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2023.06.05 15:05 Jarvisxxs Help with different core voltages showing
So i’ve set 1.3 volts at 4.7 ghz on a i7-6700k on a maximus hero 8 but the board shows 1.312 as the actual voltage. Hwinfo64 shows vcore jumping to 1.344 during stress tests. So what voltage am i actually running on and is it possible to make 1.344 a lower value?
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2023.06.05 15:05 caster_abell Should one's past be revealed to their SO? Let's Discuss
Asalamualaikum everyone. This question has been bugging me for a while now. I have asked different people's view on it, and everyone seem to have different opinions. I, on one hand, do believe in the idea that whatever a person does, the sins that he has committed, should stay between him and Allah. Its is Allah's mercy and protection that those sins are not revealed to everyone. However, on the other hand, i dont really feel comfortable not knowing the past of the person whom i am going to marry. It feels as if i will be starting the marraige based on a lie. What if that person has done something that is a deal breaker for me, but by not disclosing beforehand, i would feel as if i have been kept in the dark. In today's world, everyone has a past of some sort. So should we reveal our past sins to our significant other, if they say they are open to it, for the sake of transperancy? I am eager to know what you all think about this.
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2023.06.05 15:05 Adamscowcroft Help
I just started plying football manager a week ago. I’m in my second season playing as AFC Flyde. We have the good team to get promoted but can’t seem to win. We went on a 12 winning streak at the start of the season but have now lost 8 and drawn 5 in a row. I haven’t changed anything. Any suggestions on how to fix it or what I am doing wrong
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2023.06.05 15:05 braillerosebookworm Dnd 5e, online, 18 plus, lgbt and newbie friendly, mondays 18.30 pm bst, 19.30 pm cest, 1.30 pm est etc. Looking for players for my longterm campaign. Welcome to atlas, the game that becomes real.
The premise: You all know atlas. Its the game that went boom across the globe a year ago. That signature globe logo that sits on the homescreens of most people's phones tablets computers and consoles. The realistic, immersive rpg game where you can select from a huge list of races and aclasses, make a backstory, and roam free across the globe, back and forward in time, leaping through portals to new worlds, some you know from familiar stories and some that are very new. Billions of people play it, at home, work, and anywhere you are. And on the year anniversary there's a series of special events planned. Prizes for random users, level ups, bonuses, and the like. But while you play, whereever in the world you are, something weird haspens, and the next thing you know... You are in atlas, playing your character for real. Questions buzzing in your head, where am I? how do I get back? Do I want to? Was this an accident? if I die in game, will I die in real life?
Hey, I'm Danielle, I'm a 25 year old female dm from the uk. I am looking for people to join my campaign, don't worry if #'ve already applied, I've not forgotten you! We'll be using discord and dnd beyond. If you're intereststed please send me the answers to the form below.
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Hey, I'm Danielle, I'm a 25 year old female dm from the uk. I am looking for people to join my campaign, don't worry if #'ve already applied, I've not forgotten you! We'll be using discord and dnd beyond. If you're intereststed please send me the answers to the form below.
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2023.06.05 15:05 MajaErecson Additional mods
Hello, I just got SVE and was wondering what mods go with it. I have all the required ones but I was hoping for some more. I am very interested in platonic partnerships mod but didn't know if it would work with the new NPCs. I also just like mods which make the game more interesting!
Anybody have any help? It's much appreciated
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Anybody have any help? It's much appreciated
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2023.06.05 15:05 FaintHeartFaerie How to appeal to female readers?
Greetings,
I am writing a dark fairytale fantasy that features a parent-child character dynamic. The protagonist is a 12 year old girl with a physical impairment, and her adoptive parents are co-protagonists. Most of the early story is a 'travel log' point A-B-C sort of thing, and the characters learn about the world and magic on the journey. These journeys require them to catalog their life experiences and include special events as checkpoints, but otherwise they are adventure dramas in the fantasy world.
After writing several drafts, I am not sure what my target audience is. Even though there are child characters, I don't think the story is for children under 12. Moreover, because the protagonist isn't a teenager [yet], I don't think the story is for young adults either. And that brings me to the crux of my problem: How do I appeal to female audiences?
I know females like reading about romance and school settings, and I've tried to introduce those elements into my story [in later books]. Yet I don't want to write a "dark academia" story--not just because it's well worn territory in YA literature [e.g. Harry Potter], but also because it's not the direction my story ought to go. Beyond that, the only other thing I know to include is family drama, but in my experience that will only appeal to women, not to young girls.
I'm not worried about the male audience because there is plenty of action, mystery, and world building for them. Those are the kind of things I like and I don't see why they wouldn't appeal to others.
