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Welcome to my subreddit. This is a alternative account I have a main one where I've been a lurker for about five years. I'm the type of person who likes to create something every once and a while, so I figured I'd start a second account with a sub to write a diary with some entries or to write stories, something I really like to do. Whatever I feel like posting, I will.
I won't be revealing much about my personal life, not in terms of personal information anyways, I want to be on my own, for that reason I won't be advertising and inviting people for this subreddit either. For now what you need to know is I'm a 18 year old guy from Brazil and who really likes raccoons.
If you found this sub maybe it was randomly or maybe you were checking my profile and found this post. Hello. This sub is public so if you want to comment something, asking something or even post something of your own, okay, be aware I may delete the post without much explanation though.
If you've found this after years and wish you could ask something, try your luck, if I'm alive by then I'll try to reply/talk to you. Disclaimer: I'm not famous or important whatsoever. Just some random guy on a random place in the big, wide, virtual world.
Some english words or phrases might be wrong, sorry about that.
TLDR: This subreddit is an Internet documentation of the thoughts and ideas of a young guy from Brazil.

I can't take it anymore I feel like I'm going to snap I don't know what changed but ever since I got to go to my friend's house without my mom accompaning me I felt a massive urge to run away. I felt safe with my friend's mom which isn't really something I can say about my mom. I know my mom is in chronic pain but I don't know when she's going to get mad and start cussing at people for whatever, even though my brother and I are both adults we still can't talk back to her, she's terrible at accepting the fact she might have done something wrong because if she does she makes me feel guilty about it.
Dad left back in 2022ish, he's getting a divorce with mom. Honestly they're both kinda shitty, if I had the means to I'd move out but I don't want to leave the cats behind, Dad had told me our older 2 cats would have to be sent to the shelter if I moved with him and mom makes too many "jokes" involving Nikita (one of the older cats, she's very talkative) being injured in some form and I don't trust the cats being cared for with her. I'm usually the one doing the chores caring for them anyways.
My brother also lives with us, and he's an asshole tbh. I know he's struggling because he was abused too but I still get anxious around him after being s/aed by him. I haven't told anyone because I don't want to hurt him and I don't think mom would believe me because I have no proof and she still believes he's a sweet kid (he's 20, I'm 18, I was assaulted when I was 17 and he was 19)
I found out I was a system, and I feel so disconnected from my friends. I don't know of they even like me or if they just think I'm a freak behind my back. I'm too worried about bothering them to dm them first and so they probably just forget about me because I'm not intresting and I don't have any noteworthy skills.
I want to disappear, I don't know what the point is. I feel invisible already why should it matter if I just stopped existing for a day or a week or something.
Realistically I want to leave my house and move out but I dont have a job, I can't drive (I can barely read mom refuses to get me checked for dyslexia), I don't have any money, and I don't know where to go I'd be happy with something small even, I just want to feel safe for once. I just want to go one day without someone yelling my deadname at me.
I just want it to end but I'm both too scared and too spiteful to take my life.
I don't know what to do.

As a sort of addendum to the big Hanzo thread, I thought I'd bring up my experiences with starting to try to get better with Widowmaker. As someone who recently has been playing a LOT of Tracer too, I think it's a bit odd that people talk up her difficulty so much when I feel like I can go into a game with her with my experience (around 57 hours), and if I play my best or even just decently, I can be very meaningful and even carry on occasion. I'm no amazing Tracer, but her versatility mean she's good against pretty much anything. On the other hand, I have 37 hours with Widowmaker and 36% winrate (playing in QP of course, no way I take her into ranked), almost always going negative K-D unless carried by teammates. I have 30 hours on Mei and a 63% winrate on her, by comparison. And in a thread I saw about skill floors on the main sub, someone actually described Mei as 'high floor, high ceiling' and Widowmaker as 'medium' floor; others will say that she needs 'no game sense'. What?!
I think a lot of the complaints about Widowmaker I see are almost literally nonsensical. People will complain about 'staying 50km away from the fight', but exactly which maps actually have spots so far away with good sightlines? Everyone talks about "Widow" maps as if the number of brawl-centric maps where she's nowhere near as good were not much higher overall than the three or so in which she's very good; even on those, like Circuit, the ranges aren't big enough a good Hanzo can't reliably duel her; nor are they so far away that a D.Va boost or Genji dash can't make the distance. People will also say she 'always has a pocket', but if she's so far away from the fight with a pocket, that's basically a support wasted in the team fight, and if she doesn't have one, the dive will be easy if she's really so far away. I know in my experience I have to assume I will never get heals at all.
Compared to Hanzo, the number of compositions that can dive her easily against is almost comical. A good Genji, Ball, D.Va, Tracer, Sombra, even a flanking Kiriko who uses her mobility well, the list of things that can make life hell for her is long. All with lower health, no good close range options like Hanzo's storm arrows, and with a single mobility on long cooldown compared to his wall climbing and much more frequent jump.
I've got some experience with every DPS (outside of Torb, to be honest). On none of them will I struggle to make any contribution at all as I almost always do playing Widowmaker, the only exception who is nearly as difficult is perhaps Echo, but she has other advantages.
Overall, I don't understand how people can even compare 'Hanzo and Widowmaker' because they feel to me like two entirely different things. Hanzo is a medium range Hero with decent long range capability marred by projectile inconsistency and short range that's almost stronger than his medium range. Widowmaker is a long range character almost exclusively, who can only play medium with no dive opponents or else being extremely circumspect about them. Obviously she can win short range with insane flicks if you're just that good, but that's outside the reach of 99% of players. The other 'sniper' would be Ashe, but she's also really a medium range character and much easier to get decent value with through hitting body shots consistently with just a smattering of head shots with smart dynamite usage. Widow HAS to hit head shots, consistently; Hanzo's closer effective range means his body damage is more meaningful by far, same for Ashe. Speaking for myself, even with much less time on Hanzo, I still find it easier to get headshots with him already, but maybe that's my Kiriko projectile experience helping. She simply has a hard mechanical skill floor that no other character has, and if you're below it, you can't do anything really at all; and in exchange you are basically the most vulnerable character in the game to dive, and highly map and comp dependent in a way that Tracer, for instance, or Hanzo for that matter, certainly is not.
Is my aim just so bad compared to the norm that I'm not realizing that it's actually easy to jump into her first time and do sweet 360 noscopes or something? I'm doing time in aim training, playing her a lot, and the grind to improve is nothing short of painful;

Using my main account instead of a throwaway, but idgaf
In a bit of a crisis right now. I feel like I'm spiraling and breaking down all week because of this. I even did more intense workouts at the gym and went cycling/swimming for longer distances to forget about it but somehow this lingering feeling always comes creeping back...
Do you ever feel like you wish you were born a different person? Yes, I realize that a lot of people would kill to be in my shoes right now. But little do they know that I would kill to be in theirs. A lot of people think I'm "special", a rare Pokémon if you will. Yes, I'm that struggling gifted kid that Dr. K talks about in his videos. All throughout my life, people find me intimidating because of it.
I wish this wasn't the case. I just wish I was a normal person who grew up with a normal childhood and not the fucking circus freak that I am today. I wish I wasn't born with very Asian parents who pushed me to not only achieve and excel, but to be THE BEST - and this ultimately became my life's obsession at the expense of everything else. I wish I wasn't this basket case of mental health issues that I developed from decades of bullying, parental abuse, rejection, and unmet expectations. I wish I wasn't born neurodivergent. Which comes with superpowers of its own when it comes to hobbies and careers, but believe me, the tradeoff of turning you into a social fuckup isn't worth it.
Most of all, I wish I didn't waste my youth by taking life too seriously. Being a social recluse for pretty much all my life turned me into a "polymath" of sorts and advanced me in my careers and other personal goals, but at what cost? Crippling social anxiety, depression, and loneliness? It came to a point where being good at things became pretty much became my entire personality. Honestly, I'd give this all up just to be less socially inept and still with friends who actually care about me and what I'm up to in my day-to-day life.
Recently, I went out drinking and clubbing and turns out that I actually had a good time - yes, I know, very odd for a nerdy introvert like me. A lot of the skills I have that had nothing to do with socialization turned out to be pretty good party tricks that I can use to my advantage. So I thought to myself - why didn't I do more of this when I was younger? I wish I partied more, got shitfaced more, did recreational drugs, had good times with people, made more friends, made out with randos at the bar, lost my virginity earlier, upped my body count more, learned to be a better dancer, and as a result became better at social skills overall to be a more likeable person.
This is the wasted youth I wish I had instead of the wasted youth I actually have. Maybe if I did all of this then I wouldn't be this boring square with nothing to show for that I am today.

