I'm going to get a lot of hate for this take but your tears sustain me. That said, let's try to keep the discussion open and respectful.
Here's my conundrum when it comes to Solomon's wisdom. It has more to do with how his wisdom was attained and its implications. Wisdom doesn't strike me as an attribute that can be given, like wealth. I could be wrong about that. Wisdom to me is created in its absence. The pain and problems we experience change our perspectives, behaviours, values and decisions, thus creating a wiser person. As far as I know, Solomon didn't experience the character arch that leads to wisdom. Wisdom was merely handed to him. And that leads to my question; was this wisdom or was this simply an abundance of knowledge?
Many of the stories used to vouch for Solomon's wisdom to me seem to be cases of him having vast knowledge, trickery, sometimes even just common sense. The areas where his wisom could and should have shone through but didn't are strangely ignored as well. A wise man would know that fornicating with thousands of women would have severe repercussions, let alone anger the god that has blessed you with all you have. A wise man would know that adopting the gods of your mistresses would have severe repercussions, let alone anger the god that has blessed you with all you have.
He's written books with a lot of wisdom, some books even with advise to young men teaching them how to relate with themselves and others but oddly enough even he didn't take his own advise. It's almost like he had God given knowledge, which explains how he knew all that he knew (which was a lot) but was somehow still lacking in wisdom, which explains the mistakes he made.
I'm not saying this to discredit the man. I have great respect for him. I'm just curious, was this knowledge or wisdom? If it was wisdom, what separates him from the likes of Christ, Budhaa, Krishna, heck even Tesla, to make him the wisest man to ever live? What to you was the one incident that proved Solomon's God given wisdom?

Author: Shibamura Yuri Publisher: Marvelous Games

Chapter 3 (English fan translation)

Chapter 3 (Original Japanese)