I guess I've reached a point where I don't know who I'm writing for or what my audience is other than myself. Therefore I don't know how to enhance the elements of the plot that I already have. As far as I'm concerned, the reason kids like fairytales is because Disney puts catchy [annoying] songs in the movies.
I've written other stories in the world but I can't figure out what to do with the debut novel. Any advice is appreciated.
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I am writing a dark fairytale fantasy that features a parent-child character dynamic. The protagonist is a 12 year old girl with a physical impairment, and her adoptive parents are co-protagonists. Most of the early story is a 'travel log' point A-B-C sort of thing, and the characters learn about the world and magic on the journey. These journeys require them to catalog their life experiences and include special events as checkpoints, but otherwise they are adventure dramas in the fantasy world.
After writing several drafts, I am not sure what my target audience is. Even though there are child characters, I don't think the story is for children under 12. Moreover, because the protagonist isn't a teenager [yet], I don't think the story is for young adults either. And that brings me to the crux of my problem: How do I appeal to female audiences?
I know females like reading about romance and school settings, and I've tried to introduce those elements into my story [in later books]. Yet I don't want to write a "dark academia" story--not just because it's well worn territory in YA literature [e.g. Harry Potter], but also because it's not the direction my story ought to go. Beyond that, the only other thing I know to include is family drama, but in my experience that will only appeal to women, not to young girls.
I'm not worried about the male audience because there is plenty of action, mystery, and world building for them. Those are the kind of things I like and I don't see why they wouldn't appeal to others.
I guess I've reached a point where I don't know who I'm writing for or what my audience is other than myself. Therefore I don't know how to enhance the elements of the plot that I already have. As far as I'm concerned, the reason kids like fairytales is because Disney puts catchy [annoying] songs in the movies.
I've written other stories in the world but I can't figure out what to do with the debut novel. Any advice is appreciated.
2023.06.05 15:05 Ganesh0825 Do you like art style of episode 10?
So do you guys like the art style used for episode 10 ? I know this episode directed by Kai Ikarashi and he is well known for his work. But personally i didn't like it that much. I am not saying i dislike his direction it's just this anime is more Serious type and when i was reading the manga i was getting serious vibes. Also all 9 episodes was somewhat emotional and serious and then suddenly watching this episode feel like I was watching a whole new anime. Also I didn't understand why too much still frames was used in this episode, although the still frames was very well animated. But this is just my opinion and I just wanted to know what you guys thik. So please tell me your opinion.
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2023.06.05 15:05 uhlyst Time to potty train & I'm frozen. Help.
This just feels so bizarre. I spoke to his pediatrician this morning & was told to ensure he has no less than 5 wet diapers a day, otherwise it's no concern.
TLDR: My 19-month-old has shown signs of readiness for potty training. He is now occasionally making it through the night with a dry diaper, which baffles me as it seems rather early for that sort of development. I don't know where to start or how to encourage communication regarding the potty. Please guide me as I'm letting uncertainty shake me a bit & find most articles online/papers from his doctor sort of vague or maybe "advanced" for my son...but worry I am underestimating him.
My son is 19-months-old. He sleeps without waking most nights reliably. If he does wake during the night, it is due to a wet diaper or needing his sippy refilled. It is also normal for him to refuse sleeping if he has to poop...we will put him to bed, but he will whine/fuss--once we take him from his bed, he will play for maybe 15-20 minutes until he poops. After that, he will go right to sleep.
Over the last 2 weeks, my son has started to wake up dry after sleeping through the night. It has happened 3 (maybe 4?) times. He is also going longer stretches during the day with a dry diaper. He will come to us when he poops or he will go directly to the diaper drawer & pull out a diaper.
So, I guess I'm just wondering how to approach potty training with him? It is daunting. I've already ordered him a potty chair that resembles our toilet, but I'm looking for tips/tricks/guidance on how to introduce it to him & encourage more communication regarding the potty/pee/poop. My son knows 19 words, but he's not a big talker. He doesn't use all 19 words regularly, he has 5-6 words he uses daily. He doesn't come to us & say anything when he is dirty, he will just fuss a bit and/or touch at his diaper. He is still doing quite a bit of babbling.
He often comes into the bathroom when I am using it & I routinely explain to him what I am doing in simple forms. I've also allowed him to help me flush from time to time. What else should I be doing? It seems clear to me that he's ready to start potty training, but I feel clueless & kind of scared, to be honest.