About the Character: Mai'el is an opportunistic succubus who believes she has found an exploitation in demonic law; There are no consequences to breaking the law! To collect as many followers and souls as she wants, she will use restricted techniques only allowed for special situations, including hypnosis. To ensure her plan works, she seeks out her favorite mortal man, saving him for a special occasion.
Before she tries hypnotizing him, she decides to indulge herself with some conversation and snuggling before consuming her favorite human's soul. It'll be the last chance she gets after all.
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Feel free to change the dialogue to your liking, or even completely improvise. Whatever you need to make the lines feel more natural. What matters is keeping the general story the same.
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You may absolutely monetize this, but if you should place this product behind a paywall, I would appreciate a copy of the performance.
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Feel free to ask any questions or bring up any concerns, should they come up. Feedback is very welcome!
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Context: You lay comfortably in bed, deep asleep, until a chill runs up your spine. You wake to the feeling of being watched. To your horror, you can't command your body to move. Try as you might, you can only helplessly watch as an alluring form makes her way into the edge of your vision. With a devious smile, someone lays on top of you, eying you like her prey.
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[The sound of the succubus sneaking across the room before laying on top of the listener (floorboards creaking, bed springs squeaking, covers ruffling, etc.)]
Mai'el: "Hey there... You don't mind if I lay here, do you? [Giggle] Your... 'Cheeks' are telling me you don't mind, and your eyes are telling me you're not sure if you're dreaming. [Kiss] I'm very real, baby. Shhhh... Don't struggle. It'd be a waste of your attention. Your body is still asleep, but I left your head awake so you could keep me company."
[Listener: "What's happening?"]
Mai'el: "What's happening? I'm so glad you asked! I've been dying to share this with someone.
Have you heard of a 'sleep paralysis demon'? How about a succubus? We're both the same thing. [Sigh of comfort] Oo, you're so nice to snuggle up to! [Brief moment as she enjoys holding the listener] Normally we can only do our jobs as a sleep paralysis demon or a succubus, but not both. Nooo... That would be against the 'rules'. [Self-amused chuckling] But I think that's inefficient. We're born to take souls and spread our influence. But that takes so long if we go 'by the book'. First you weaken strong souls by scaring them with nightmares or paralyzing their body. Then you seduce their with 'good dreams', or with our unrivaled 'assets'. Then, when they're nice and obedient, you get them to submit their life to you, offering their service or their soul... But that doesn't always work. So souls become hard to come by all because some precious 'rules' need to be respected."
[Succubus takes a moment to give the listener affection (brushing their hair, pawing at them, kissing, stroking their face, et.)]
Mai'el: "Speaking of 'respect', you haven't interrupted me once! Oh, I knew you would be the right choice... [Seeing the surprise and confusion on his face] Yesss. I chose you! You're not some random prey. If I'm going to do this, I'm going to go for the mortal at the top of my list."
[Succubus gives a sigh as she admires the listener.]
Mai'el: [Suddenly remembering] "Oh right! Where was I? The rules, right? Well, we're all told that breaking the rules will corrupt our souls. [Annoyed] Corrupt. Demon souls. I swear I'm either the smartest one down there, or everyone else is too scared to realize you can't 'corrupt' a corrupted soul... [Calming down] Which bring me here to you, my flame.
I am going to bask in my genius with each mortal I dominate. I am going to gorge myself silly on the adoration and souls of more than I've seen in years, all in one evening!... But I'm skipping straight to dessert first. And don't you look tasty... [Affectionate sound of a kiss or lick]"
[The sound of fabric moving as the succubus sits up.]
Mai'el: [Moving her clothes with a giggle] "Sorry, baby. These clothes don't offer much room for pockets. I was pulling out this candle. Not the girls. Its for the hypnosis... Though I'm sure you'd pay close attention to me no matter what I pulled out of my top. [Playful laughter]"
[Listener: "Hypnosis? Don't I need to willingly make a deal?"]
Mai'el: "Hm? Well look at you! Not just a pretty face either. But I already knew that.
To answer your question, and happily spread out the details for you to take in; You're right. Demons aren't allowed to use hypnosis! Why?... [Playfully annoyed] Because the rules say so! [As if the listener agreed with her] I know! What a pain! And we've been doing this for thousands of years. Blindly!
[Letting of a content sigh] But we both know how I feel about the rules. But let me let you in on a fun little fact about hypnosis. You can't force someone to do something they wouldn't want to. Its just an encouraging nudge. And I know somewhere in you, you want to make me happy... [Becoming genuine] And I admit, this isn't how I wanted to win your favor. I didn't want your service, or your soul. I never did. That's why I've left you alone this whole time. I loved seeing you as you are. I loved feeling your passions and desires. I loved your ideals and mannerisms. I loved... [Conflicted, her voice gets caught in her throat before she can finish her sentence.]
[Regaining her composure] Which makes you the perfect person for me to try this out on.
Come, my flame. Let me light my candle for you. [The sound of her blowing gently and the candle igniting with a flame.] You can close your eyes if you want, but I just need your attention. I promise you I'm more interesting to look at than the backs of your eyelids."
Mai'el: [Beginning the hypnosis with a comforting or sultry tone] "Listen closely to my voice. Hear my words reach for you. They yearn for your embrace. Let my message take warm comfort in a place in your mind.
Feel my gaze touch you and explore you. It studies you closely like a treasure map, excited to find what lies beneath. Greedy for the valuables your conceal.
Let my presence into your heart, and surround my being with your love. Soothe my aching desires with your earnest aid. Hold me in your arms to cherish me, and to protect me.
I welcome your soul into me. Let it rest upon my chest, and feel a care and affection beyond your very imagination. Embolden yourself and unshackle your mind from what binds you to your plane. Let your spirit willingly find me, happy to serve. Eager to please. Truly devoted."
[The succubus takes a long deep breath, then blows out the candle.]
Mai'el: [Pleased and excited] "Well? How do you feel? Happier to be around me? Comforted by me presence? I know I feel better after that.
Is that what meditation is like?"
[Listener: "I don't think I feel any different."]
Mai'el: [Slightly disappointed] "Huh? Nothing?... Hm. Well, it's not supposed to make you a different person. It just stimulates what's already there, after all. [Flirty giggling] Did you enjoy me 'stimulating' you? [Kiss] I know I enjoyed myself." [Letting out a sound of delight as she snuggles with the listener.]
[Listener: "Does this mean I'm going to die?"]
Mai'el: [Surprised, concerned, and defensive] "What!? Are you going to die?! No! No, of course not, my flame! That was just hypnosis! I would never try to hurt you!... [Noticing something is off] I... I mean... Once you give me your soul you'll... Um... [Frustrated] Oh, by the nine Hells! What was I thinking?"
[Redirecting her attention back to the listener]
Mai'el: "You have to believe me. I would never try to hurt you!"
[The listener repeats what she said she would do.]
Mai'el: [Embarrassed] "Y-yes. I did say I would take your soul, among others, but- What is wrong with me? Why would I-? [Taking a deep breath to recompose herself] Because I can get around the rules. The value of a soul gives power in any Hell. Servants can help me get things done on the surface while I'm away... [Groaning] None of that seems worth it though. Not if it means hurting the one I love... [More serious upon remembering something] Wait... The rules. Corrupting a demon's soul. I tried to hypnotize you, but you seem unaffected. But I... What made sense to me mere minutes ago suddenly seems so... Wrong!"
Mai'el: [Returning her attention to the listener, nervous.] "Baby? Do I seem... Different to you?... No... I can see it in your eyes already. Something did change. Is this the corruption? Did I accidentally hypnotize myself? Wait! Why do I still have you paralyzed? I'm so sorry!" [The magic is quickly undone.]
Mai'el: "I'm just so confused, I... [Listener speaks to her] Wha-? N-no, I'm not in any pain. Why?... Huh? W-well, yes, I did say hypnosis can't force someone to do something against their will... No. I guess, either way, nothing bad happened. [Less nervous, and stunned by what she heard] Wait. What did you say? What do I want? I... Um... The souls, so I could... [Regret in her voice] I wanted the souls so I could be happy... ... [Soft chuckle] Um... Yeah. I guess even before this happened, I was very happy. [Sweetly] I was finally with you after all... Yeah, I guess I still am, aren't I?... [Alarmed] Stay with you?! I can't do that! Why would you want that after what I tried to do to you?... ... Tch! I suppose you make a good point. If I wanted to hurt you, I wouldn't have unbound you. [Sigh] If I wanted to hurt you, I wouldn't have bothered talking to you in the first place. I would have just tried hypnotizing you... OK, that's true. I was going to hurt you after I hypnotized you, but I wanted to spend time with you first... But I still can't stay with you. I'm sorry. Nothing would make me happier than that right now, but its against the rules to form romantic relationships with morta- Oh, by the nine hells! Why am I such an idiot? I have to be the stupidest one down there!... Hey! Don't laugh! [Failing at trying to be mad] Its not funny! I- Yes, the rules have been in place for thousands of years! Demons don't have the vision that humans do, OK? We're pretty bad at planning ahead. [Laughing]"
Mai'el: [After enjoying a good laugh, she recollects herself] "Are you sure you want this? You know this could be a trick, right? We're pretty good at tricking people... Ugh! We're bad at planning ahead, but we're not that bad! We do a lot of planning on the fly... I mean it; Are you sure?... [Shocked] I what?! How did you know I love you though?... Be-besides just now... When I said I couldn't hurt the one I love. Wow. I didn't even think about what I was saying.
[A sigh of relief and joy] Yeah... I've been crushing on you for a while now. In Hell I can even hear your thoughts, so I got to know who the real you is too... You perv. [Laughing] I'm sorry! I'm a succubus, baby! But I really do find all of your desires and passions attractive. Not just those kind."
Mai'el: [Softly] "Hey. Kind of like that. Yeah. It doesn't take powers to see you're still tired. I kind of woke you up pretty rudely... If... If you want, I could keep you company. I want to stay, but I need to go back eventually. Not for long though. Before that, can- With your permission this time, can I snuggle up with you for the night?... Yeah? Thank you so m- [Succubus is kissed]"
Mai'el: "O-oh! [Giggle] Thank you... Hm? My name? Of course I don't mind. I just didn't realize I didn't tell you yet. It's Mai'el. Kind of like, 'its not your L, its my L'. You can call me Mai, if you'd like though! [Soft giggle] You look so sleepy. [Both lay down together, ushering Mai'el into a peaceful state.] I wanted you to hold me in your arms like this earlier... I didn't think I'd be able to do this. I'm glad this happened though... Thank you, my flame. Sleep well..."