Synopsis
A web novel series meant for promoting the video game LOOP8: Summer of Gods.
In August 1983, Taichiro "Nini" Oyama, the sole survivor of a space station's destruction, arrives in the countryside town of Ashihara Nakatsu. Here, he expects to lead a peaceful life with his relatives and the other townspeople. The locals say there is nothing here, but that could not be further from the truth. The mountains, the sea, the old town, school friends, Earthling relatives, gravity -- all are new to him, as he has lived all his life up to now in space. What's more, he finds himself at the center of the battle against the Kegai, mythical monsters that destroyed his home and killed his family.
The first 14 chapters serve as a prequel to the game, depicting the main characters going about their lives -- some of them perfectly normal, others not quite so -- before Nini's arrival in town. The latter 13 chapters, taking place after Nini's arrival, expand on the relationships among characters and reveal more of their backstories.
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About the Character: Mai'el is an opportunistic succubus who believes she has found an exploitation in demonic law; There are no consequences to breaking the law! To collect as many followers and souls as she wants, she will use restricted techniques only allowed for special situations, including hypnosis. To ensure her plan works, she seeks out her favorite mortal man, saving him for a special occasion.
Before she tries hypnotizing him, she decides to indulge herself with some conversation and snuggling before consuming her favorite human's soul. It'll be the last chance she gets after all.
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Context: You lay comfortably in bed, deep asleep, until a chill runs up your spine. You wake to the feeling of being watched. To your horror, you can't command your body to move. Try as you might, you can only helplessly watch as an alluring form makes her way into the edge of your vision. With a devious smile, someone lays on top of you, eying you like her prey.
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[The sound of the succubus sneaking across the room before laying on top of the listener (floorboards creaking, bed springs squeaking, covers ruffling, etc.)]
Mai'el: "Hey there... You don't mind if I lay here, do you? [Giggle] Your... 'Cheeks' are telling me you don't mind, and your eyes are telling me you're not sure if you're dreaming. [Kiss] I'm very real, baby. Shhhh... Don't struggle. It'd be a waste of your attention. Your body is still asleep, but I left your head awake so you could keep me company."
[Listener: "What's happening?"]
Mai'el: "What's happening? I'm so glad you asked! I've been dying to share this with someone.
Have you heard of a 'sleep paralysis demon'? How about a succubus? We're both the same thing. [Sigh of comfort] Oo, you're so nice to snuggle up to! [Brief moment as she enjoys holding the listener] Normally we can only do our jobs as a sleep paralysis demon or a succubus, but not both. Nooo... That would be against the 'rules'. [Self-amused chuckling] But I think that's inefficient. We're born to take souls and spread our influence. But that takes so long if we go 'by the book'. First you weaken strong souls by scaring them with nightmares or paralyzing their body. Then you seduce their with 'good dreams', or with our unrivaled 'assets'. Then, when they're nice and obedient, you get them to submit their life to you, offering their service or their soul... But that doesn't always work. So souls become hard to come by all because some precious 'rules' need to be respected."
[Succubus takes a moment to give the listener affection (brushing their hair, pawing at them, kissing, stroking their face, et.)]
Mai'el: "Speaking of 'respect', you haven't interrupted me once! Oh, I knew you would be the right choice... [Seeing the surprise and confusion on his face] Yesss. I chose you! You're not some random prey. If I'm going to do this, I'm going to go for the mortal at the top of my list."
[Succubus gives a sigh as she admires the listener.]
Mai'el: [Suddenly remembering] "Oh right! Where was I? The rules, right? Well, we're all told that breaking the rules will corrupt our souls. [Annoyed] Corrupt. Demon souls. I swear I'm either the smartest one down there, or everyone else is too scared to realize you can't 'corrupt' a corrupted soul... [Calming down] Which bring me here to you, my flame.
I am going to bask in my genius with each mortal I dominate. I am going to gorge myself silly on the adoration and souls of more than I've seen in years, all in one evening!... But I'm skipping straight to dessert first. And don't you look tasty... [Affectionate sound of a kiss or lick]"
[The sound of fabric moving as the succubus sits up.]
Mai'el: [Moving her clothes with a giggle] "Sorry, baby. These clothes don't offer much room for pockets. I was pulling out this candle. Not the girls. Its for the hypnosis... Though I'm sure you'd pay close attention to me no matter what I pulled out of my top. [Playful laughter]"
[Listener: "Hypnosis? Don't I need to willingly make a deal?"]
Mai'el: "Hm? Well look at you! Not just a pretty face either. But I already knew that.
To answer your question, and happily spread out the details for you to take in; You're right. Demons aren't allowed to use hypnosis! Why?... [Playfully annoyed] Because the rules say so! [As if the listener agreed with her] I know! What a pain! And we've been doing this for thousands of years. Blindly!
[Letting of a content sigh] But we both know how I feel about the rules. But let me let you in on a fun little fact about hypnosis. You can't force someone to do something they wouldn't want to. Its just an encouraging nudge. And I know somewhere in you, you want to make me happy... [Becoming genuine] And I admit, this isn't how I wanted to win your favor. I didn't want your service, or your soul. I never did. That's why I've left you alone this whole time. I loved seeing you as you are. I loved feeling your passions and desires. I loved your ideals and mannerisms. I loved... [Conflicted, her voice gets caught in her throat before she can finish her sentence.]
[Regaining her composure] Which makes you the perfect person for me to try this out on.