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TLDR: My 19-month-old has shown signs of readiness for potty training. He is now occasionally making it through the night with a dry diaper, which baffles me as it seems rather early for that sort of development. I don't know where to start or how to encourage communication regarding the potty. Please guide me as I'm letting uncertainty shake me a bit & find most articles online/papers from his doctor sort of vague or maybe "advanced" for my son...but worry I am underestimating him.
My son is 19-months-old. He sleeps without waking most nights reliably. If he does wake during the night, it is due to a wet diaper or needing his sippy refilled. It is also normal for him to refuse sleeping if he has to poop...we will put him to bed, but he will whine/fuss--once we take him from his bed, he will play for maybe 15-20 minutes until he poops. After that, he will go right to sleep.
Over the last 2 weeks, my son has started to wake up dry after sleeping through the night. It has happened 3 (maybe 4?) times. He is also going longer stretches during the day with a dry diaper. He will come to us when he poops or he will go directly to the diaper drawer & pull out a diaper.
So, I guess I'm just wondering how to approach potty training with him? It is daunting. I've already ordered him a potty chair that resembles our toilet, but I'm looking for tips/tricks/guidance on how to introduce it to him & encourage more communication regarding the potty/pee/poop. My son knows 19 words, but he's not a big talker. He doesn't use all 19 words regularly, he has 5-6 words he uses daily. He doesn't come to us & say anything when he is dirty, he will just fuss a bit and/or touch at his diaper. He is still doing quite a bit of babbling.
He often comes into the bathroom when I am using it & I routinely explain to him what I am doing in simple forms. I've also allowed him to help me flush from time to time. What else should I be doing? It seems clear to me that he's ready to start potty training, but I feel clueless & kind of scared, to be honest.
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2023.06.05 15:04 larryb78 3 months later I still have no idea what to do
You left us 3 months ago. It didn't have to be this way. Late 2019 we told you & mom that your first grandchild was on the way - you barreled down the driveway that day when you saw us talking to her outside, hadn't seen you move that quickly in years but it was great to know you still had it in you. Then covid hit - you succeeded in never catching it, but you let it kill you anyway. In a matter of months we went from all that energy to me having to help you navigate three small steps on our stoop just to get in the house and visit your grandson. Was it worth it? Did hiding in the house, refusing to get out & go anywhere other than my place occasionally, sitting in the car while mom shopped, did it pan out the way you hoped?
In case you can't tell, I'm still angry. I'm angry that you allowed yourself to deteriorate this way in your early 70's. I'm angry that you waited a week to tell me you fell in the house and hadn't left the 2nd floor because you fucked up your shoulder trying to get off the floor stubbornly on your own and then couldn't support yourself to even make it down the stairs. I'm angry that you did it twice more, got yourself stuck in a chair, finally had no choice but to let the fire department come in, and then still refused to go to the hospital. I'm angry that when it happened again the next day and you had no choice but to go to the hospital because you couldn't even get out of the chair they left you in you became quite possibly the worst patient in the history of that hospital. I'm angry that you refused the testing they wanted to do - I know you hated confined spaces, but they were willing to sedate you. Was a few hours without food or water before they put you out really so bad? I'm angry that you called me in a panic and expected me to leave my napping son to rush to the hospital, telling me you were going to die if I didn't get there. I drive all that way to find out it was because you didn't like the hospital bed they gave you. I'm sorry that you couldn't get comfortable, I did all I could to make it better for you - when you fell asleep I spent an hour combing over diagrams I found online trying to figure out how to adjust the stupid thing so that you'd feel better. Then you spring on me your genius plan that I should help you sit sideways on the bed with no support and your legs dangling. You were labeled a fall risk for a reason! If I did that you'd have zero support behind you and if you fell I'd have no way to get you back up. I'm angry that if I'd gone with this plan of yours I could've gotten in a lot of trouble if something happened to you. I'm angry that you called mom at all hours of the night expecting her to run up to the hospital and wait on you. She's older and has mobility issues too, that wasn't fair. If you didn't think the nurses were doing enough (they were) you should've hired an aide to be there with you to tend to whatever it is you wanted. And when i told you as much, your next genius plan to be transferred to the nursing home was even worse. I know you worked there for 30 years, I know you felt you could smooth talk your way into anything you wanted there because they all liked you so much, but what did you expect them to do for you? They couldn't keep you monitored the way the hospital did. They weren't equipped to have you hooked up that way. And what happened? 15 hours after you arrived you stopped breathing. Was it worth it? Did your usual attempts at schmoozing your way into whatever you want pan out as you planned?