Hey, I know it's been a couple months since things between us officially ended but I felt it was necessary to tell you this now that I've had a bit of time and space to reflect and begin therapy. I wanted to tell you thank you for our time together and also for affording me the time and space to heal from the break up. Thinking of you no longer hurts and I'm glad that I only think of the good times instead of that last month.
To be honest with you, I, too, was mentally checked out in that final month but I figured that if I toughed it out things would magically solve themselves but that was my optimism and naivety speaking. In that same vein, I would like to apologize for our timing and my immaturity. I was immature and insecure and somehow both smothered and neglected you due to frustrations stemming from the downswing of what we had and my personal life. To that end I'm working on how to maintain a better work-life balance so that I won't become that person again.
I'd also like to thank you for mutually agreeing to pull the plug on the whole thing. I truly will never know if timing was your only issue in ending the whole thing but with perspective I definitely believe it was the underlying cause for me. I was so wrapped up with work and studying to the point where I couldn't give my all to you which I deeply regret. But, as I said, it was a good call to make. If there was a hall of fame for bad timing I really do think we would have made it in. With all of the instances in which we both just missed each other, both of us adjusting to our new lives, and the difficulty of trying to fit a square peg into the round hole that was our schedules, I think it was too much to handle. Plus, in about two months I'll be in another country advocating for financial aid from our sister city and I genuinely think we would have resented one another if the relationship continued. So I'll always be grateful for your foresight and maturity in that regard.
I'd love to grab boba and properly catch up either before or after my overseas business trip, however regardless of your answer I'll respect it. I don't want to get back together because the timing is still off and if we were to ever try again I want to give us a proper shot, but so many things would have to go right that it's a pipe dream. So in the interim I'd love to be friendly towards one another. I'd like to clarify that I'm over what we had because it didn't serve either of us anymore but I hope when you think of me you still remember the "sweetest guy" that you happened to cross paths with and would be open to a new beginning in time no matter what shape the new beginning takes. As always, I wish you the best and I know as long as you listen to your heart you'll do amazing in life.
If it means anything, I think you're the sweetest girl I've ever met too.
-T

2 days ago we were goofing around during our moving up ceremony practice when suddenly my friend accidentally punched my left knee causing it to dislocate (again lol). I was immediately brought to er and my mom was called by the school. I was x-rayed and was told that an orthopedic will arrive soon to treat my knee. Apparently he’ll arrive at 1:30 but we waited for more than an hour in the er. Eventually my mom lost patience and threatened the hospital to bring us an ambulance to transfer us to another hospital to treat my knee. But suddenly after she threatened the hospital the orthopedic arrived to our room. Mom suggested to cut my pants to see the dislocation but the doctor simply asked me where the pain is. He found where the dislocation is and simply moved the bones back to its place. It was painful and I screamed a lot. But afterwards I felt better and can somewhat move. The orthopedic warned that if it happens again, I’ll need a surgery to repaitighten the ligaments around my knee. Then we went home after ordering food from a fast food chain. It’s kind of surprising how I can still walk and climb up stairs. The first time it happened I was in so much pain, can barely move and had to stay in bed for most of the day during the early weeks of recovery. Knowing this, there’s now hope that I can attend and be with my batch on our moving up. Too bad I need to be more careful now and always wear a knee support when going out but that’s life I guess.

praying this doesnt haunt me later 😍 carbon footprint stay away
so i have a crush (maybe squish since i think im aro and im 100% ace? idk happy pride) on my sports coach who is in their mid twenties... and i'm a teen (preteen when this first started 😭). i never wanted something with her because even though im delusional i knew from the start that shes wayyy too old. (honestly im kind of proud of myself for never being delulu enough to actually expect to date her, my only noteworthy achievement yall 😍). i started liking her in six grade and we werent able to contact each other during quarantine. i dont know her that well except for me projecting personality traits onto her and info i found back when i didnt know cyberstalking is creepy yet (im trying to not cyberstalk anymore but i dont have that strength im sorry). i tried to not talk to her (+ she gave me anxiety and i usually froze) so i dont know that much about her and we werent close. (i was so mature for showing her basic human decency and not bothering her every 10 secs for reals guys 😍). i think my feelings faded during that quarantine break? idk i dont remember my life is a blur. however, once quarantine ended, i saw her again and my feelings came back instantly 🤡. i was so delusional that i didnt even admit/know to myself that i liked her despite everything until 9th grade. better late than never i guess slay.
anyway she left. she moved to the other side of the country, got a boyfriend, (hopefully) living her best life. yay her. except unfortunately i forgot how to be happy without her presence oopsies. im definitely happy for her and of course i dont want to date her or anything but like i miss her and she made me feel happy. the only thing i look forward to now is mostly the possibility of seeing her again (she said she'll visit during the holidays - probably thanksgiving). omg im so bad 😭😭😭 i need help i need to get over her lmao what is this
i dont even want to date her i think (maybe i do subconsciously i dont even know anymore) and i know she has a life im happy for her but like i miss her and i miss being happy. although i do still feel happy sometimes, those feelings fleet quickly unlike what i felt around her
i just want to move on from her, and find a way to feel happy (optional) at the same time though obsessing over her is probably the only thing that reminds me of happiness but still id rather stop cuz this is icky
why am i so obsessed with her why why why shes already GONE
i've done this before during covid season - i was able to do it then, why am i struggling nowwww
why is she so old
she isnt even all that tbh like shes pretty but not that pretty shes cool but not that cool like-
theres literally rumors that she cheated like why do i even like her then cheating is bad
i kinda feel bad cuz, in an attempt to get over her, i was really judgmental about her and i almost forgot that she was actually really nice to me like 😭 i wasnt her favorite or anything but she was nice to me regardless and idk i feel bad that i forgot
i tried to hide my feelings for her hopefully she doesnt know <3 i did tell her i was gay though since she was leaving but like im a minor she wouldnt suspect anything right 🥰
she fixed me (i used to be slightly homophobic, not very empathetic, and a bit too self-centered) but she couldve finished fixing me before leaving /j
i wish i wasnt this strongly attracted to anyone cuz this all aint worth it
i hope i move on but i genuinely cant picture that :/ what if im stuck like this foreverrrrrrr
thanks for reading <3 keep slaying

I long for a gal pal that I can call on my breaks from work to chat about our days. Relationship problems in your life or mine, clothes we like, pets, things we want to do, drama from our days we have to deal with, the cute guy at my work whom I hit in the face with a door.
I'd really like us just to be people who chat whenever we can, and keep up a genuine connection despite distance. Or maybe you're even in the state! That would be cool.

What do you guys think what my enneagram type is, maybe also my tritype if possible
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• How old are you? What's your gender? Give us a general description of yourself.
I'm 25, female. I'd say I am a pretty shy and quiet person. I am really into languages, music theory, typology among other stuff.
• Is there a medical diagnosis that may impact your mental stability somehow?
I'm having some anxiety issues right now, but I am taking that into account when I am answering.
• Describe your upbringing. Did it have any kind of religious or structured influence? How did you respond to it?
My mom was my primary caregiver, because my dad was away because of work a lot. I also have a sister a few years youonger than me. While it was not really religious it was very structures. My mother was a very anxious parent and viewed many things as dangerous, she was also a bit controlling. Our day was really stuctured like meals at the same time, bedtime at the same time etc. But she also dedicated a lot of here time to us, she also drove us to various hobbies like we were in a choir, learned intruments or did sports and, my mom was very involved, but she never forced us to any of those activities.
I liked the structured days as a child, it gave me security. I was for the most part a pretty quiet and well-behaved child and didnt cause my parents much trouble. When she was around 10-14 she was extremely aggressive, not going to school, violent against my parents, which also impacted me and our every day life, everything just evolved around her and my thoughts were all about: when will she loose it next time, when will she hurt my mother again?" And I mostly reactedby becoming even more quiet and withdrawn than before and fled into some kind of fantasy world to tune out and get a break from all this conflict and chaos around me. I tried to not let my parents notice how much I was suffering so as to not cause them any additional problems. luckily when my sister was aroound 14 it got better again, also for me.
• What do you do as a job or as a career (if you have one)? Do you like it? Why or why not?
Nothing at the moment. I studied the English languages and linguistics. I dropped out of university about a year ago, I am having other priorities right now, but some time I would like to teach other people German (my mother tongue) or maybe do something with children. Until recently I babysat to kids (now they are to old for that) and I really enjoyed that.
• If you had to spend an entire weekend by yourself, how would you feel? Would you feel lonely or refreshed?
I would be fine, I guess. I like doing stuff on my own.
• What kinds of activities do you prefer? Do you like, and are you good at sports? Do you enjoy any other outdoor or indoor activities?
I like learning langguages, music, singing, learning about dirfferent stuff in general. I like going for walks, but I am bad at sports and I dont really enjoy it.
• How curious are you? Do you have more ideas then you can execute? What are your curiosities about? What are your ideas about - is it environmental or conceptual, and can you please elaborate?
I am curious about a lot of different stuff, but I dont have many ideas. My curiosities are about languagages, interesting linguistic phenomena, music theory, typology and also other stuff. I dont know what my ideas are about, I dont have that many.
• Would you enjoy taking on a leadership position? Do you think you would be good at it? What would your leadership style be?
No, I am not some one who could be a leader and I dont think I would be good at it, but if I had to my leadership style would be more demotractic and I would take everyones opinoin into account.
• Are you coordinated? Why do you feel as if you are or are not? Do you enjoy working with your hands in some form? Describe your activity?
My coordination is extremely bad, I have even been treated for it a few times as a child but I feel that it didnt change much. My movements look clumsy and weird. I am having a hard time with things that require percition, like drawing, writing, knitting or anything else like that. Although I really like painting, but I stopped when I was around sixteen, because everything I did still looked like something that was made by a preschooler.
• Are you artistic? If yes, describe your art? If you are not particular artistic but can appreciate art please likewise describe what forums of art you enjoy. Please explain your answer.
When I was younger, I used to write stories and songs. I dont write myself anymore, but I still enjoy different forms of music or stories, also movies or tv shows.
• What's your opinion about the past, present, and future? How do you deal with them?
Hard question. The past of course is what is over and you have no control over, but I still consider the past as really important because I use past experiences to guide myself in the present. It also made you the way you are. I also like nostalgia quiet a lot. The present is what is happening now, I dont know what else to say about it. And the future is what will be and you can use both the past and present to change your future. But I guess I live mostly in the past, present and near future, so what will happen later today, tomorrw or next week. Everything that is further away than a few months I have completely no grasp of, it really hard for me to imagine and also a bit scary, because I dont know for sure what will be.
• How do you act when others request your help to do something (anything)? If you would decide to help them, why would you do so?
If people ask me for help,I will try to help them as best as I can, because I guess they would do the same for me, if I need it. It is also something that I think you should do as friends or family.
• Do you need logical consistency in your life?
I have been told by others that I am pretty logical and concistent, but I dont really notice it myself.
• How important is efficiency and productivity to you?
It is pretty important to me but I have a hard time being effiecnietn or productive.
• Do you control others, even if indirectly? How and why do you do that?
Directly not at all, but maybe indirectly even though I try to not control other people and if I do, I couldnt explain how I am.
• What are your hobbies? Why do you like them?
I really like languages and anything to do with linguistics, I also like music and music theory. I also sing. When it comes to learning langauges I really like that you can say the same thing in avery different way and I have always seen languages like some kind of code you need to decode to understand. I often check my progress, by listeing to something that I didnt understand be for and now I do. Anf for music theory, I like to see what songs are made of and I dont know why I like singing, I mostly only thing for myself, but I just find it enjoyable and as I got better, I got into a flow state more and more often.
• What is your learning style? What kind of learning environments do you struggle with most? Why do you like/struggle with these learning styles? Do you prefer classes involving memorization, logic, creativity, or your physical senses?
I was good at remembering stuff at school. I also learned well audatively I often listen to sutff to learn it or I just read it out loud or recorded my voice and then listened to it. Thinks like punishment if you fail or make a mistake really devmotivated me and made me perform worse. In school I liked the subjects and was good at languages, music and biology. Thinks I was bad at worse sport and maths.
• How good are you at strategizing? Do you easily break up projects into manageable tasks? Or do you have a tendency to wing projects and improvise as you go?
I like to plan in advance especially complex tasks or something I have never done before. I plan out what I will do when.
• What are your aspirations in life, professionally and personally?
proffectionally not much, maybe I could see myself teaching people my mother tongue or something with children. Personally I would like to learn more languages, become better and singing and generally learn as much as possible in this life.
• What are your fears? What makes you uncomfortable? What do you hate? Why?
Mostly, death, any kind of pain, I go to great lengths to avoid it. Also loosing everyone and verything thats important to me. I feel uncomftorble in situations were I am watched and need to perform something, when interacting with strangers or people I dont know well, being forced to open up and talk about my feelings or reveal certain things, if I am not ready for it. Doing household chores, conflicts especially with those important to me.
• What do the "highs" in your life look like?
I am a bit more open and less withdrawan, I have more selfconfidence and I am ususally relaxed and calm not taking things to serious
• What do the "lows" in your life look like?
During my lows, I usually become anxious, even more withdrawn, excessive worrying up to the point that I cant sleep anymore. Low selfconiousness, very sensitive and introspective.
• How attached are you to reality? Do you daydream often, or do you pay attention to what's around you? If you do daydream, are you aware of your surroundings while you do so?
I try to few what I persceive opjectively although it is hard and I dont believe there is true obectivety every one percieve their reality differently. I occationally get lost in thought or the activity I am doing and can forget my surroundings. Partly although I sometimes drop things or bump into something, if I get lost in thought while doing something.
• Imagine you are alone in a blank, empty room. There is nothing for you to do and no one to talk to. What do you think about?
At first it would be hard. I like to at least have some kind of stimulation and not be all alone with my thoughts.
• How long do you take to make an important decision? And do you change your mind once you've made it?
I hate making decicions and I often consult people I trust to help me making the decicion.
• How long do you take to process your emotions? How important are emotions in your life?
Usually long, I can have troubling sorting my emotions, what I am actually feeling why I am feeling it. Usually my responses are delayed.
• Do you ever catch yourself agreeing with others just to appease them and keep the conversation going? How often? Why?
Yes, I do this very often. Like 9 out of 10 times, because I am very afraid of conflict.
• Do you break rules often? Do you think authority should be challenged, or that they know better? If you do break rules, why?
No actually I dont. I try to adhere to the rules most of the time to not get into trouble. I dont no if it should be challenged, in some situations maybe? But i would probably not be the one to do it. I only have broken rules that are really minor and wouldnt have resulted in negative consequences for myself.