Come, my flame. Let me light my candle for you. [The sound of her blowing gently and the candle igniting with a flame.] You can close your eyes if you want, but I just need your attention. I promise you I'm more interesting to look at than the backs of your eyelids."
Mai'el: [Beginning the hypnosis with a comforting or sultry tone] "Listen closely to my voice. Hear my words reach for you. They yearn for your embrace. Let my message take warm comfort in a place in your mind.
Feel my gaze touch you and explore you. It studies you closely like a treasure map, excited to find what lies beneath. Greedy for the valuables your conceal.
Let my presence into your heart, and surround my being with your love. Soothe my aching desires with your earnest aid. Hold me in your arms to cherish me, and to protect me.
I welcome your soul into me. Let it rest upon my chest, and feel a care and affection beyond your very imagination. Embolden yourself and unshackle your mind from what binds you to your plane. Let your spirit willingly find me, happy to serve. Eager to please. Truly devoted."
[The succubus takes a long deep breath, then blows out the candle.]
Mai'el: [Pleased and excited] "Well? How do you feel? Happier to be around me? Comforted by me presence? I know I feel better after that.
Is that what meditation is like?"
[Listener: "I don't think I feel any different."]
Mai'el: [Slightly disappointed] "Huh? Nothing?... Hm. Well, it's not supposed to make you a different person. It just stimulates what's already there, after all. [Flirty giggling] Did you enjoy me 'stimulating' you? [Kiss] I know I enjoyed myself." [Letting out a sound of delight as she snuggles with the listener.]
[Listener: "Does this mean I'm going to die?"]
Mai'el: [Surprised, concerned, and defensive] "What!? Are you going to die?! No! No, of course not, my flame! That was just hypnosis! I would never try to hurt you!... [Noticing something is off] I... I mean... Once you give me your soul you'll... Um... [Frustrated] Oh, by the nine Hells! What was I thinking?"
[Redirecting her attention back to the listener]
Mai'el: "You have to believe me. I would never try to hurt you!"
[The listener repeats what she said she would do.]
Mai'el: [Embarrassed] "Y-yes. I did say I would take your soul, among others, but- What is wrong with me? Why would I-? [Taking a deep breath to recompose herself] Because I can get around the rules. The value of a soul gives power in any Hell. Servants can help me get things done on the surface while I'm away... [Groaning] None of that seems worth it though. Not if it means hurting the one I love... [More serious upon remembering something] Wait... The rules. Corrupting a demon's soul. I tried to hypnotize you, but you seem unaffected. But I... What made sense to me mere minutes ago suddenly seems so... Wrong!"
Mai'el: [Returning her attention to the listener, nervous.] "Baby? Do I seem... Different to you?... No... I can see it in your eyes already. Something did change. Is this the corruption? Did I accidentally hypnotize myself? Wait! Why do I still have you paralyzed? I'm so sorry!" [The magic is quickly undone.]
Mai'el: "I'm just so confused, I... [Listener speaks to her] Wha-? N-no, I'm not in any pain. Why?... Huh? W-well, yes, I did say hypnosis can't force someone to do something against their will... No. I guess, either way, nothing bad happened. [Less nervous, and stunned by what she heard] Wait. What did you say? What do I want? I... Um... The souls, so I could... [Regret in her voice] I wanted the souls so I could be happy... ... [Soft chuckle] Um... Yeah. I guess even before this happened, I was very happy. [Sweetly] I was finally with you after all... Yeah, I guess I still am, aren't I?... [Alarmed] Stay with you?! I can't do that! Why would you want that after what I tried to do to you?... ... Tch! I suppose you make a good point. If I wanted to hurt you, I wouldn't have unbound you. [Sigh] If I wanted to hurt you, I wouldn't have bothered talking to you in the first place. I would have just tried hypnotizing you... OK, that's true. I was going to hurt you after I hypnotized you, but I wanted to spend time with you first... But I still can't stay with you. I'm sorry. Nothing would make me happier than that right now, but its against the rules to form romantic relationships with morta- Oh, by the nine hells! Why am I such an idiot? I have to be the stupidest one down there!... Hey! Don't laugh! [Failing at trying to be mad] Its not funny! I- Yes, the rules have been in place for thousands of years! Demons don't have the vision that humans do, OK? We're pretty bad at planning ahead. [Laughing]"
Mai'el: [After enjoying a good laugh, she recollects herself] "Are you sure you want this? You know this could be a trick, right? We're pretty good at tricking people... Ugh! We're bad at planning ahead, but we're not that bad! We do a lot of planning on the fly... I mean it; Are you sure?... [Shocked] I what?! How did you know I love you though?... Be-besides just now... When I said I couldn't hurt the one I love. Wow. I didn't even think about what I was saying.
[A sigh of relief and joy] Yeah... I've been crushing on you for a while now. In Hell I can even hear your thoughts, so I got to know who the real you is too... You perv. [Laughing] I'm sorry! I'm a succubus, baby! But I really do find all of your desires and passions attractive. Not just those kind."
Mai'el: [Softly] "Hey. Kind of like that. Yeah. It doesn't take powers to see you're still tired. I kind of woke you up pretty rudely... If... If you want, I could keep you company. I want to stay, but I need to go back eventually. Not for long though. Before that, can- With your permission this time, can I snuggle up with you for the night?... Yeah? Thank you so m- [Succubus is kissed]"
Mai'el: "O-oh! [Giggle] Thank you... Hm? My name? Of course I don't mind. I just didn't realize I didn't tell you yet. It's Mai'el. Kind of like, 'its not your L, its my L'. You can call me Mai, if you'd like though! [Soft giggle] You look so sleepy. [Both lay down together, ushering Mai'el into a peaceful state.] I wanted you to hold me in your arms like this earlier... I didn't think I'd be able to do this. I'm glad this happened though... Thank you, my flame. Sleep well..."