Now here I am, mourning your loss and stuck wearing two pairs of shoes. I still have my own responsibilities at home, and now I have yours too. Mom still can't drive, still can't see so good, and shouldn't be having to take an uber everywhere. We need to get her out of that house because the stairs are no good for her and it's in disrepair since you let so many things go for so long. She can't live like that, especially on her own. It's taking a lot longer than I wanted it to because you never bothered writing a will. Now we have to get all the finances in order before we can find her an independent living facility. I hope she remains safe during that time. You know that I don't have a spare room for her to stay in with us, and even if I did her having to get in and out of the bathtub would be a big risk every single day. And once she's safely in a new place, guess who will be stuck clearing out the house? More time I don't get to be with my son, your grandson, because it's not safe for him to be in that house either. I hope we can find a way to get it all done.
I'm at a loss for what to do - there's so much to be done, but I feel so overwhelmed that all I want to do is absolutely nothing. You kept everything such a damn secret that I don't even know where to begin
All this while planning for the arrival of our second child. Yes, you heard that right, he's going to be a big brother. You'll never be there to meet #2, they'll only know of you through stories and pictures. Again I ask, was it worth it?
I hope you're at peace, I really do. But boy did you leave me in a bad way.
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In case you can't tell, I'm still angry. I'm angry that you allowed yourself to deteriorate this way in your early 70's. I'm angry that you waited a week to tell me you fell in the house and hadn't left the 2nd floor because you fucked up your shoulder trying to get off the floor stubbornly on your own and then couldn't support yourself to even make it down the stairs. I'm angry that you did it twice more, got yourself stuck in a chair, finally had no choice but to let the fire department come in, and then still refused to go to the hospital. I'm angry that when it happened again the next day and you had no choice but to go to the hospital because you couldn't even get out of the chair they left you in you became quite possibly the worst patient in the history of that hospital. I'm angry that you refused the testing they wanted to do - I know you hated confined spaces, but they were willing to sedate you. Was a few hours without food or water before they put you out really so bad? I'm angry that you called me in a panic and expected me to leave my napping son to rush to the hospital, telling me you were going to die if I didn't get there. I drive all that way to find out it was because you didn't like the hospital bed they gave you. I'm sorry that you couldn't get comfortable, I did all I could to make it better for you - when you fell asleep I spent an hour combing over diagrams I found online trying to figure out how to adjust the stupid thing so that you'd feel better. Then you spring on me your genius plan that I should help you sit sideways on the bed with no support and your legs dangling. You were labeled a fall risk for a reason! If I did that you'd have zero support behind you and if you fell I'd have no way to get you back up. I'm angry that if I'd gone with this plan of yours I could've gotten in a lot of trouble if something happened to you. I'm angry that you called mom at all hours of the night expecting her to run up to the hospital and wait on you. She's older and has mobility issues too, that wasn't fair. If you didn't think the nurses were doing enough (they were) you should've hired an aide to be there with you to tend to whatever it is you wanted. And when i told you as much, your next genius plan to be transferred to the nursing home was even worse. I know you worked there for 30 years, I know you felt you could smooth talk your way into anything you wanted there because they all liked you so much, but what did you expect them to do for you? They couldn't keep you monitored the way the hospital did. They weren't equipped to have you hooked up that way. And what happened? 15 hours after you arrived you stopped breathing. Was it worth it? Did your usual attempts at schmoozing your way into whatever you want pan out as you planned?
Now here I am, mourning your loss and stuck wearing two pairs of shoes. I still have my own responsibilities at home, and now I have yours too. Mom still can't drive, still can't see so good, and shouldn't be having to take an uber everywhere. We need to get her out of that house because the stairs are no good for her and it's in disrepair since you let so many things go for so long. She can't live like that, especially on her own. It's taking a lot longer than I wanted it to because you never bothered writing a will. Now we have to get all the finances in order before we can find her an independent living facility. I hope she remains safe during that time. You know that I don't have a spare room for her to stay in with us, and even if I did her having to get in and out of the bathtub would be a big risk every single day. And once she's safely in a new place, guess who will be stuck clearing out the house? More time I don't get to be with my son, your grandson, because it's not safe for him to be in that house either. I hope we can find a way to get it all done.
I'm at a loss for what to do - there's so much to be done, but I feel so overwhelmed that all I want to do is absolutely nothing. You kept everything such a damn secret that I don't even know where to begin
All this while planning for the arrival of our second child. Yes, you heard that right, he's going to be a big brother. You'll never be there to meet #2, they'll only know of you through stories and pictures. Again I ask, was it worth it?
I hope you're at peace, I really do. But boy did you leave me in a bad way.