As the couple walked inside, he took her hand, looked around and spoke with a loud authoritative voice "hello everyone, I'd like to use this family reunion as an opportunity to introduce all of you to the love of my life and soon to be future bride, right honey?"

You won't believe this, but I swear on my life, it's the truth. I think I'm losing my goddamn mind. I have to... okay, okay, I need to start from the beginning. See, I've been dabbling in lucid dreaming lately. Been having these vivid, messed up nightmares, you see... I just wanted some semblance of control over my mental state, you know?
I felt like therapy wasn't cutting it anymore, I needed something more, so I gotten into this lucid dreaming thing. But the things I've seen, the encounters I've had, they've changed me, man. I've gotta get this out, gotta let the world know about this shit 'cause its importance... it can't be overstated.
So here's the thing, in my lucid dreams, I've been having these bizarre experiences. In the dreams, waking up suspended over an abyss, right? Surrounding me, there's this sterile, white room, bathed in blinding lights, and in the distance, a glass pane. Can't exactly make out what's behind it, and it paints this real surreal scene.
At first, it didn't bother me much. I woke up, had this lingering unease the whole day but shrugged it off. But then the next few times, as I regained lucidity in my dreams, the same scenario would play out. At first, I could do the usual stuff, you know, flying around and the likes, but then the dream would always, without fail, transition into this... this suspension above the abyss.
I'd be strapped in place with ropes or chains, my limbs stretched out toward the cool walls of this clinical, white room. And beneath me, just infinite darkness. It felt like gazing into the maw of oblivion, and it was... it was downright petrifying.
The dread, man. The absolute fucking dread. In particular that glass pane in the distance and the infinite abyss below me, it was eating away at me. I started wondering what was behind the glass, and what, if anything, was at the bottom of that godforsaken hole. Its vast, infinite expanse was just pulling me in, gnawing at my sanity. It's hard to describe, you know? It's not something you can just put into words.
Soon, it became a nightly routine. Almost every single dream ended with me suspended over that abyss, and this paralyzing sense of dread seeping into me, becoming more and more prominent. Eventually, I decided I had to stop, I couldn't go on like this. I spoke to my therapist about it, and they said it might be a manifestation of some negative childhood experiences, and advised me to quit lucid dreaming for the time being. It wasn't doing me any good, they said.
I upped my meds, and tried something else, but no matter what I did, I couldn't shake off the lucidity. It's weird because in the past, becoming lucid required effort, with reality checks, dream journaling, and whatnot. But now, even when I set the intention to not lucid dream, I found myself more lucid than ever, and always, without fail, ended up above the abyss.
At one point, I tried to inspect my body in the dream, and I think I was naked. I noticed something on my arm, like a small needle. I realized it was an IV drip. Something was being pumped into me. I freaked out, man. What the hell was happening? Was I part of some fucked up mind control experiment? Was I being drugged? I couldn't make sense of it all.
Soon after noticing the IV, I saw shadows moving behind the glass pane. There were figures there, watching me. The terror I felt about these figures lurking behind the glass was even more pronounced than the dread induced by the abyss. It was all kinds of messed up, but amidst the fear, I felt this sudden urge to know more.
So I shouted out, "Hey! Who's there? Talk to me, you creepy fucks!"
To my surprise, a voice crackled to life over the speakers. It said, "We've never seen someone maintain lucidity to this extent. Your perceptive abilities are impressively consistent. How did you achieve this?"
"I don't fucking know", I said. "It's not like I want to be here. Is this even real?"
The voice replied, "Yes, this is happening. This is the actual reality, the true nature of reality."
"What the fuck? You say my dreams are reality? You'll have to prove that for me to believe you at all", I said.
"You will see by the consistency of this reality", the voice said. "But first, demonstrate to us that you are indeed lucid enough for us to continue this conversation. It's not something we usually do. It might, however, be a path to conquer the darkness."
And then, like every other time, the dream ended.
I relayed the whole fucked up scenario to my therapist, who, unsurprisingly, suggested it was a fantastical manifestation of my own fears. My subconscious testing boundaries, pushing limits, trying to get under my skin. But when I asked them what to do, they proposed a plan: continue engaging with the dream. Try to spot inconsistencies in its logic. After all, if it is all just a product of my mind, it is bound to falter at some point.
So, armed with my therapist's advice, I geared up for the next encounter. This time I would use reason and logic to disprove the dream for good.
The following night, I found myself in the all-too-familiar white room, suspended over nothingness, the shadowy figures behind the glass pane watching intently. The voice piped up again.
"Do you still question this reality?" it asked.
"Yeah", I said, "I think this is just my dream. You're just a figment of my unconscious mind. This is all nonsensical bullshit, and I'm going to prove you wrong."
"Alright", the voice responded. "You can try to disprove me. But first, would you like to hear what we're doing here? Then, you can judge for yourself."
"Yeah, sure. Whatever. What are you doing here?" I asked, more out of curiosity than anything else.
"We are doing research. Do you know what an ancestor simulation is?"
I felt my eyebrows furrow. "No fucking clue. What is it?"
Then, the voice from the speaker, which now claimed to be a researcher, started to explain.
"An ancestor simulation is essentially a theory, a simulated reality hypothesis", the voice explained. "It suggests that a perceived reality isn't 'real' but instead is running on some advanced computational system capable of artificially simulating an entire universe and consistent reality."
So far, this was all high-grade sci-fi crap, but I played along. "Why the hell would anyone do that?"
"For the purpose of analysis", the voice continued. "Imagine a civilization trying to understand its own past. In your case, your reality is an ancestor simulation of one of many civilizations that have died out because of catastrophic failures in the space-time continuum."
My head was spinning. "Catastrophic failures? What are you talking about?"
The voice said: "Humanity failed. Due to their own ignorance, they destroyed their planet. Climate change, political unrest, the development of superintelligent AI systems used for weaponry, they all fueled the chaos of World War III."
As the voice droned on, I tried to make sense of what was being told. Is this all just some nightmare spawned by my own fears, or could there be some truth to this? And if there was, then what did it mean for me, for us?
The voice added: "Do you know what a macroverse is?"
"Yeah, I've heard of macroverses", I said, "That's like, multiple universes, right?"
"Yes", the voice said. "We exist within a five-dimensional macroverse. The fifth dimension encompasses parallel universes. The concept of an ancestor simulation isn't completely accurate. It's an analogy, borrowed from Darwinian evolution, suggesting our universe is part of a branching system of universes."
I could barely keep up with this gibberish. "A branching system of...?"
"Universes", the voice repeated. "This system churns out various configurations, mutations of universes, one of which eventually became my universe, another one yours. It's as though universes are engaged in a Darwinian competition. The most adaptive ones, primarily those driven by human beings, last the longest. They compete to see which universe can ultimately conquer the darkness, can combat the laws of entropy."
This was just too much. It felt like some wild fever dream, a convoluted mess of sci-fi nonsense. But even so, there was an unnerving quality to the voice that made me want to listen, to understand. If what it said was true... well, I didn't want to think about that. Not yet.
For a bit I was just silent, my mind racing.
"Look", I finally muttered, "It's gonna be pretty damn hard to disprove you when I can't make heads or tails of the shit you're saying. You're telling me that universes depend on the quality of the humans inside them, and that they're evolving, or something? I... I don't get it. It's all just too fucking weird."
At that moment, the reality of the situation hit me like a ton of bricks. How the hell was I supposed to logically dismantle something that sounded like the wildest sci-fi bullshit I'd ever heard, something I couldn't even begin to wrap my head around? Did not the complexity of the information indicate that it could not have possibly been just a dream; my own mind could not generate things I could never understand. It was impossible.
And just as I was starting to feel the edges of panic creeping in, the researcher's voice began to fade. My surroundings blurred, morphed, and then... the dream ended.
The next day, I was glued to my damn computer, trying to dig into these concepts the mysterious voice had been throwing around. I was googling my ass off – 'ancestor simulations', 'parallel universes', 'fifth dimension', 'Darwinian evolution of universes', 'universe branching' – all that crazy stuff. And here's the kicker: I found a ton of literature on the topics and, for the most part, it seemed to line up with what the voice had been saying. It seems the voice was speaking the truth; providing me with information I had not known before... indicating that... it could not have been a dream... he was stating the truth... and that was...