Hey. We have been unable to find a server we really enjoy. We are looking for:

• 40ish population, not too little but not just a PvP death match.
• Not overly mil/loot everywhere
• base building
• Events like like KOTH etc, things that bring people together

We seem to only find full crazy PVP servers will guns everwhere or vanilla servers with no events on. We have all played since A2 dayz/epoch/overwatch. We like the survival aspect with objectives to do with the threat of other plays. Salvation city, A2 etc etc <3
Loved the last stand server but got kinda boring without events.
Anyone know of any?

I’ve thought about this quite a bit over the last few years. We all get to see how the prison works & functions at its peak during seasons 3-4 of TWD right. They have what, all together I’d say like 20-50 people at its peak (a complete guess idk the actual numbers). & the amount of people they have at its peak takes up like what 2 wings of the prison comfortably I’d say give or take with space not every cell being used. So lemme add some imagination into this post rq lol.
Imagine the exact prison but with close to maximum amount of survivors that could fit with wiggle room like not overwhelming amount but a good solid close amount to full capacity, all working in unison with each other to survive like
Complete outer surveillance & protection:
Multiple outer guard posts with multiple people manning them in interval, shifts 24 hours, seven days a week, in 2 different ways one obviously the outermost gates & perimeter of the prison & ones (fewer then the ones directly on the outermost gates but not none) a hundred or so feet from the outermost gates maybe like one south west east & north
Inner surveillance & protection:
Guard towers manned with multiple people 24 hours 7 days a week with multiple people patrolling the inners of the entire perimeter day & night
Cell Blocks:
The cell blocks & sleeping quarters have structure & order, not like an actual jail where everything is forced with no questions asked but stuff has some sort or order rather then complete randomness & no organization
Almost kinda like the sanctuary where people have certain jobs & duties but in a more ordered & non make up my own rules way
I can go on for a while about certain things with specific intricate details but you get the point lol
I feel like something like that not only would it be kinda practical irl to a certain degree but I could literally see that being it’s own show like with internal conflicts & drama & surviving stuff

Hey, I know it's been a couple months since things between us officially ended but I felt it was necessary to tell you this now that I've had a bit of time and space to reflect and begin therapy. I wanted to tell you thank you for our time together and also for affording me the time and space to heal from the break up. Thinking of you no longer hurts and I'm glad that I only think of the good times instead of that last month.
To be honest with you, I, too, was mentally checked out in that final month but I figured that if I toughed it out things would magically solve themselves but that was my optimism and naivety speaking. In that same vein, I would like to apologize for our timing and my immaturity. I was immature and insecure and somehow both smothered and neglected you due to frustrations stemming from the downswing of what we had and my personal life. To that end I'm working on how to maintain a better work-life balance so that I won't become that person again.
I'd also like to thank you for mutually agreeing to pull the plug on the whole thing. I truly will never know if timing was your only issue in ending the whole thing but with perspective I definitely believe it was the underlying cause for me. I was so wrapped up with work and studying to the point where I couldn't give my all to you which I deeply regret. But, as I said, it was a good call to make. If there was a hall of fame for bad timing I really do think we would have made it in. With all of the instances in which we both just missed each other, both of us adjusting to our new lives, and the difficulty of trying to fit a square peg into the round hole that was our schedules, I think it was too much to handle. Plus, in about two months I'll be in another country advocating for financial aid from our sister city and I genuinely think we would have resented one another if the relationship continued. So I'll always be grateful for your foresight and maturity in that regard.
I'd love to grab boba and properly catch up either before or after my overseas business trip, however regardless of your answer I'll respect it. I don't want to get back together because the timing is still off and if we were to ever try again I want to give us a proper shot, but so many things would have to go right that it's a pipe dream. So in the interim I'd love to be friendly towards one another. I'd like to clarify that I'm over what we had because it didn't serve either of us anymore but I hope when you think of me you still remember the "sweetest guy" that you happened to cross paths with and would be open to a new beginning in time no matter what shape the new beginning takes. As always, I wish you the best and I know as long as you listen to your heart you'll do amazing in life.
If it means anything, I think you're the sweetest girl I've ever met too.
-T

I (f18) have a bf (m19) he’s a pre-med student. We started dating in high school senior year and I know this was not the best idea as we are in different universities. And we also have different career goals. I knew this wouldn’t be easy but we decided to stay together because we want each other in our futures. We understand each other, and we both had clear goals. That being said things have been rocky, we made a year in January. We have a great relationship and we thrive when it’s just us two. But then school and the small amount of time we see eachother get in the way. When we’re in person our connection is there but when we don’t see eachother in a while things start to go off. And when it’s time for his finals week he starts acting different and says hurtful things. And It leads to arguments and he says things how I always argue on his finals week and don’t let him study. I try very hard to ignore his behavior during this time but it doesn’t seem fair for me to keep my feelings in and let him treat me this way when I try to give him all the help I can give. I know he has a lot of pressure and finals are very important and how school is more of a priority for him rn. But some things he says hurt a lot, he doesn’t apologize about them and I have talked to him countless times about it. It seems he doesn’t understand me and says I always bring up stuff and argue. I try giving him what he asks for like space. It just seems like it doesn’t matter what I do he blames me for the problems in our relationship. I try to communicate and talk to him about issues but it always seems to lead to big arguments. and I’m asking if you all think we should stay together, if there’s a chance for us to work. If i should keep pushing through and putting more effort into this relationship. I know many of you are married to people in the medical field and is it possible to last? All this time? From university to medical school to residency? I know we’re young and I just want a realistic answer if I should keep trying to make this work or just let him focus on his goals?