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2023.06.05 15:04 Throwaway77426016888 2 saleswomen trying to sell me expensive things that I can't afford
The dream starts with me looking for shoes that would suit my injured feet (right now they're injured irl too), so I go to this small boutique, and I tell them to get me comfortable shoes. I try aone on and I tell them I'll take specific ones and they say ok. I tell them I'll be back in a moment because I had something to take care of. Once I return, I see the added beautiful light blue/mint pumps with cream fabric and lots of extravagant jewellery and beads and a cute wallet to my check out bag. I tell them I'm not paying extra $ for that and to just give me what I want. They refuse, and tell me if I want the shoes I want I will have to pay for the other things. So I agree, but I tell them before I do pay I have to try the pumps on. Then I rip the plastic and fluffy stuff snow like stuff that protects products (idk what they are called), try the pumps on, and realise the heels are rigged. So I tell them to keep the pumps and basically middle finger. They start begging and moaping like omg how am I going to sell those pumps if you ripped the plastic and the other stuff? It's used now. I tell them it's not my problem. And that's how the dream ends. This happened the same night the dream with the students happened.
I slept tired and uncomfortable yesterday, feeling like I'm about to puke any moment and like there's food stuck in my throat and chest that won't go down. There wasn't anything stuck because I drank water and ate something soft. Maybe it is in my air pipe. But I'm still alive after 12 hours so idk but I'm still uncomfortable 🤷♀️ Any idea what any of this could mean?
June 5 2023
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I slept tired and uncomfortable yesterday, feeling like I'm about to puke any moment and like there's food stuck in my throat and chest that won't go down. There wasn't anything stuck because I drank water and ate something soft. Maybe it is in my air pipe. But I'm still alive after 12 hours so idk but I'm still uncomfortable 🤷♀️ Any idea what any of this could mean?
June 5 2023
2023.06.05 15:04 Ok_Calligrapher_400 Everyone is telling me I experienced narcissistic abuse but idk
my boyfriend left me. I love him so so so much. he’s been trying to convince me for the last 3 months that I changed and something is wrong with me when I’m “doing something he doesn’t like”. he rarely specifies what these things are but rather would spend a lot of time explaining to me that if I can’t fix the issue that I’m causing immediately that I’m slow. A lot of the time I have no idea what he’s speaking of. He also adds on to the fact that he can’t remember how I use to be anymore because I’m so different now, and doesn’t feel me in his heart anymore.
he says I am incapable of having good conversation and that at the begin of our connection I was better.I began to spend so much time trying to make further conversation but he never saw any effort or acted like anything changed .
he will talk about things and himself hour so long on end. I never cared , I love who he is, I’ll always listen. But when I bring up my own topic. He will soon switch it back to something regarding him.
He doesn’t have a lot of friends, often he will invite me to hang out and let me extend my stay a little. He insists it’s okay but then gets mad saying he should have told me to leave earlier. We live so close to each other so I always tell him let me know whenever you wanna drop me off .
He was my best friend in away my heart hurts. I asked for no contact but I broke it and when I did he didn’t answer. How do I stop caring ?
I tell my parents and friends about this, his personality his actions the usual that comes with his presence. They told me that he’s very narcisstic and to stay away. I am so very confused. I feel like I disassociated a lot and got uncomfortable
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he says I am incapable of having good conversation and that at the begin of our connection I was better.I began to spend so much time trying to make further conversation but he never saw any effort or acted like anything changed .
he will talk about things and himself hour so long on end. I never cared , I love who he is, I’ll always listen. But when I bring up my own topic. He will soon switch it back to something regarding him.
He doesn’t have a lot of friends, often he will invite me to hang out and let me extend my stay a little. He insists it’s okay but then gets mad saying he should have told me to leave earlier. We live so close to each other so I always tell him let me know whenever you wanna drop me off .
He was my best friend in away my heart hurts. I asked for no contact but I broke it and when I did he didn’t answer. How do I stop caring ?
I tell my parents and friends about this, his personality his actions the usual that comes with his presence. They told me that he’s very narcisstic and to stay away. I am so very confused. I feel like I disassociated a lot and got uncomfortable
2023.06.05 15:04 apocketfullaposies never forget I love you
The way you hold me to you in the quiet hours makes me feel protective of you. Nobody else knows how gentle you can be. People have this perception of you as this stoic, resilient person which is true. But I cherish the side you don't show them too.
Such as the way you hold me to you like you can't breathe without me. The feeling of your rough hand against my forehead when you think I'm sleeping. The soft timbre of your voice when you read something out loud. How you carry yourself with such containment: your rigid posture, your small graceful movements, your universal politeness. The way you stop to help an elderly person open a door or carry groceries. Your graciousness when someone is having a hard day. How you take in your surroundings with such pleasure. How you let those you care about be themselves, even if that self is unconventional.