So, if I got this right, he was saying that there's a 'macroverse', some sort of branching system like a fucking phylogenetic tree in biological evolution. He seemed to be saying that humans are the apex predator of this macroverse, and that our universe, the one we're living in right now, is one of the failures. He mentioned some catastrophic shit that led to unrest, essentially sparking World War III and wiping us all out.
It all kinda made sense. And that scared the hell out of me.
I tried to get in touch with my therapist, to make sense of all this mind-bending shit, but I couldn't reach 'em. They were probably off on vacation or something, living a blissfully unaware life. So, I figured, fuck it. I'll bring it up in a week when we meet.
And so, I went back to the dreams. Same as always – suspended above the abyss, glass pane, and the all-too-familiar blindingly white room with clinical surfaces. And the same damn voice.
Eventually I said, "I think... I think I might believe you. It doesn't make complete sense to me... but I couldn't have possibly known the stuff you've been talking about. But, I don't get what my role in all this is. Why the hell are you telling me this? Isn't this going to screw with the simulation or something? I asked people online, and they all said it'd be a terrible idea to interfere with the simulation. It would mess with our causal chain and turn the whole experiment to shit. So what gives?"
The researcher's voice came over the speaker again, "Yes, that's a valid concern. But, we're running short on subjects. You're truly an anomaly, we haven't encountered someone quite like you before. Despite adjusting the dosage of the substances we've been administering, you just kept becoming lucid. I decided, perhaps a little unilaterally, to... interfere with the test subject. My hope is that by giving you a briefing, you could play a role in saving humanity, fighting against the darkness, and preserving the macroverse. This could ensure the perseverance of future generations in the succeeding universes."
I was flabbergasted. "What the hell? I'm no hero! I'm just a socially anxious nerd whose main hobbies are gaming and smoking weed. I'm just trying to get by. I don't understand what you're talking about, how the hell am I supposed to save anything?"
He replied, "You have noticed the darkness below you. This darkness is the cause of all suffering in the world. Are you familiar with the concept of theodicy?"
Confused, I retorted, "What the hell? Can you not speak in intellectual mumbo jumbo for a second?"
The researcher explained, "Theodicy is a theological concept that questions why, if God is benevolent, there is suffering in the world. What's your take on that?"
I shrugged, "I don't know, I'm agnostic. But if I were to guess, I think it's because humans have free will. Suffering in the world is due to free will, you know?"
"Wrong", the researcher interrupted. "There is no free will. Your universe's neuroscience has already established this. Psychological studies have proven that humans do not have control over their own actions. The laws of physics concur with this, and philosophy mostly agrees too. So free will can't be the root of suffering."
"Alright, man. I'm not a scientist. But yeah, I think I've heard about these neuroscience experiments. The ones where people's brain waves indicated they had decided to open their hands before they were consciously aware of deciding to do so. So yeah, maybe there's something about unconscious decision-making. But personally, I don't care much. I feel like I have the illusion of free will and that's good enough, so why should it bother me? What's the point?"
"The point is, free will isn't the source of suffering in the world."
"Oh, so this is a philosophical game to you? If free will isn't the source, then God must be evil, is that it?"
"Quite the contrary", he said, "God isn't evil. The source of suffering is the darkness beneath you - what you've been referring to as the 'abyss'."
Startled, I questioned, "How do you know I've been calling it that?"
He spoke with an unnerving confidence, "I can read your mind. With all the tools at my disposal, I can perceive every aspect of your simulated experience. Thus, I know you've been aware of the 'abyss'. It's been speaking to you, hasn't it? Initially, it inspired dread. But now, how does it make you feel?"
Hesitant, I confessed, "I... I don't know. I feel... drawn to it. It's as though it's always been there, long before you began speaking to me."
With a gravity in his voice, he explained, "It's been spreading, much like a cosmic virus. It's consuming the macroverses, fostering political unrest, cultivating ignorance, encouraging indifference towards the problems of the world, toward human suffering. It sows seeds of evil within the hearts of men, inciting chaos, destruction, cruelty, and hatred. All the atrocities throughout history—the crucifixion of Christ, the world wars—they all stem from the abyss."
I was at a loss for words and the dream came to an abrupt end. The exhaustion I felt was immense, as the conversation was too overwhelming to fully comprehend. I felt as though I couldn't take any more of this, and when I look at the real world, it feels as though the abyss had a point. I see constant storms of negativity on social media platforms like Twitter where hate and spite reign supreme. The threats of nuclear war, super-intelligent AI displacing human jobs, and the existential fear, in a world that feels increasingly alien to all of us.
We haven't truly solved any of our problems. With the advent of general AI and the proliferation of weapons that could cause unparalleled mass destruction, the state of our world is precarious. A resurgence of imperialism and authoritarianism, a decline in freedom and democracy, and an onslaught of hatred from all corners - we are being besieged on all sides.
But these issues aren't the fault of any single individual or decision-maker. It is systemic. The very nature of these systems is causing the suffering. The researcher had posited that the abyss was the root cause of this suffering. But perhaps, the abyss is merely a mirror, reflecting what was already there.
When I thought about it, all the tragedies in human history, the atrocities of wars, mass shootings, serial killers - haven't we built a culture that's obsessed with these terrible deeds? True crime and horror, some of the most successful genres out there. Our entertainment media is steeped in violence and negativity. Have we not already succumbed to the darkness? Hadn't the abyss simply revealed what was already in the hearts of humans?
Did humanity truly deserve to persevere? Were we, who have enslaved and harmed countless animals, we who have destroyed the biosphere at large, who have exploited everything around us for personal gain; were we fit to be considered the 'apex predator'? Are we really the saviors of the universe? Would a universe without humans be all that bad, really?
I became less and less engaged with the researcher. His talks, once intriguing, now felt dull and uninspiring. I drifted through my days in a daze, ignoring therapy sessions and the concerned calls from my therapist. My thoughts were consumed by the abyss. At times, I could see a creeping darkness encroach upon the corners of my vision.
People tried to reach out to me, but their words faded into mere mumbles. My real-life contacts dwindled, and I found myself caring less and less about the world around me. Social media, once a platform for connection, was deleted. It had devolved into a cesspool of negativity and relentless bickering - something I no longer had the energy to deal with.
In my dreams, the true reality, I stopped paying attention to the researcher. His words became incoherent mumbles as the abyss came ever closer, almost as if it was embracing me. It seeped into my waking reality, slowly but surely taking over my life.
The burden of humanity's torments is too heavy for me to bear. I cannot resist the grim truth of our existence - the world that is destined to be a hotbed for suffering. It isn't anyone's fault; it is simply the way the world was designed to be. I had to accept the harsh truth that humanity is on a path to its own demise. The project of humanity, it seems, is doomed to fail.
Eventually, in one of my dreams, a siren's wail ripped through the silence, accompanied by flashing red lights that bathed the room in a stark, blood-like glow. The researcher's voice, suddenly urgent, pulled me back into focus.
The researcher spoke one last time: "I'm sorry to say this, but your universe appears to be doomed. It's time for us to part ways."
Suddenly, the shackles that bound my arms and legs were released by some unseen mechanism. I was falling, plunging into the abyss that lay below. I was enveloped by darkness, an unending and eternal void that swallowed all light. No longer did I dream, there was only the darkness — an expanse of infinite obscurity.
Strangely enough, I've found acceptance in my fate. I see it now as my mission to disseminate this knowledge, a burden that is not just my own but one that should be shared collectively. It's our shared destiny, and to all who are willing to listen, I tell them of the abyss, the dark entity that lies beneath us all.
It is the foundation of our reality, the source of all our suffering. My story is a warning, a revelation of the truth that lies behind our existence. Now, all I see is darkness, and my greatest wish is for this truth to spread. Like a virus, it should infect us all, enlighten us all, and unite us all in our shared fate.