Context: 76 days NC, a year-long relationship (as in "two people see each other often and communicate a lot") half of which was a situationship with an attempt of "Relationship" which lasted about two months. (Writing it out made me realize how utterly complicated that was).
So, I just want to say, that now, when I'm nearing 11 weeks past BU it seems to get better. My heart doesn't feel as heavy and my overall condition improved. Aside from time doing its thing, here is what I have done in no particular order:

• Exercise. Some people say to exercise like a demon. I guess there's some merit to it, but I had no time, no desire, no money and no opportunity to get into gym obsession. I just downloaded a free exercise app for men and stuck to it (15 minutes a day, every day for 37 days with exceptions on ones when app tells me to rest). Combined with lessened food and alcohol intake it helped me to improve my looks enough for me to notice, I feel stronger and physically more capable.
• Walking. My job makes it easy to walk 10000 steps a day and, when I have the time on my days off, I try to walk as much. Walking in nature is cool, especially now, when it's finally summer.
• Reading. Both fiction and non-fiction helped me to take my mind off BU. Non-fiction strengthens the mind, fiction heals the heart. And I just love reading, so it also helped me relax.
• Meditation. 50 days straight. Improved my ability to just be. I actually can focus on something other than my thoughts and feelings for quite some time now.
• Talking to friends. Can't stress this enough: having someone to share your thoughts and feelings with is tremendously helpful. Don't play it cool, don't feel ashamed - just talk to someone who cares. For me, it isn't even as much about looking for advice or something, letting someone in on my pain helps as is.
• Doing chores and "keeping it together". That is a tough one - my mind is occupied by thoughts, and it takes effort to return to day-to-day things. But having a paycheck, clean clothes and a clean apartment is totally worth it.
• Allowing my self to think and feel whatever. Is it sadness? Get in. Anger? Sure. Do I miss her? Okay. Am I hurt? Welcome. Am I hopeful? Great, let me experience it. One step at a time, may whatever come - I'll be there for myself. I'm in control, and none of my feelings and urges warrant necessity of any kind of action. (Guess meditation really helped with that).
• Some therapy. Sadly, due to my financial struggles I can't afford counseling every week or, to be fair, on any consistent basis. It'll change for the better in a couple of weeks, though. Anyway, those hours I had were tremendously helpful. My mind was and kind of is a mess, so having someone else's mind to help mine to get mended back together is extremely useful.
• Some journaling. Classical one, greatfulness and letters never send.
• Writing poetry. Having a creative outlet is helpful.
• Partying every once in a while. We all need to relax some times.
• Thinking in general. I know that a lot of us struggle with ruminating and "what if" kinds of thoughts, but they are there for a reason: as messy is it is, your mind is trying to make sense of the situation and, while there's a lot of "useless" chaff, some of it actually adapts whole of you to a new post BU reality. For me, anyway, it did.
• Taking responsibility and forgiving myself. There was a lot of things I could have done differently. There's a lot of things I could have communicate better. There's a lot of choices I've made that were based only on a part of myself and not the whole of me. There was a lot of doubts I could've voiced. A lot of anger pent up. A lot of withholding on my part. I'm sorry, but I had my reasons, and did my best at the time. Next time when life will turn its ugly side on me I'll be that bit more prepared.
• Reading this sub. It helps to see that I'm not the only one struggling.

By no means, I'm over it: any accidental reminder of her leads to feelings of pretty extreme anxiety. I guess I'll keep eliminating those and keep reframing my memories so it no longer hurts.
I suppose, your mileage may vary, but to anyone who's not eleven weeks in yet: it just might get better a little bit this soon.
Thank you and carry on! We got what it takes!

Today he was letting me know of his plans to buy a house for rental since he said his money will not grow in a bank anyways and later on in the future we can buy a house together. He is scheduling a mortgage appointment soon, he is planning to do a 50k down payment if he is proceeding to buy one. He started talking about renovations we can do etc, so adorable honestly. However I just graduated uni and I have been unemployed, looking for a job for 2 months now. He is understanding of my situation and is not pressuring me at all. But damn I’m feeling the pressure a little or maybe a lot😂 He always asks for my opinion and even runs his decisions through me, like my love I don’t even have 1k to my name right now. I’m not at the same tax bracket as him lols.