Nobody else knows what you feel like when you're ravenous or lonely or touch starved. Or how you discreetly place yourself closer to me, accidentally brushing your fingers against mine just to use it as excuse to tangle our hands together. Nobody else knows what you look like when your cheeks are flushed and how wild your hazel blue eyes look when you crave something.
You are so very dear to me, Y. I admire you.
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Such as the way you hold me to you like you can't breathe without me. The feeling of your rough hand against my forehead when you think I'm sleeping. The soft timbre of your voice when you read something out loud. How you carry yourself with such containment: your rigid posture, your small graceful movements, your universal politeness. The way you stop to help an elderly person open a door or carry groceries. Your graciousness when someone is having a hard day. How you take in your surroundings with such pleasure. How you let those you care about be themselves, even if that self is unconventional.
Nobody else knows what you feel like when you're ravenous or lonely or touch starved. Or how you discreetly place yourself closer to me, accidentally brushing your fingers against mine just to use it as excuse to tangle our hands together. Nobody else knows what you look like when your cheeks are flushed and how wild your hazel blue eyes look when you crave something.
You are so very dear to me, Y. I admire you.
2023.06.05 15:04 Brush_bandicoot being the only IT member is hard, feel like I'm about to hit a breaking point
I have been in the company for 5 years. We used to be a team of 2, me and the IT manager. The IT manager left and I got promoted into his role. We hired a new guy which was supposed to fill the role I did that is helpdesk and answering technical calls. The guy stole stuff from the office and got fired. We hired another one and he got fired too for poor work ethics. Meanwhile few major projects rolled in which means I don't time to interview new people because I need to fill both IT manager and helpdesk roles. It has been like that for 6 months and the TTL for the projects to finish should be around April of next year. Meaning there is whole year I need to be knee deep in the projects while filing up the helpdesk role and answer all technical tickets and go on meeting. I got a nice pay raise and they treat me very well but mentally I feel like I am on breaking point.
This is over 100 employee company and I am the *only* IT person, meaning I can't take long vacations because I need to be available at all time. I need to do maintenance for servers on the weekends, so I can't really rest. If I am not available the company just would not function.
Even IF we hire a new guy, I just don't have to time to teach them the ropes.. I just feel trapped.
I love what I do but it's mentally exhausting. I wake up at 5:30 and only get home back around 18:00 and too tired to do anything besides the basics..
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This is over 100 employee company and I am the *only* IT person, meaning I can't take long vacations because I need to be available at all time. I need to do maintenance for servers on the weekends, so I can't really rest. If I am not available the company just would not function.
Even IF we hire a new guy, I just don't have to time to teach them the ropes.. I just feel trapped.
I love what I do but it's mentally exhausting. I wake up at 5:30 and only get home back around 18:00 and too tired to do anything besides the basics..
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2023.06.05 15:03 LudivineKelly High functioning depression and PTSD
Hello everyone,
Throw away confession here.
I (22y female) is slowly but surely going through insanity after multiple breakdowns, isolation and traumas. I now am a student in a first world country in Europe. I won't give more details, sorry. I now limited my contacts with my family, even the closest.
I was born in one of the most low human development index countries in a third world country, followed by political and economic corruption, obscurantism because of religion (catholicism and protestantism), exacerbated patriarchy and no healthcare. Fortunately, my parents earned enough to provide a healthy lifestyle for me and my siblings. They are intellectuals too and got an education abroad. I was able to go in a good school, have decent clothes and a roof over my head throughout all my young years.
My grandparents always told me how lucky I am, to be born such privileged with parents loving, feeding, protecting and wanting the best for me. Doing everything they can in order to provide the best for me. I'm very grateful for all the sacrifices they had done. Really. I had kinda a happy childhood, despite being troubled by some stuff.
I have an older brother by 2 years who was diagnosed as a psychopath according to a pedopsychiatrist: he attempted to murder me several times during our childhood. We fight a lot as children, but not casual fights between brothers and sisters. My brother once stabbed with a pencil in my head during my sleep because I refused to play. My brother once attempts to put me in fire just for fun. He tortured small animals in front of me just to show-off that he can. I once peed blood because he kicked me in the stomach. He attempts to poison my tea. Fortunately, I distanced myself rom him by the beginning of my pre-teen years in order to live in peace, but those years had a deep impact in my personality. I was a very shy, introverted, lunatic and effrayed teenage girl. I won't speak or engage myself in conversations because of fear. Last time we spoke, it was 3 years ago, he texted me that the first person he attempts to have sexual relations with is me when I was asleep as a young child (3 to 6 years). I blocked him immediately. If it was a joke, I don't know what is funny, it's weird and creepy asf. If not, well, what can I say?