LAPTOP QUESTIONNAIRE

• Total budget (in local currency) and country of purchase. Please do not use USD unless purchasing in the US: Philippines, around Php40,000 - Php50,000
• Are you open to refurbs/used? No
• How would you prioritize form factor (ultrabook, 2-in-1, etc.), build quality, performance, and battery life? Performance above everything, then battery life, build quality, and form factor (Hopefully around 12gb+512gb - 16gb+1tb)
• How important is weight and thinness to you? Moderate weight is good, not too heavy though
• Do you have a preferred screen size? If indifferent, put N/A. 16:9 is fine
• Are you doing any CAD/video editing/photo editing/gaming? List which programs/games you desire to run. Yes. Editing, gaming, music production, coding. Should be able to run FL Studio, Blender, etc...
• If you're gaming, do you have certain games you want to play? At what settings and FPS do you want? Maybe FPS games. If possible maybe the best quality in game, 60fps too. Also, maybe 144hz, but it's fine if it isn't.
• Any specific requirements such as good keyboard, reliable build quality, touch-screen, finger-print reader, optical drive or good input devices (keyboard/touchpad)? Good quality for everything. I'd prefer regular sized arrow buttons, I don't like it squeezed.
• Leave any finishing thoughts here that you may feel are necessary and beneficial to the discussion. Hopefully this new laptop would last me 6-9 years before I replace it with a new one... Anything helps. Thank you!!!

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I'm not sure if it's the right place to post this or not,
I've been using a piece of crap for last 7 years and it finally needs to be sent home. In the past, I've always be a passionate hater of MacBooks but introduction of M1 and M2 made me change my mind and considering it as an option. Especially after I've heard of It's unified memory and Soc which is apparently good and faster for running CNNs and RNNs. I've always ran Linux and Windows and never have been a Mac user. I use AWS services as of now.
I'm planning on starting a small business with new project involving Finance and Statistics at its core. I estimate that it would be based on RNN with BERT in association with MDPs aided by ReLU and Softmax. In some collaboration with GPT-4
But after Microsoft started Integration with AI across all it's platforms, I'm planning on switching to Azure services. But haven't decided on it yet. Also I've already began using Windows features like Power Automate which has made my testing and data mining a breeze. I haven't implemented any of NVIDIA's cuDNN and DALI models in any of my previous models despite hearing all good things about their efficiencies. And am not aware of their relevance in my future application. But I'm ready to learn their usage and implement them if need be. I also am hopeful that Microsoft would bring further tools to make developing easier.
Now, coming to my dilemma, I want to get a new laptop, that would help develop and test the modules on smaller datasets before futher integration. And am not sure on which one to get.
A 32GB MacBook Pro with M2 costs around 350000 INR i.e. 4250 USD approximately An Asus Zephrys G14 with 12GB RTX 4080 and 16GB memory costs around 270000 INR i.e. around 3280 USD.
I don't want a FOMO in the efficiency of the model due to the hardware I use and the Operating System aiding in development.
I'd appreciate if someone let's me know whether NVIDIA's models are better at the applications and suggest which laptop I can opt for to make life easier

I'm not sure if it's the right place to post this or not,
I've been using a piece of crap for last 7 years and it finally needs to be sent home. In the past, I've always be a passionate hater of MacBooks but introduction of M1 and M2 made me change my mind and considering it as an option. Especially after I've heard of It's unified memory and Soc which is apparently good and faster for running CNNs and RNNs. I've always ran Linux and Windows and never have been a Mac user. I use AWS services as of now.
I'm planning on starting a small business with new project involving Finance and Statistics at its core. I estimate that it would be based on RNN with BERT in association with MDPs aided by ReLU and Softmax. In some collaboration with GPT-4
But after Microsoft started Integration with AI across all it's platforms, I'm planning on switching to Azure services. But haven't decided on it yet. Also I've already began using Windows features like Power Automate which has made my testing and data mining a breeze. I haven't implemented any of NVIDIA's cuDNN and DALI models in any of my previous models despite hearing all good things about their efficiencies. And am not aware of their relevance in my future application. But I'm ready to learn their usage and implement them if need be. I also am hopeful that Microsoft would bring further tools to make developing easier.
Now, coming to my dilemma, I want to get a new laptop, that would help develop and test the modules on smaller datasets before futher integration. And am not sure on which one to get.
A 32GB MacBook Pro with M2 costs around 350000 INR i.e. 4250 USD approximately An Asus Zephrys G14 with 12GB RTX 4080 and 16GB memory costs around 270000 INR i.e. around 3280 USD.
I don't want a FOMO in the efficiency of the model due to the hardware I use and the Operating System aiding in development.
I'd appreciate if someone let's me know whether NVIDIA's models are better at the applications and suggest which laptop I can opt for to make life easier

I will explain my situation in order of events (tl;dr in the end): - Some weeks ago: My PC I built 3 years ago showed some few signs of malfunction, it shut down by itself once, and some micro-freezes while playing The Sims 3 with quite some expansions. - Two weeks ago: My PC wouldn't boot up, I pressed the power button and PC didn't show any signs of fans spinning, no beeps, nothing, it was as if the front panel cables were not connected, only the "idle lights" on the motherboard that are always turned on when connected to the PSU. But I made it work by disconnecting the PC and keeping the power button pressed for around 30 seconds, aka capacitor discharge. Then I could use it for a full day without problems. - 1 day later: Aaand my PC died again, pressed the power button, but no fans spinning, no beeps, nothing. I tried the capacitor discharge again multiple times, but no luck, so I should start testing other stuff. I tried: 1. The screwdriver technique over the power button pins to see if it was a problem of the case, but no luck. 2. Disconnected almost all componentes from the PSU (GPU, SSDs, RAMs, Fans, etc.), kept the CPU connected to the motherboard, but not the PSU (is that right to do?). I tried the screwdriver over the power pins again and using the power button... no signs of life. - Thought the problem was the PSU, as the problem was solved before after a capacitor discharge (in my ignorance, I thought capacitors were only part of the PSU), and the motherboard had idle lights turned on and no signs of damage, so it didn't seem bad.... so I bought another PSU (I bought one with a longer guarantee period) - Yesterday: The PSU arrived and replaced the previous one... no signs of life either (I admit I felt really dumb for spending money on a new PSU without it being the solution), I made sure everything was well connected, and it seems like it is... so I don't know what else to do other than to buy another motherboard. I tried removing multiple components again but no luck.
So, I'm in this situation where I don't know if it's really a motherboard problem or maybe CPU (?). I'd think that if it was a CPU problem the PC still would try to turn on, but fail to POST... the problem is that it doesn't even POST, it just keeps doing nothing, so I think it's the motherboard even though it still has some lights turned on and no damage is visible.
I would like some insight about if I should just buy a new motherboard or maybe test something else, I'm still pretty much a beginner on PC building.
Specs: - CPU: AMD Ryzer 5 3600 - GPU: NVIDIA Geforce 1650 Super - RAM: 2x4GB + 1x8GB - Motherboard: ASUS B450M-A - Storage: M.2 Kingson 256GB and SSD Kingston 512GB - PSU (now): EVGA 750W GT (GOLD 80 PLUS)
If anyone could help me, I would be very grateful
tl;dr: PC doesn't boot up anymore, no signs of trying to boot up whatsoever, bought a new PSU but still doesn't work... so I think it might be the motherboard, but would like some insight first

3-Apr-2023

• Could you train a ChatGPT-beating model for $85,000 and run it in a browser? (https://simonwillison.net/2023/Ma17/beat-chatgpt-in-a-browse )
• HuggingGPT: Solving AI Tasks with ChatGPT and its Friends in HuggingFace (https://arxiv.org/abs/2303.17580)
• Make loading weights 10-100x faster (https://github.com/ggerganov/llama.cpp/pull/613)
• AI-enhanced development makes me more ambitious with my projects (https://simonwillison.net/2023/Ma27/ai-enhanced-development/)
• Italian privacy regulator bans ChatGPT (https://www.politico.eu/article/italian-privacy-regulator-bans-chatgpt/)
• Vocode–an open source library for building LLM applications you can talk to. (https://github.com/vocodedev/vocode-python)
• Join the Responsible AI Challenge (https://future.mozilla.org/builders-challenge/)
• Twitter recommendation source code now available to all on GitHub (https://twitter.com/elonmusk/status/1641876892302073875)
• Docker and Hugging Face Partner to Democratize AI (https://www.docker.com/blog/docker-and-hugging-face-partner-to-democratize-ai/)
• GPT-4 saves doggo’s life (https://the-decoder.com/gpt-4-saves-doggos-life/)
• 'He Would Still Be Here': Man Dies by Suicide After Talking with AI Chatbot, Widow Says (https://www.vice.com/en/article/pkadgm/man-dies-by-suicide-after-talking-with-ai-chatbot-widow-says)
• Interact ChatGPT via phone call (https://callsam.ai/)

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4-Apr-2023

• 30B model now needs only 5.8GB of RAM? How? (https://twitter.com/jeremyphoward/status/1642726595436883969)
• SudoLang: A Powerful Pseudocode Programming Language for LLMs (https://medium.com/javascript-scene/sudolang-a-powerful-pseudocode-programming-language-for-llms-d64d42aa719b)
• Adobe Firefly vs. MidJourney AI image generation (https://twitter.com/DrJimFan/status/1642921475849203712)
• State-of-the-art open-source chatbot, Vicuna-13B, just released model weights (https://twitter.com/lmsysorg/status/1642968294998306816)
• Introducing Agents in Haystack: Make LLMs resolve complex tasks
• Models guide (https://github.com/Crataco/ai-guide/blob/main/guide/models.md)
• Marvin: a batteries-included library for building AI-powered software. Marvin's job is to integrate AI directly into your codebase by making it look and feel like any other function (https://github.com/PrefectHQ/marvin)

