff, I don't know where you are, but I am so sorry this happened to you and I think about you ALL the time. You were a treasure, and so many people love and miss you to this day.
Thanks for reading... I have tears streaming down my face but this was very cathartic for me and I feel better.
2023.06.06 14:05 Xterno50 [US] [H] PSN/Xbox game keys - PSN card €75, PSN card $70, The Elder Scrolls Online Deluxe Collection: Necrom, Street Fighter 6, The Lord of the Rings: Gollum, TT ISLE OF MAN: RIDE ON THE EDGE 3,DrifeCE, Stray Blade, Cities Skylines PSVR2, Transport Fever 2, Football Manager 2023 [W] PayPal
Xbox Games
Playstation Games
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| Title | Console | Price (USD) | Region |
|---|---|---|---|
| The Elder Scrolls Online Deluxe Collection: Necrom | Xbox | 60 | Global |
| Street Fighter 6 Deluxe Edition | Xbox | 60 | Global |
Playstation Games
| Title | Console | Price (USD) | Region |
|---|---|---|---|
| The Elder Scrolls Online Deluxe Collection: Necrom | PS4 & PS5 | 60 | Europe |
| Playstation Network Card $70 | PS4 & PS5 | 63 | North America |
| Playstation Network Card €75 | PS4 & PS5 | 68 | Europe |
| The Lord of the Rings: Gollum Precious Edition | PS4 & PS5 | 30 | Europe |
| Space Engineers | PS4 & PS5 | 10 | North America |
| Miasma Chronicles | PS4 & PS5 | 30 | Europe |
| War Mongrels | PS5 | 25 | North America |
| Serial Cleaners + Dino Park DLC | PS4 & PS5 | 25 | Europe |
| TT ISLE OF MAN: RIDE ON THE EDGE 3 | PS4 & PS5 | 30 | Europe |
| DriftCE | PS5 | 20 | Europe & North America |
| Stray Blade | PS4 & PS5 | 15 | Europe |
| Clash: Artifacts of Chaos | PS4 & PS5 | 20 | Europe |
| Transport Fever 2 Console Edition | PS4 & PS5 | 25 | Europe |
| Townsmen PSVR2 | PS5 | 20 | North America |
| Football Manager 2023 | PS4 & PS5 | 25 | North America |
| Scars Above | PS4 & PS5 | 28 | Europe |
| Chef Life Simulator | PS5 | 25 | Europe |
| Townsmen VR PSV2 | PS5 | 20 | North America |
| Cities VR: Enhanced Edition PSV2 | PS5 | 20 | Europe |
| Cave Digger 2: Dig Harder PSVR2 | PS4 & PS5 | 15 | Europe |
| Colossal Cave | PS5 | 20 | North America |
| Overland | PS4 & PS5 | 10 | North America |
| Dungeon Munchies | PS5 | 10 | North America |
| Overland | PS4 & PS5 | 12 | North America |
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2023.06.06 14:04 Then_Marionberry_259 JUN 06, 2023 SUP.V NORTHERN SUPERIOR REPORTS 0.90 G/T GOLD OVER 59.0 METRES AND 0.73 G/T GOLD OVER 61.0 METRES FROM THE FALCON GOLD ZONE AND 1.84 G/T AU OVER 11.5 METRES FROM EXPLORATION DRILLING AT LAC SURPRISE
 | https://preview.redd.it/8n6ddyvb1e4b1.png?width=3500&format=png&auto=webp&s=aeccc67a511d458452346397751ee870f8c170a1 submitted by Then_Marionberry_259 to Treaty_Creek [link] [comments] TORONTO, ON / ACCESSWIRE / June 6, 2023 / Northern Superior Resources Inc. ("Northern Superior" or the "Company") (TSXV:SUP)(OTCQX:NSUPF) is pleased to report the final assay results for nine holes completed on the Falcon Gold Zone ("FGZ") on its large (20km x 15km) 100% owned Lac Surprise property, located within the Chibougamau gold camp, Québec. Highlights****Include (Grades uncut; lengths measured along hole, Table 1):
[1] Independent Technical Report for the Nelligan Gold Project, Quebec, Canada, February 22, 2023. Prepared in accordance with National Instrument 43-101 Standards of Disclosure for Mineral Projects Technical Report for IAMGOLD Corporation (IAMGOLD) and Vanstar Mining Resources Inc. (Vanstar) by SRK Consulting (Canada) Inc. (SRK). Definition Drilling Program Confirms Grades and Widths The Company completed 11 definition core drill holes in this program designed to test the near surface continuity and depth extension of the FGZ. All eight (8) holes reported in this release were successful in intersecting gold bearing zones highlighted by drill hole LCS-22-075 located in the central portion and near surface of the FGZ intersected 0.90 g/t Au over 59.0 metres, LCS-22-077 drilled down dip on the same easting returned 0.73 g/t Au over 61.0 metres, and hole LCS-22-073 drilled up dip on the same easting, but drilled north versus south due to the ground conditions, returned 0.82 g/t Au over 36.4 metres again highlighting the robust thickness and consistency of the FGZ (see Figure 1 and 2). Drill hole LCS-22-091 also tested the central portion of the FGZ at a vertical depth of 230 metres and returned 0.87 g/t Au over 27.4 metres. A possible new zone was also intersected further downhole in hole LCS-22-091 which returned 1.23 g/t Au over 7.5 metres and again further downhole the Épervier Zone returned 5.29 g/t Au over 2.6 meters including 17.05 g/t Au over 0.8 metres. Drill hole LCS-22-074 located near the eastern extent of the zone and at a vertical depth of 170 metres returned 0.66 g/t Au over 22.5 metres and hole LCS-22-076 drilled 40 metres west, but near surface, returned 0.50 g/t Au over 10.0 metres for the FGZ and 0.43 g/t Au over 9.1 metres from the Footwall Zone ("FWZ"). Near the west-central portion of the FGZ hole LCS-22-072 returned 0.49 g/t Au over 40.3 metres, including 2.79 g/t Au over 3.5 metres. Drill hole LCS-22-090 tested the west side of an interpreted fault that offsets mineralization and intersected a weakly mineralized FGZ with 0.24 g/t Au over 19.0 metres. The FGZ is associated with a silicified-sericitized greywacke host rock. It is oriented approximately east-west and dips steeply (70-80 degrees) to the south. Characteristics defining the mineralized zone include the presence of silicification, sericitization, and pyrite, traceable along the whole 900 metres of strike length and 380 metres vertical depth. Higher gold and silver grades within the FGZ are spatially associated with smoky grey quartz veins and silicification, often containing molybdenite and pyrite, enveloped within strong sericite-carbonate-pyrite alteration. Higher grade intersections are shown in Figure 1, 2 and Table 1 below, and collar locations in Appendix Table 1. The mineralization style, gold grade and thickness have strong similarities to the Nelligan Gold Zone located 2 kilometres to the east of the FGZ. Table 1: Reported Assay Results, Falcon Zone; true width is estimated as 50-70% of the reported core length. https://preview.redd.it/g3b0pvyb1e4b1.png?width=720&format=png&auto=webp&s=377ef1f18dc67a5f48e620ccefa72a3a6cfaa697 https://preview.redd.it/o7w1nqzb1e4b1.png?width=608&format=png&auto=webp&s=c453155e4f5a301fb3ba7c5ddf87bc8d6edad5c8 The Company completed 12 exploration drill holes on the Lac Surprise property to test regional targets and follow up drilling on the newly discovered mineralized trend associated with the Guercheville Deformation Zone ("GDZ"). Located north of the Falcon Zone, this broad weakly anomalous gold trend is defined by drill holes completed historically and by the Company in recent years including hole LCS-19-003ext., which returned 1.15 g/t Au over 9.5 metres. Included in this release are hole LCS-22-081 drilled 70 metres west of LCS-19-003ext which returned 1.84 g/t Au over 11.5 metres, including 18.5 g/t Au over 1.0 metre, and 80 metres to the east of LCS-19-003ext, hole LCS-22-080 which returned 0.78 g/t Au over 14.5 metres within a broader interval that returned 0.41 g/t Au over 31.9 metres (see Table 2 and Figure 3). Mineralization shows strong similarities to the FGZ mineralization including similar host rocks and structural setting. Exploration drilling followed up on previous exploration work northeast of the Amber Showing, where a historic intersection returned 0.82 g/t Au over 11.5 metres. Three drill holes tested this trend over 350 metres along strike, with the most eastern hole LCS-22-086, returning 0.65 g/t Au over 10.5 metres, LCS-22-085 returning 0.27 g/t Au over 19 metres including 0.80 g/t Au over 4.0 metres, and