Not to alarm any of you, but I (22M) feel like I’m losing touch of reality. For the past three years, I’ve been through multiple existential conflicts. Losing my sense of identity. Am I really ugly or am I good looking? Am I a piece of shit or a decent human being? I have no personality. By 2020, I began feeling like a blank check. I carry a name but lacking some value. There’s no depth to me so I just try to mimic traits and motivations from characters that I see from TV and stories. Along with constantly daydreaming about being somebody of prestige, charisma and bad-assery. Which I in fact, have been doing ever since I was 15. I just never realized it until now! However, it seemed to be working because people liked me. More people than usual. Seriously, I believed that I was a total badass lol. That is until, I REALLY fucked up many quality relationships. I became toxic and beat myself into suicidal ideation. I learned to mostly forgive myself though and told myself that I’m never going to be that guy again!
So now, here I am, completely lost! The persona that you see of this taciturn and brooding man. It’s a defensive mechanism. On the inside, I simply just don’t know who I am, and if I did, I wouldn’t know how to express it. I couldn't list my personality traits if I tried. However, what I do know is…
I naturally have a strong sense of empathy and an inclination to assist others who are in bad situations. Which is why I want to go into the clinical psychology field.
My sense of humor is used as a crutch due to my lack of attractive or interpersonal qualities. It’s my only method of connecting with people and its very surface-level. Which sucks even worse because I've been taking myself out of my comfort zone much more recently.
Lastly, I have many hobbies and interests but, what the hell can you learn about me about that shit?
That’s it!! No wonder most of my friendships are surface level. I wish that I was confident and live in the moment! But what is there to be confident about?? I have no achievements to my name. Hell, I can’t even go back to university because my advisor screwed me over. All of these just feeds into my fear of being forgotten as well. My uni is always screwing me over, I've never had an official GF, I'm unequipped at growing my friendships and with all of my dedication and knowledge, my health is still not where I want it to be. All of my friends are doing better than me and even though I'm proud, I feel as if I'm not doing enough. If I can’t even remember who I am or leave positive impacts out there, then what am I living for? Therapy sounds necessary but it's SO DAMN EXPENSIVE!! It doesn't make any sense smh. Getting it all together is what I want, but I just don't know where to start.

I just wanted to say my experience watching her and my opinion about her. I started watching her on PleasantSims since I'm a very big fan of Sims 2, and I genuinely loved her channel. She was funny and sorta inspiring for me, because of her I got into rotational gameplay and played for weeks, months without stop. I supported her all the time, when she took breaks because of mental health and had no problem with it. Then she quit PleasantSims and started her other channel Life Plus Cindy. I wasn't really interested in that so I decided not to watch it. Earlier this year after getting to know she lost her baby and also her husband left her, I felt extreme amount of sadness for her, I really wanted to watch her and hope that she'll get better. I even watched her previous vlogs and she inspired me with those. Watching her struggle and trying to move one made me feel better because I also had a lot of fights with my boyfriend that time. When she first got back with him, I was actually supportive and thought it was okay because I didn't know the background of their relationship. After the second "break-up" I started watching her again, thought what Andrew did was horrible and she really shouldn't go back to him. I mean the man cheated on her MULTIPLE TIMES and kept it a secret, he gave her false hope of getting back together again just to crush her heart again and didn't even contact her. Of course, Cindy herself is nowhere near innocent, her BPD caused a lot of troubles in the relationship and what she did was also horrible, but cheating is way worse. They both are unhealthy and really should work on themselves. I was still hopeful about Cindy and her healing watching her vlogs and live streams. I'm aware of her "racist remarks" in one video what I've seen and I don't support that behaviour but I let it slide because they could have just been fooling around stupidly without giving a care (although her response for criticism could have been a lot better). Then here comes her last video where she went back to Andrew. This was literally 10 to a 1000 without anyone expecting it and it also surprised me. The entire video felt ...off. She looked like she was on drugs, sleepless, unhappy and unhealthy over the obsession of Andrew. He looked uncomfortable in the video as well. Not giving a crap about her self-respect, her subscribers and her life she made a choice just like a teenager and went back to her cheating husband. I don't hate her for it but she definitely disappointed me and a lot of her supporters with that video. It's a big fuck you that you believed in me lol. I really hope she actually gets better for real and focuses on herself she needs a LOT to work on.

I used to have a crush on this coworker of mine. We worked together for a year until I changed jobs. I tried to keep in touch after moving but it seemed 1 sided so we slowly lost touch.
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Some beautiful moments we share,

1. One time I had a difficult conversation with a director and she really comforted me.
2. We used to have a lot of fun pranking each other and we used to have nice conversations about personal lives and goals during breaks.
3. Sometimes we used to have small fights and others teased us saying we banter like couples.
4. We moved offices and she found a desk next to me.
5. She used to wear different color lenses and I would get lost in her eyes while conversing and she would reciprocate too!
6. She would look at me all the time to laugh irrespective of who made the joke. And had that lingering eye contact
7. Once during a conversation, I brought up a funny story about the girl I was seeing. And immediately the next day she mentioned a funny story about her date too. (this was the only time we talked about dating life). Other than the time she mentioned she was single out of context in one on one conversation.
8. I am very confident we were work couples kinda. Others teased us too.
9. Our birthdays were just a couple of weeks apart. Felt destined.