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5-Apr-2023

• Stanford just released a MASSIVE 386-page report on the state of AI. (https://twitter.com/nonmayorpete/status/1643012248720523264)
• Large Language Model Observability (https://monitoring2.substack.com/p/large-language-model-observability)
• Goldman Sachs Predicts 300 Million Jobs Will Be Lost Or Degraded By Artificial Intelligence (https://www.forbes.com/sites/jackkelly/2023/03/31/goldman-sachs-predicts-300-million-jobs-will-be-lost-or-degraded-by-artificial-intelligence/?sh=a8d292b782b4)
• Believe Your Assignment is AI-Immune? Let's Put it to the Test (https://automated.beehiiv.com/p/believe-assignment-aiimmune-lets-put-test)
• Growth of AI Through a Cloud Lens (https://mitchellh.com/writing/ai-through-a-cloud-lens)
• Someone Added ChatGPT to a Furby (https://twitter.com/jessicard/status/1642671752319758336)
• you can greatly increase GPT-4's effective context size by asking it to compress your prompts using its own abbreviations. (https://twitter.com/NoLongerBennett/status/1642909851947810817)
• Microsoft Semantic Kernel Enables LLM Integration with Conventional Programs (https://www.infoq.com/news/2023/03/microsoft-semantic-kernel/)
• Open-source IDE powered by AI agents that do the work for you (https://github.com/e2b-dev/e2b)
• Converse with ChatGPT inside VS Code (BYO OpenAI API Key) (https://github.com/yagil/ChatIDE)
• Promptr is a CLI tool for operating on your codebase using GPT. (https://github.com/ferrislucas/promptr)

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6-Apr-2023

• CAMEL: Communicative Agents for “Mind” Exploration of Large Scale Language Model Society (https://github.com/lightaime/camel)
• Improving Large Language Models with External Knowledge and Automated Feedback (https://www.microsoft.com/en-us/research/group/deep-learning-group/articles/check-your-facts-and-try-again-improving-large-language-models-with-external-knowledge-and-automated-feedback/)
• AI is entering an era of corporate control (https://www.theverge.com/23667752/ai-progress-2023-report-stanford-corporate-control)
• Simulating an FTP server at ftp.disney.com with ChatGPT4 (https://www.filestash.app/2023/04/01/chat-gpt-acting-as-a-ftp-serve)
• OpenAI's approach to AI safety (https://openai.com/blog/our-approach-to-ai-safety)
• Segment Anything: model from facebook (https://ai.facebook.com/blog/segment-anything-foundation-model-image-segmentation/)
• Chinese Gaming Firm Appoints AI Robot As CEO, Sees 10 Percent Growth In Share Price (https://news.abplive.com/technology/chinese-gaming-firm-netdragon-websoft-appoints-ai-robot-as-ceo-sees-10-percent-growth-in-share-price-1589029)
• The Language Wars Are Over: ChatGPT Won (https://bourgoin.dev/posts/programming-languages/)
• JARVIS, a system to connect LLMs with ML community (https://github.com/microsoft/JARVIS)
• I’m an ER doctor: Here’s what I found when I asked ChatGPT to diagnose my patients (https://inflecthealth.medium.com/im-an-er-doctor-here-s-what-i-found-when-i-asked-chatgpt-to-diagnose-my-patients-7829c375a9da)

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10-Apr-2023

• The LLama Effect: How an Accidental Leak Sparked a Series of Impressive Open Source Alternatives to ChatGPT (https://thesequence.substack.com/p/the-llama-effect-how-an-accidental)
• Stanford benchmarks and compares numerous Large Language Models (https://crfm.stanford.edu/helm/latest/?group=core_scenarios)
• Fine-tuning with LoRA: create your own avatars & styles! (https://www.kix.in/2023/04/07/sd-lora-finetuning/)
• Thinking companion, companion for thinking (https://www.oneusefulthing.org/p/thinking-companion-companion-for)
• How ChatGPT is changing the job hiring process, from the HR department to coders (https://www.cnbc.com/2023/04/08/chatgpt-is-being-used-for-coding-and-to-write-job-descriptions.html)
• Harness the power of ChatGPT inside the GDB debugger! (https://github.com/pgosaChatGDB)
• DoctorGPT diagnoses your software's failures (https://github.com/ingyamilmolinadoctorgpt)
• Self-hosted AI coding assistant (https://github.com/TabbyML/tabby)

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11-Apr-2023

• GPT-5 arriving by end of 2023 (https://www.reddit.com/ChatGPT/comments/12gkt3z/gpt5_arriving_by_end_of_2023/)
• 5 Lessons Learned from Adding ChatGPT to a Mature Product (https://blog.trymito.io/5-lessons-learned-from-adding-chatgpt-to-a-mature-product/)
• ChatGPT with long-term memory (https://the-decoder.com/memorygpt-is-like-chatgpt-with-long-term-memory/)
• GitHub Copilot stealing other people's copyright comment blocks (https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=35516887)
• Lost big client because of ChatGPT (https://www.reddit.com/freelanceWriters/comments/12ff5mw/it_happened_to_me_today/)
• LLMs won't eat the world-they will just homogenize it (https://www.vox.com/future-perfect/23674696/chatgpt-ai-creativity-originality-homogenization)
• Edit Anything by Segment-Anything (https://github.com/sail-sg/EditAnything)
• A curated list of awesome ChatGPT resources, including libraries, SDKs, APIs, and more (https://github.com/eon01/awesome-chatgpt)
• TurboPilot: self-hosted copilot clone which uses the library behind llama.cpp to run the 6 Billion Parameter Salesforce Codegen model in 4GiB of RAM. (https://github.com/ravenscroftj/turbopilot)
• Multi-task Language Understanding on MMLU (https://paperswithcode.com/sota/multi-task-language-understanding-on-mmlu)
• Telegram ChatGPT Concierge Bot (+ Voice!) (https://github.com/RafalWilinski/telegram-chatgpt-concierge-bot)

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12-Apr-2023

• Jailbreaking AI Chatbots Is Tech’s New Pastime
• OpenAI’s Bug Bounty Program (https://openai.com/blog/bug-bounty-program)
• GPT-4 Outperforms Elite Crowdworkers, Saving Researchers $500,000 and 20,000 hours (https://www.artisana.ai/articles/gpt-4-outperforms-elite-crowdworkers-saving-researchers-usd500-000-and-20)
• GPT-4 gets a B on my quantum computing final exam! (https://scottaaronson.blog/?p=7209)
• GPT-4 is highly susceptible to prompt injections and will leak its system prompt with very little effort applied (https://twitter.com/alexalbert__/status/1645909635692630018)
• Chinese tech giant Alibaba to release ChatGPT rival (https://www.dw.com/en/chinese-tech-giant-releases-chatgpt-rival/a-65275609)
• Generative AI-enabled compliance for software development (https://github.blog/2023-04-11-generative-ai-enabled-compliance-for-software-development/)
• Chunking Strategies for LLM Applications (https://www.pinecone.io/learn/chunking-strategies/)
• Maximizing the Potential of LLMs: A Guide to Prompt Engineering (https://www.ruxu.dev/articles/ai/maximizing-the-potential-of-llms/)
• Summary Of Adapter Based Performance Efficient Fine Tuning (PEFT) Techniques For Large Language Models (https://smashinggradient.com/2023/04/11/summary-of-adapter-based-performance-efficient-fine-tuning-peft-techniques-for-large-language-models/)
• GPT–LLM native macOS app with time travel, versioning, search (https://thellm.app/)
• Microsoft Kiota: CLI for generating an API client to call OpenAPI-described API (https://learn.microsoft.com/en-us/openapi/kiota/overview) (https://devblogs.microsoft.com/microsoft365dev/you-can-now-use-microsoft-kiota-within-visual-studio-code/)
• DeepSpeed Chat: Easy, Fast and Affordable RLHF Training of ChatGPT-like Models at All Scales (https://github.com/microsoft/DeepSpeed/tree/masteblogs/deepspeed-chat)
• Distributed² Machine Learning notebooks with Elixir and Livebook (https://news.livebook.dev/distributed2-machine-learning-notebooks-with-elixir-and-livebook---launch-week-1---day-2-1aIlaw)
• Large language model evaluation and workflow framework from Phase AI. (https://github.com/wgryc/phasellm)

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13-Apr-2023

• Dolly 2.0: Open Instruction-Tuned LLM (https://www.databricks.com/blog/2023/04/12/dolly-first-open-commercially-viable-instruction-tuned-llm)
• Building LLM applications for production (https://huyenchip.com/2023/04/11/llm-engineering.html)
• AI search engine for developers (https://www.phind.com/)
• Midjourney AI Guide (https://enchanting-trader-463.notion.site/Midjourney-AI-Guide-41eca43809dd4d8fa676e648436fc29c)
• Teaching Large Language Models to Self-Debug (https://arxiv.org/abs/2304.05128)
• Decreasing cold boot time in serverless GPUs(https://www.banana.dev/blog/turboboot)
• Use ChatGPT from WhatsApp (https://brightbot.chat/en/home)
• Yet another cache, but for ChatGPT (https://zilliz.com/blog/Yet-another-cache-but-for-ChatGPT)
• Excited by hype, CEO tells staff to use ChatGPT to build database of diseases (https://nwn.blogs.com/nwn/2023/04/chatgpt-hallucination-enterprise-use.html)
• I'm dating a chatbot trained on old conversations between me and my ex (https://www.reddit.com/OpenAI/comments/12696oq/im_dating_a_chatbot_trained_on_old_conversations/)
• Scaffolded LLMs as natural language computers (https://www.beren.io/2023-04-11-Scaffolded-LLMs-natural-language-computers/)
• Robot powered by GPT4 (https://twitter.com/DataChaz/status/1642558575502405637)
• ChatGPT – Who Owns the Content Created? (https://www.jdsupra.com/legalnews/chatgpt-who-owns-the-content-generated-2891692/) (https://news.ycombinator.com/item?id=35191206)
• Collection of LLM resources that can be used to build products (https://github.com/imaureawesome-decentralized-llm)
• OpenAI releases Consistency Model for one-step generation (https://github.com/openai/consistency_models)
• GPT4 gets a 0 on Steven Landsbrug's undergrad econ exam (https://twitter.com/ATabarrok/status/1646185259866939394)
• emergent abilities of large language models (https://www.jasonwei.net/blog/emergence)
• Praetor, a lightweight finetuning data and prompt management tool (https://github.com/gkamer8/praetor-data)
• Replacing my best friends with an LLM trained on 500,000 group chat messages (https://www.izzy.co/blogs/robo-boys.html)

The giveaway where you also give back! I'm offering a quick trade for any valid steam key. If there's something on the list you want, make me a sensible offer and it will most likely be accepted. The list keeps on cycling so check back at any point as there may be something you like added later on!
I'm not after lists to look through, I want you to offer me your unwanted steam keys for games from this list of a similar value. Think of it like a book swap - take one and leave one. You get a game you want and the one you leave might be the one somebody else wants.
PLEASE NOTE: Due to the nature of the quick swap, most of these keys are from previous trades and donations and I have no way to verify them or check for region locks. Even with the best intentions from all sides, mistakes will be made and some of these keys may not work. I'll always send the key first and ask you to redeem before sending me anything to make sure they work for you.