LCS-22-084 returning 4.06 g/t Au over 0.5 metres and 0.47 g/t Au over 3.0 metres (see Table 2 and Figure 4). The mineralized trend is associated with deformed and altered felsic porphyry dykes within gabbro host rocks and is open along strike and down dip. Other exploration holes intersected weakly anomalous gold values and the Company is working to integrate the new data with the already existing large geological database for future exploration targeting. Table 2 below includes highlights from the exploration drill program. See Appendix Table 1 and 2 for complete results and collar locations. Table 2: Exploration Drilling Assay Highlights; true width is not known. https://preview.redd.it/23ko8p0c1e4b1.png?width=720&format=png&auto=webp&s=3da8489e21539f939f7ee0ff1cbdcdfb9fd7e287 Processing img n5twmt1c1e4b1... True widths of the intercepts reported in this press release have yet to be determined but are estimated to be 50% to 70% of reported core lengths. All NQ-size split core assays reported were obtained by fire assay with atomic absorption finish and samples returning values over 3 ppm Au are re-analyzed, utilizing standard Fire Assay-Gravimetric methods. Samples were shipped to ALS, SGS and AGAT Laboratories (ALS sample preparation done in Sudbury, ON and/or Val-d'Or, QC and analysis done in Vancouver, BC.), AGAT Laboratories (sample preparation done in Val-d'Or, Québec and sample analysis done in Mississauga, ON) and SGS Laboratories (sample preparation done in Val-d'Or, QC and sample analysis done in Vancouver, BC). The quality assurance and quality control protocol include insertion of blank or standard every 20 samples on average, in addition to the regular insertion of blank, duplicate, and standard samples inserted by the laboratories during the analytical process. The technical content and scientific aspects of this press release have been reviewed by Ms. Sarah Dean (P.Geo.) Ms. Dean is a Qualified Person ("QP") within the meaning of National Instrument 43-101 and has reviewed and approved the technical information disclosed in this press release related to the Lac Surprise program. Ms. Dean is not considered independent. Corporate Matters Northern Superior announces that further to the Royal Fox Gold Inc. ("Royal Fox") press release dated May 21, 2021 and pursuant to the terms of the Share Purchase Agreement dated November 30, 2020, as amended March 23, 2021 and April 21, 2021, (collectively, the "Definitive Agreement"), entered into between the Royal Fox, Frank Guillemette (the "Principal Shareholder"), Jonathan Girard and Jean-Francois Girard (together with the Principal Shareholder, the "Vendors"), Royal Fox purchased from the Vendors, all of the issued and outstanding common shares in the capital of 9396-1217 Quebec Inc., which transaction closed on May 27, 2021 (the "Closing Date"), whose sole asset is 100% of the common shares in the capital of 9220-5392 Quebec Inc. o/a Mines Royales Quebec ("MRQ"). Pursuant to the provisions of the Definitive Agreement, as part consideration for the acquisition of 9396-1217 Quebec Inc. Royal Fox agreed to issue $3,000,000 worth shares to the Vendors in three (3) equal instalments on each of: (i) the twelve (12) month anniversary of the Closing Date (the "First Instalment"), (ii) the eighteen (18) month anniversary of the Closing Date (the "Second Instalment"), and (iii) the twenty four (24) month anniversary of the Closing Date (the "Third Instalment"), in each case at an issue price per share equal to the volume weighted average trading price of the shares for the 20 trading days prior to the date on which such instalment is due. As a result of the Company's acquisition of Royal Fox on November 4, 2022, Northern Superior assumed Royal Fox's Second Installment and Third Installment payment obligations. The Company announces that it has issued an aggregate of 2,293,051 common shares of the Company "Common Shares") at an issue price of $0.4361 per share for the settlement of the Second Instalment and 2,119,541 Common Shares at an issue price of $0.4718 per share for the settlement of the Third Instalment (collectively, the "Consideration Shares") to the Vendors. The Consideration Shares will be subject to a statutory hold period of four months plus a day from the date of issuance, which hold period will expire on October 3, 2023. Moreover, 30% of the Consideration Shares were deposited in escrow and will be released to the Vendors in accordance with a TSXV Form 5B Escrow Agreement dated May 21, 2021, among the Vendors (and others), Royal Fox and TSX Trust Company. Pursuant to the Definitive Agreement, Mr. Frank Guillemette was issued 4,305,405 Common Shares. Immediately prior to the issuance, Mr. Guillemette held, directly or indirectly, 8,924,373 Common Shares and 60,000 stock options. Upon completion of is issuance, Mr. Guillemette will beneficially own or control 13,229,778 Common Shares of the Company and 60,000 stock options, representing approximately 9.32% of the Company's issued and outstanding Common Shares on a non-diluted basis and approximately 9.37% of the Company's issued and outstanding Common Shares on a partially basis. Depending on market and other conditions, or as future circumstances may dictate, Mr. Guillemette may from time to time increase or decrease its holdings of Common Shares or other securities of the Company. A copy of the early warning report will be available on the Company's issuer profile on SEDAR at www.sedar.com. The Company is also pleased to announce that, further to its press release dated May 2, 2023, Rockland Resources Ltd. (CSE: RKL) ("Rockland") has fully exercised its option to acquire the Wapistan property from Northern Superior, by accelerating its final option payment of $200,000 and its issuance of an additional 5.4M Rockland shares. Northern Superior has retained a 2% NSR on the property, 1% of which may be re-purchased by Rockland for $1M. Lastly, the Company has engaged Independent Trading Group ("ITG"), a Toronto based IIROC dealer-member to assist with market making activities. ITG is Canada's only brokerage firm dedicated specifically to professional trading. As Canada's foremost market making firm, ITG provides market making and liquidity provider services that are objective and focused. ITG employs real traders and provides real liquidity, with an underlying emphasis on integrity and success. The Company has agreed to pay ITG a fee of $6,000 per month for the duration of the contract, with an initial term of three months, followed by consecutive one-month terms unless cancelled by either party on 30-day notice. About Northern Superior Resources Inc. Northern Superior is a gold exploration company focused on the Chapais-Chibougamau Camp in Québec. The Company has consolidated the largest land package in the region, with total land holdings currently exceeding 62,000 hectares. The main properties include Philibert, Lac Surprise, Chevrier and Croteau Est. Northern Superior also owns significant exploration assets in Northern Ontario highlighted by the district scale TPK Project. The Philibert Project is located 9km from IAMGOLD Corporation's Nelligan Gold project which was awarded the "Discovery of the Year" by the Québec Mineral Exploration Association (AEMQ) in 2019. To date, more than C$13 million (historical value) have been spent on the Philibert Project, with more than 75,000 metres of drilling completed. The Philibert Project is owned by SOQUEM; the Company is currently undergoing an ownership option process, details of which can be found in the corporate presentation. Chevrier hosts an inferred mineral resource of 652,000 ounces Au (underground and open pit) and an indicated mineral resource of 260,000 ounces Au[2]. Croteau Est hosts an inferred mineral resource of 640,000 