My father is very controlling as well, traditional and become also violent (both physically and psychologically) when he is angry; he also gaslights people when he is having one of his tantrums, but he hides all of that. To the world, he is a nice, funny, loving christian dad and husband, a cool sociable and easy-going dude who seems having a balanced life. But he has a darker side. I know no one is perfect, but he is really something, believe me. If someone said all of the flaws I described earlier, no one will believe me. They'll think I'm nuts.
I've been living abroad since 5 years now, things haven't been easy: I've also being sexually assaulted when I was 19, sexually harassed by my ex-manager at 21, some weird dudes will be agressive towards me without reasons (insults, following me), my first bf was very narcissistic and belittles me for my ambitions. I was in a very dark place since 2020. I was dressed modestly and believe me, all those dudes seemed perfectly normal at first glance. I NEVER attempted to seduce them. I was just isolated, young, naive and vulnerable. I never attempted a class of self-defense back and I was fully focused on school. No one never taught me how to defend myself and how to identify someone toxic. I was agoraphobic most of my life and when I wanted to spend time with girlfriends, my parents hold my back.
I have family here (my aunt) abroad but she thinks I'm a naughty, ungrateful, mean and vain girl who speaks shit about her parents. She thinks I'm the problem. And thing is, I've been only recently aware that my parents speak about my personal issues with relatives without asking me. Alright, I've not asked them to not doing it, but I was a CHILD and a TEENAGER back then. I thought I was safe in my own family and house. So everything backfires at me. I don't speak when there is a conflict as a teenager? I'm surely an egocentric and immature who is stupid and unreliable. I don't have friends since my childhood and I don't know anyone in my home country besides my parents and siblings? It's surely because I am a mean girl who never make efforts. I live in the suburb era because I can't afford to live in town as sandwich-course student. So they shame me.
My mother shames me because I don't own my own house. My father told me that I should be grateful as I was invited staying in my family house in my home country during last Christmas holidays. (I am); But then he says "YOU CAN'T DO AS YOU WANT, YOU'RE UNDER MY ROOF. YOU'RE NOT IN YOUR HOME." (While I literally pay all my bills myself here, I have a job and he INVITED me). "I WILL NEVER PROVIDE OR OFFER YOU ANYTHING ANYMORE. YOU'RE SUCH AN UNGRATEFUL BRAT WHO IS ALWAYS ACTING SPOILED. SUCH AN ATTITUDE...."
I'm done with life. Local people here abroad say I'm not home, my own flesh and blood think I'm just ungrateful and just so privileged and I don't belong to the family house anymore. I don't belong anywhere. No matter how hard I try, I always stepped back in hell. I speak several languages, I do well academically, I try to do the best I can in my job, I fulfilled most of my responsabilities, I have ambitions. But it's never enough. I will never be enough. I try to ignore all of those critics but it follows me everywhere. I will make suicide before I hit 30. I am SO DONE with life. F*ck.
Thanks for reading.
submitted by LudivineKelly to offmychest [link] [comments]
Throw away confession here.
I (22y female) is slowly but surely going through insanity after multiple breakdowns, isolation and traumas. I now am a student in a first world country in Europe. I won't give more details, sorry. I now limited my contacts with my family, even the closest.
I was born in one of the most low human development index countries in a third world country, followed by political and economic corruption, obscurantism because of religion (catholicism and protestantism), exacerbated patriarchy and no healthcare. Fortunately, my parents earned enough to provide a healthy lifestyle for me and my siblings. They are intellectuals too and got an education abroad. I was able to go in a good school, have decent clothes and a roof over my head throughout all my young years.
My grandparents always told me how lucky I am, to be born such privileged with parents loving, feeding, protecting and wanting the best for me. Doing everything they can in order to provide the best for me. I'm very grateful for all the sacrifices they had done. Really. I had kinda a happy childhood, despite being troubled by some stuff.
I have an older brother by 2 years who was diagnosed as a psychopath according to a pedopsychiatrist: he attempted to murder me several times during our childhood. We fight a lot as children, but not casual fights between brothers and sisters. My brother once stabbed with a pencil in my head during my sleep because I refused to play. My brother once attempts to put me in fire just for fun. He tortured small animals in front of me just to show-off that he can. I once peed blood because he kicked me in the stomach. He attempts to poison my tea. Fortunately, I distanced myself rom him by the beginning of my pre-teen years in order to live in peace, but those years had a deep impact in my personality. I was a very shy, introverted, lunatic and effrayed teenage girl. I won't speak or engage myself in conversations because of fear. Last time we spoke, it was 3 years ago, he texted me that the first person he attempts to have sexual relations with is me when I was asleep as a young child (3 to 6 years). I blocked him immediately. If it was a joke, I don't know what is funny, it's weird and creepy asf. If not, well, what can I say?