How it works

1. You offer me any steam game(s) of a similar value to any of those in this list in the comments. Please comment first, don't just DM me.
2. I say yes if the games you want are still available and we trade. I'll DM you the keys first for you to redeem then you send me yours once you're happy they worked. Please also let me know of any region locks when we trade.
3. The keys you give me go back on the list ready to trade with someone else and the cycle starts again.

Games Available:

Always let me send you the key first so you can check it works

Tier 1 (Key value of £1 or less)

• 12 is better than 6
• Alcatraz Builder
• Alien Spidy
• Amerzone: The Explorer's Legacy (x3)
• Anomaly Korea
• Aura: Fate of the Ages
• Automatic War
• Aveyond 3-1: Lord of Twilight
• Bad Rats
• Bionic Commando: Rearmed (x2)
• Black Moon Chronicles
• Commandos: Behind Enemy Lines
• Commandos 2: Men of Courage
• Commandos 3: Destination Berlin
• Control Craft 2
• Crash Time 3
• Curse: The Eye of Isis (x3)
• Deadly 30 (x2)
• Deponia
• DESOLATE
• DOOM 64
• Dub Dash
• Ecchi Jack (NSFW)
• El Matador (x2)
• Explodemon
• Flashback (Classic)
• Garfield Kart (x3)
• Grav Blazer Squared
• Greed: Black Border
• Grotesque Tactics: Evil Heroes (x2)
• Hacker Evolution Source Code (x2)
• Hidden Shapes Animals - Jigsaw Puzzle Game
• Hotshot Racing
• Hue (x2)
• Idle Champions - Celeste Starter Pack (DLC)
• Imperial Glory
• Konung 2 (x2)
• Leisure Suit Larry 7 - Love for Sail (x3)
• Manual Samuel
• Mata Hari
• Megarace 1 (x5)
• Megarace 2 (x3)
• Memories of a Vagabond
• Men of War
• Men of War: Assault Squad - Game of the Year Edition
• Miner Wars 2081
• Mini Words: Top Movies
• NOT the Hero
• Occultus - Mediterranean Cabal
• Onikira: Demon Killer
• Overcast: Walden and the Werewolf
• Overcooked 2: Surf 'n' Turf Pack (DLC)
• Paradox Soul
• Pixel Heroes: Byte & Magic (x3)
• Pumped BMX Pro
• Puzzle Kingdoms (x2)
• Red Risk
• Safety First!
• Save the Dodos
• Slain: Back From Hell
• Smoke and Sacrifice (NA Region Locked)
• Soulcraft
• Space Empires V
• Stacking
• Still Life
• Survivalist (x2)
• S.W.I.N.E. HD Remaster
• Syberia
• Syberia II (x2)
• The Next Door
• Theatre of War 2: Africa 1943 (x2)
• Time Lock VR 1
• UFO: Afterlight
• Unstable Portal
• Vault Cracker
• Voyage: Journey to the Moon (x2)
• Warrior Kings

Tier 2 (Key value of £1 - £2)

• Autonauts (x2)
• Autonauts vs Piratebots
• Beat Hazard (x3)
• Blacksad: Under the Skin
• Crazy Machines: Golden Gears
• Darwinia (x3)
• Darwinia Soundtrack
• Game Dev Studio
• King's Bounty: Armored Princess
• Multiwinia
• Narcos: Rise of the Cartels
• 🧠 OUT OF THE BOX
• Silver Chains
• Time Loader

Tier 3 (Key value of £2 or more)

• Bomber Crew Deluxe Edition (x2)
• Comedy Night
• Golfing in Aether
• Horror Story: Hallowseed
• Mysteries of the Past: Shadow of the Daemon (Delisted)
• Snooker 19
• Warhammer: Vermintide 2

I'm depending on people being honest for this to work and I'll keep track of where all keys come from so I can report any abuse to the mods. Please don't re-trade these keys any further since I can't guarantee they will work and I don't know if there are any region locks. I don't want you to be accused of scamming! I'll always ask you to redeem first in a trade before sending me any keys but if you choose not to redeem as we trade then I won't be held responsible for any future problems as I have given you fair warning.

Valuing Trades

We'll use gg.deals UK key shops price as a way to compare the value of games. If a key shop price isn't available we'll use best judgement based on retail price and recent bundles. Key values change daily so if you notice something is in the wrong tier please let me know. To keep things accessible we'll cap key value at £2.
As a general rule I will usually accept any game in the same tier as a fair trade. I've also accepted trades with games at the top end of a lower tier for games at the bottom end of the next tier. We can trade multiples to even out values but they don’t need to be exact as long as the trade is reasonable. If I already have a surplus of a game you're offering, I may turn you down until the existing copies have been traded.
If anyone just wants to donate any keys that are no good to them to the list then I’m always grateful to receive them. Just DM me and I’ll add them. A huge thank you to those that have already donated keys to this project.

Region Locks

Any region locks I know about with be noted next to the affected games. I have no way to check so there may be others. I'll always go first in a trade so you can make sure the key works for you before sending me any of yours.

Why?

A short while ago I had some spare keys from bundles that I couldn't find a trade for. The traders with the games I wanted already owned the games I had and the traders who wanted the games I had didn't have anything I'd want in return. I was thinking of giving up and giving away my keys but then I had an idea - If I was willing to accept any game in return, I could trade with those that wanted my games and break the trading deadlocks for the more common, lower value games. I could add the games I didn't want myself back onto the list and if I ended up with a load of rubbish that nobody wanted then I'd only lost what I was willing to give away anyway.
Even though re-trading is nothing new, removing personal interest and accepting a trade for any game makes trading much more accessible to others - especially those with only a few spare keys. The idea was popular and it gained momentum. I also received some generous donations and the list grew into what you see above. Even though I don't get much from it myself (I do keep the occasional game that catches my eye) I am happy that I can help others get games they can play in exchange for keys they have no use for. The community has really come through with honesty, helping to grow this into something worthwhile.
Thanks everyone!
My IGSRep Page.

Once hailed as epic warfare and thrilling encounters, the epic BG's in WoW have gradually lost their magic. These once captivating battlegrounds, which used to immerse players with their environments and intense battles have now fallen to a state of decline and rinse-repeat tactics and outcomes, leaving a sour taste in the mouth of any player loading into them.
In my post, I'll try to jump into some of my own reasons behind this decline and the loss of magic and fun that once defined epic BG's.

1. Imbalanced Gameplay/Snowballing: The big crucial part contributing to the loss of fun I've noticed in epic battlegrounds is the persistence and obvious ignorance regarding imbalanced gameplay. PvP battles should be challenging and competitive, creating an environment where players can showcase their abilities as teams or as a smaller group (Isle of Conquest is a better example for this, ever just camp oil rig all game with the homies and defend it like a badger in its den?). However, due to a various lack of countermeasures, teams will often decide the outcome of an epic BG with the initial zerg clash, making the experience frustrating and unfair for others knowing theirs likely no counterplay, morale is gutted and leavers apparent.
2. Innovation is Gonezo: Over the years, the battlegrounds have remained largely unchanged, there have been changes, numerous changes over the years in fact - But as an example AV is still a race to the enemy keep, Ashran is still a zerg clash at RoC and Wintergrasp is still a clash at SR, in terms of ends justifying the means - there has been no changes. With no substantial updates or new additions to breathe new life into battlegrounds this stagnation has led to a repetitive and monotonous gameplay experience that fails to excite veteran players and leaves new ones feeling underwhelmed.

Going forward I'd like to see changes in these battlegrounds, aimed at creating more smaller scale objectives that can affect the outcome, like the value of capping mines and killing drek returning to AV - Heck it, add even more content to these battlegrounds to meet these goals. Like the tower captains that run back to base, you could make those an active escort that provides a buff or additional reinforcements for the team when they make it back to Frostwolf/Stormpike keep alive, engaging features that make players feel like they added towards the teams win rather than being a faceless DPS or healer in a sea of impossible-to-make-out names coming together to form a zerg.
There was literally a point in every casual, competitive and semi-competitive PvPers relationship with WoW where they queue'd battlegrounds because they were FUN, no different to coming home from school and jumping into CoD/Tf2 lobbies until bed time.
The egregious state of epic battlegrounds in World of Warcraft showcases a missed opportunity to capitalize on their potential and provide players with an engaging and enjoyable PvP experience. The lack of innovation, imbalanced gameplay, reduced player engagement, and diminished social interaction have collectively stripped these battlegrounds of their magic and fun.
What universe is this where I'm more excited for IoC than AV. Thanks for coming to my TED rant.
P.S Add more crap to honor ranking, post Lvl250 you get something like every 50 honor levels it STINKS.