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It's been 3 years since we last spoke. Back then it didn't feel like much but now I often think about her even after having dated others. But we are in different countries now. So I am certain nothing will come out of it if I approach her.
A Gentle reminder to all out there! Act on your crushes asap. Obviously in a good way and not in a creepy way.

I'm a middle aged man and have a circle of close male friends who I have known since early childhood (we all lived within 100 meters of each other). Everyone grew up, got married and had kids (bar my wife and I).
The problem (for me anyway) is that whenever we are together all my friends talk about is football, something which, like all sports, I have no interest in. One guy in particular who is a real attention seeker and loves to dominate the conversation is completely obsessed with it, which he'll tell you himself (he's a Man U fan).
If there is any sort of match on I can often look at our Whatsapp group and find that there have been fifty or sixty posts missed in the space of 10 minutes. I get that not everybodies into the same thing and people are perfectly entitled to be into football but the whole conversation around it is so repetitive and meaningless - our Whatsapp is constantly just "oh, "you're" going to get hammered tomorrow", "well come back to me when "you" have won X amount of cups" and variations on that theme. Then the next year it starts all over again.
My friends are my friends but I often feel that I have little to nothing in common with them and also, apart from football that they have might have nothing in common with each other.
Is anyone else in this position?

I’m 20 years old, and just broke up with the first girlfriend I’d ever had. She was kind, sweet, and loving, always respectful of my boundaries, always caring and comforting, and I was the same to her. She’s had seven boyfriends in the past, but always broke up with every single one of them. She’d never been in love, and I was her first, just as she was mine.
Our relationship was long distance. I was naive and thought we could make it work, but even while we were together, I made her cry every night. Our one hope was that she could move near me, and it was an actually feasible hope— her sister was looking for houses within an hour of my house, and we might’ve been able to make it all work out.
A few weeks ago, she told me that her sister was also looking for houses near her place, and she wasn’t sure if they were going to move. The plans I have for my future make it so it’d take around five years to have a feasible chance to move in with her and start a life together for real. I’m not rich by any sense, and visiting her temporarily would be infrequent, and leave her broken each time I’d leave.
And just tonight, she told me that her sister was confirmed to be looking for a home near their place. I talked to her about how we could make the distance work, but it was all too bleak. I know just how much she cried and suffered each night with me being away. I wasn’t going to put her through five years of pain for something that had a high chance of crumbling before the end. So I decided to end it early, before I hurt her more than I already had.
It hurts. I threw up. She did too. She begged me not to leave her, and I did. If I stayed with her, I’d hurt her. If I broke up with her, I’d hurt her. Deciding that we wouldn’t work out is selfish of me. Deciding to keep her to myself even when she’d get burned in the process would also be selfish of me.
No matter what I do, everything is going to hurt.
Sometimes I wonder if it was even worth asking her out to begin with. I gave her all the love I could, and she reciprocated. Neither of us wanted to end it. If I hadn’t asked her out, things wouldn’t have hurt for either for us.
But I don’t regret it. I don’t regret giving her my heart, I don’t regret spending time with her. I don’t regret getting to know her family, or staying up late nights talking, or comforting her when she was having a hard day. I don’t regret being there for her, and I wouldn’t have changed a thing.
I just wish I had more relationship experience. Maybe this all could’ve been avoided somehow, and we could’ve had a happy ending. But instead, I’ll cry into my pillow, as I’m writing her one final poem.
I love you, Sadie. Forever and always. Goodbye
TLDR: I broke off a long distance relationship with the girl I love with all my heart because I refuse to drag her along and hurt her more than I have to.