My father is very controlling as well, traditional and become also violent (both physically and psychologically) when he is angry; he also gaslights people when he is having one of his tantrums, but he hides all of that. To the world, he is a nice, funny, loving christian dad and husband, a cool sociable and easy-going dude who seems having a balanced life. But he has a darker side. I know no one is perfect, but he is really something, believe me. If someone said all of the flaws I described earlier, no one will believe me. They'll think I'm nuts.
I've been living abroad since 5 years now, things haven't been easy: I've also being sexually assaulted when I was 19, sexually harassed by my ex-manager at 21, some weird dudes will be agressive towards me without reasons (insults, following me), my first bf was very narcissistic and belittles me for my ambitions. I was in a very dark place since 2020. I was dressed modestly and believe me, all those dudes seemed perfectly normal at first glance. I NEVER attempted to seduce them. I was just isolated, young, naive and vulnerable. I never attempted a class of self-defense back and I was fully focused on school. No one never taught me how to defend myself and how to identify someone toxic. I was agoraphobic most of my life and when I wanted to spend time with girlfriends, my parents hold my back.
I have family here (my aunt) abroad but she thinks I'm a naughty, ungrateful, mean and vain girl who speaks shit about her parents. She thinks I'm the problem. And thing is, I've been only recently aware that my parents speak about my personal issues with relatives without asking me. Alright, I've not asked them to not doing it, but I was a CHILD and a TEENAGER back then. I thought I was safe in my own family and house. So everything backfires at me. I don't speak when there is a conflict as a teenager? I'm surely an egocentric and immature who is stupid and unreliable. I don't have friends since my childhood and I don't know anyone in my home country besides my parents and siblings? It's surely because I am a mean girl who never make efforts. I live in the suburb era because I can't afford to live in town as sandwich-course student. So they shame me.
My mother shames me because I don't own my own house. My father told me that I should be grateful as I was invited staying in my family house in my home country during last Christmas holidays. (I am); But then he says "YOU CAN'T DO AS YOU WANT, YOU'RE UNDER MY ROOF. YOU'RE NOT IN YOUR HOME." (While I literally pay all my bills myself here, I have a job and he INVITED me). "I WILL NEVER PROVIDE OR OFFER YOU ANYTHING ANYMORE. YOU'RE SUCH AN UNGRATEFUL BRAT WHO IS ALWAYS ACTING SPOILED. SUCH AN ATTITUDE...."
I'm done with life. Local people here abroad say I'm not home, my own flesh and blood think I'm just ungrateful and just so privileged and I don't belong to the family house anymore. I don't belong anywhere. No matter how hard I try, I always stepped back in hell. I speak several languages, I do well academically, I try to do the best I can in my job, I fulfilled most of my responsabilities, I have ambitions. But it's never enough. I will never be enough. I try to ignore all of those critics but it follows me everywhere. I will make suicide before I hit 30. I am SO DONE with life. F*ck.
Thanks for reading.
2023.06.05 15:03 EllieP1 TerraTrike GS Crank Issues
Hey guys,
I got a weird one for you all. On my trike from time to time I am getting a clicking feeling from my right pedal. In one rotation it will click on the 3 and 9 o'clock spot each. This is not happening all the time, mostly when under heavy load when going up hills or when smashing on the pedals. Also it comes and goes there is times when I am under heavy load and the clicking is not there as well. Any idea on what this could be?
submitted by EllieP1 to BikeRepair [link] [comments]
I got a weird one for you all. On my trike from time to time I am getting a clicking feeling from my right pedal. In one rotation it will click on the 3 and 9 o'clock spot each. This is not happening all the time, mostly when under heavy load when going up hills or when smashing on the pedals. Also it comes and goes there is times when I am under heavy load and the clicking is not there as well. Any idea on what this could be?
2023.06.05 15:03 witchteacher LS. What's your problem with them?
Personally I love all my completed and augmented longsword and all my solo fights are LS, have been since the game was on Wii U. When I go hunting online I take HHs even though I don't enjoy them as much and they're less effective because they're not finalised yet, all because I've got it in my head that people hate LS users turning up. Am I right? what is it LS users in general are doing that's so unforgivable?
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