ounces Au[3]. Lac Surprise hosts the Falcon Zone Discovery, interpreted to be the western strike extension of IAMGOLD Corporation's Nelligan Deposit. Northern Superior is a reporting issuer in British Columbia, Alberta, Ontario and Québec, and trades on the TSX Venture Exchange under the symbol SUP, and the OTCQB Venture Market under the symbol NSUPF. For further information, please refer to the Company's website at www.nsuperior.com or on SEDAR (www.sedar.com). Northern Superior Resources Inc. on Behalf of the Board of Directors Simon Marcotte, CFA, President and Chief Executive Officer Contact Information: Simon Marcotte, CFA President and Chief Executive Office Tel: (647) 801-7273 [[email protected]](mailto:[email protected]) Neither the TSX Venture Exchange nor its Regulation Services Provider (as that term is defined in the policies of the TSX Venture Exchange) accepts responsibility for the adequacy or accuracy of this release. Cautionary Note Regarding Forward-Looking Statements This Press Release contains forward-looking statements that involve risks and uncertainties, which may cause actual results to differ materially from the statements made. When used in this document, the words "may", "would", "could", "will", "intend", "plan", "anticipate", "believe", "estimate", "expect" and similar expressions are intended to identify forward-looking statements. Such statements reflect our current views with respect to future events and are subject to such risks and uncertainties. Many factors could cause our actual results to differ materially from the statements made, including those factors discussed in filings made by us with the applicable securities regulatory authorities. Should one or more of these risks and uncertainties, such actual results of current exploration programs, the general risks associated with the mining industry, the price of gold and other metals, currency and interest rate fluctuations, increased competition and general economic and market factors, occur or should assumptions underlying the forward looking statements prove incorrect, actual results may vary materially from those described herein as intended, planned, anticipated, or expected. We do not intend and do not assume any obligation to update these forward-looking statements, except as required by law. Shareholders are cautioned not to put undue reliance on such forward-looking statements. Appendix Table 1: Reported Assay Results, Exploration, True widths are not known at this time. https://preview.redd.it/jguorx3c1e4b1.png?width=720&format=png&auto=webp&s=5d1c785e594b72ef49aa930198c38dd9f4b6b5e8 Appendix Table 2: Drillhole Collar Locations, UTM Zone 17 https://preview.redd.it/vhf85l4c1e4b1.png?width=720&format=png&auto=webp&s=73ac13cedcfe30d68f644e914330211341da2009 [2] NI 43-101 Technical Report Mineral Resource Estimation for the Chevrier Main Deposit, Chevrier Project Chibougamau, Quebec, Canada, October 20, 2021, Prepared in accordance with National Instrument 43-101 ("NI 43-101") by Lions Gate Geological Consulting Inc. IOS Services Géoscientifiques Inc. for Northern Superior Resources Inc. [3] Chalice Gold Mines Limited and Northern Superior Resources Inc. Technical Report on the Croteau Est Gold Project, Québec, September 2015, Prepared in accordance with National Instrument 43-101 ("NI 43-101") by Optiro Pty Ltd ("Optiro") to Chalice Gold Mines Limited and Northern Superior Resources Inc. SOURCE: Northern Superior Resources Inc. View source version on accesswire.com: https://www.accesswire.com/759413/Northern-Superior-Reports-090-GT-Gold-Over-590-Metres-and-073-GT-Gold-Over-610-Metres-From-the-Falcon-Gold-Zone-and-184-GT-Au-Over-115-Metres-From-Exploration-Drilling-at-Lac-Surprise https://preview.redd.it/4n5cnf5c1e4b1.png?width=4000&format=png&auto=webp&s=4c42d007bd43302149466ecab7215832e6affa22
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