Not to alarm any of you, but I (22M) feel like I’m losing touch of reality. For the past three years, I’ve been through multiple existential conflicts. Losing my sense of identity. Am I really ugly or am I good looking? Am I a piece of shit or a decent human being? I have no personality. By 2020, I began feeling like a blank check. I carry a name but lacking some value. There’s no depth to me so I just try to mimic traits and motivations from characters that I see from TV and stories. Along with constantly daydreaming about being somebody of prestige, charisma and bad-assery. Which I in fact, have been doing ever since I was 15. I just never realized it until now! However, it seemed to be working because people liked me. More people than usual. Seriously, I believed that I was a total badass lol. That is until, I REALLY fucked up many quality relationships. I became toxic and beat myself into suicidal ideation. I learned to mostly forgive myself though and told myself that I’m never going to be that guy again!
So now, here I am, completely lost! The persona that you see of this taciturn and brooding man. It’s a defensive mechanism. On the inside, I simply just don’t know who I am, and if I did, I wouldn’t know how to express it. I couldn't list my personality traits if I tried. However, what I do know is…
I naturally have a strong sense of empathy and an inclination to assist others who are in bad situations. Which is why I want to go into the clinical psychology field.
My sense of humor is used as a crutch due to my lack of attractive or interpersonal qualities. It’s my only method of connecting with people and its very surface-level. Which sucks even worse because I've been taking myself out of my comfort zone much more recently.
Lastly, I have many hobbies and interests but, what the hell can you learn about me about that shit?
That’s it!! No wonder most of my friendships are surface level. I wish that I was confident and live in the moment! But what is there to be confident about?? I have no achievements to my name. Hell, I can’t even go back to university because my advisor screwed me over. All of these just feeds into my fear of being forgotten as well. My uni is always screwing me over, I've never had an official GF, I'm unequipped at growing my friendships and with all of my dedication and knowledge, my health is still not where I want it to be. All of my friends are doing better than me and even though I'm proud, I feel as if I'm not doing enough. If I can’t even remember who I am or leave positive impacts out there, then what am I living for? Therapy sounds necessary but it's SO DAMN EXPENSIVE!! It doesn't make any sense smh. Getting it all together is what I want, but I just don't know where to start.

I (F33) love my partner (M44) and he’s accepted me and my 3 kids in a very caring way but I am unsure if I’ve overlooked the importance of certain issues and would like to know if any of them are correctable so that we might move forward to marriage.
My partner and I made our relationship official over a year ago. I could tell he was very much into his work and used to living his bachelor lifestyle. We dated, developed strong feelings for one another and got serious, he met my kids, we talked future.
Everything was great although there was stress because he stepped up to fill his manager’s (we’ll call him Sam) role as a way to expedite his career advancement-advice from Sam’s boss (we’ll call her Trish). On rare occasion he was a bit flakey -making plans and then not following through or forgetting- but we talked about it and it seemed to improve. After months of dedication he was not offered the job by Trish who said her hands were tied.
Trish and Sam both followed a mutual colleague to another company and soon my partner followed. We went long distance at this point but he instantly became consumed with work. Sam eventually started having issues at work with people not liking the way he did things and my partner stepped in to help.
Soon, Sam went on various trips and medical leave and my partner was directed by Trish (Sam’s boss at this company too) to fill the role as a way to expedite his career advancement. My partner did this for months and it weighed on our relationship. We planned for me to move closer to him with my kids and join the company as well. Trish then advised against me joining so it suddenly was no longer on the table in his eyes. I found a good paying job at a different company down the street and my kids and I moved into our own place, closer to him in this other state. It took about 6 months but we finally got settled in and I told him I was done moving and wanted to set down roots here. Our plan was to finish out our leases and then get married and all live together.
The flakiness returned in multiple ways this time: through being unable to follow plans because work got in the way, not being present (on company phone or talking calls), to saying he was staying late at work when in reality he had a networking dinner to go to and tried to omit it not knowing a mutual friend had mentioned it to me. The relationship issues caused by work continued to the point where I would cry regularly about his priorities, him not showing up for us in various ways and our my concerns for our future.
He continues to give this role all he’s got for more months, saying that focusing on his career now will pay dividends. In the meantime I start to notice his bad habits increase in frequency; nose picking, poor dental hygiene, not taking showers at night, skipping meals while at work, speaking badly about people because Trish thought it was funny and being dismissive of the issues I’d bring up to work through.
When it came time, Trish again had her hands tied and my partner did not get the role. Now he is sad, crying, feeling let down and overlooked. He seems to be expressing some of the same hurts through all this that I had when talking to him about how he put work above our relationship. I’m sad to see him like this but I do want to help him.
At this point Trish gave someone else the job and spoke to my partner about other roles like this one at sites that are in other states. I told him I felt I could never sacrifice enough for him and his career, reminded him that I also have ambitions and wasn’t sure he’d do the same for me and said I did not support another move.
He was upset and feeling unsure of what his next steps could be but then asked me how I felt about him asking Trish for a corporate role where he might travel two weeks of each month and not be connected to a specific location along with having more separation between work and home. I reminded him that we spoke about having children and of my expectation that someone would be in the trenches with me on the daily.
I don’t care about work or our income more than our family life and I feel like I need him to lead whatever family we are going to have with those same values. I don’t want to turn away from him but I don’t know if I see the same future we spoke about or even one where I would have a husband who puts me ahead of himself the way that I do or father who is there for his children at the end of the day.
How can I help him? How can our relationship progress/survive?
TL;DR Partner puts work first. Correctable? Do we still have a future?