Good morning friday blessings

Than waking up in the morning, knowing you haven't put your life in danger from the night before. You didn't spend wrecklessly, didn't harm others, and you have your keys, phone, wallet all in tact. You look around your home and feel content that you made a good choice to stay sober.
I'm grateful everyday that I am given the opportunity to give praise to God for quiet and simpler times.

The final scenes of earth history! The last days are NOT sometime in the future that we are waiting to experience, the "last days" are now. Don't wait for the Sunday law to dedicate your life back to God. It is wonderful that God gives us such intricate teachings and counsels to guide us through each day so that we won't be afraid of the signs and wonders that we have seen, that we see, and that we will see.
Prophecy is given by God to prepare us, not to scare us.
I pray these words will be encouraging to you in your walk with God today.
You can find the first four parts on my profile.
Thank you for your time and patience in reading these posts.
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THE LATTER RAIN
GC 445 “When the leading churches of the United States, uniting upon such points of doctrine as are held by them in common, shall influence the state to enforce their decrees and to sustain their institutions, then Protestant America will have formed an image of the Roman hierarchy, and the infliction of civil penalties upon dissenters will inevitably result.”
GC 449 “But Christians of past generations observed the Sunday, supposing that in doing so they were keeping the Bible Sabbath; and there are now true Christians in every church, not expecting the Roman Catholic communion, who honestly believe that Sunday is the Sabbath of divine appointment. God accepts their sincerity of purpose and their integrity before Him. But when Sunday observance shall be enforced by law, and the world shall be enlightened concerning the obligation of the true Sabbath, then whoever shall transgress the command of God, to obey a precept which has no higher authority than that of Rome, will thereby honor popery above God. He is paying homage to Rome, and to the power which enforces the institution ordained by Rome. He is worshipping the beast and his image. As men then reject the institution which God had declared to be the sign of His authority, and honor in its stead that which Rome has chosen as the token of her supremacy, they will thereby accept the sign of allegiance to Rome—‘ the mark of the beast.’ And it is not until the issue is thus plainly set before the people, and they are brought to choose between the commandments of God and the commandments of men, that those who continue in transgression will receive ‘the mark of the beast.’ “
5T 451 “When Protestantism shall stretch her hand across the gulf to grasp the hand of the Roman power, when she shall reach over the abyss to clasp hands with spiritualism, when under the influence of this threefold union, our country shall repudiate every principle of its Constitution as a Protestant and Republican government, and shall make provision for the propagation of papal falsehoods and delusions, then we may know that the time has come for the marvelous working of Satan and that the end is near.”
GC 449 “…the enforcement of Sunday-keeping in the United States would be an enforcement of the worship of the beast and his image.”
This will mark the fall of Babylon.
This is the real issue.
God’s only answer to the worship of the Beast and his image is the image of God restored in the soul and reflected in the life.
The time of the test is fast approaching. We must prepare now.
7T 141 “The substitution of the laws of men for the law of God, the exaltation, by merely human authority, of Sunday in place of the Bible Sabbath, is the last act in the drama.”
RH May 2, 1893 “The people of the United States have been a favored people; but when they restrict religious liberty, surrender Protestantism, and give countenance to popery, the measure of their guilt will be full, and national apostasy will be registered in the books of Heaven. The result of this apostasy will be national ruin.:
6T 18 “As America, the land of religious liberty, shall unite with the papacy in forcing the conscience and compelling men to honor the false sabbath, the people on every country of the globe will be led to follow her example.”
6T 395 “Foreign nations will follow the example of the United States. Though she leads out, yet the same crisis will come upon our people in all parts of the world.”
GC 591 “Communications from the spirits will declare that God has sent them to convince the rejecters of Sunday of their error, affirming that the laws of the land should be obeyed as the law of God. They will lament the great wickedness in the world and second testimony of religious teachers, that the degraded state of morals is caused by the desecration of Sunday. Great will by the indignation excited abasing all who refuse to accept their testimony.
GC 607 “The church appeals to the strong arm of civil power, and in this work, papists and Protestants unite. As the movement for the Sunday enforcement becomes more bold and decided, the law will be invoked against commandment keepers. They will be threatened with fines and imprisonment, and some will be offered positions of influence, and other rewards and advantages, as inducements to renounce their faith.”
The Great Test
2SM 268 “When the law of God is made void, the church will be sifted by fiery trials, and a larger portion than we now anticipate, will give heed to seducing spirits and doctrines of devils.”
5T 717 “My brethren, do you realize that your own salvation, as well as the destiny of other souls, depends upon the preparation you now make for the trials before us.
(Review DA 107 last paragraph: DA 173 first paragraph; and Romans 8:14).
7BC 976 “The Lord has shown me clearly that the image of the beast will be formed before probation closes; for it is to be the great test for the people of God, by which their eternal destiny will be decided.”
GC 608 “As the storm approaches, a large class who have professed faith in the third angel’s message, but have not been sanctified through obedience to the truth, abandon their position and join the ranks of the opposition.”
This may be the time that Satan will personate Christ. Read GC 622-625.
2SM 51 “We are warned that in the last days he (Satan) will work with signs and lying wonder, And he will continue those wonders until the close of probation, that he may point to them as evidence that he is an angel of light and not of darkness.”
5T 81 “In this time, the gold will be separated from the dross in the church. True godliness will be clearly distinguished from the appearance and tinsel of it. Many a star that we have admired for its brilliancy will the go out in darkness.”
DA 630 “Those who apostatize in the time of trial will, to secure their own safety, bear false witness, and betray their brethren. Christ has warned us of this, that we may not be surprised art the unnatural, coral course of those who reject the light.”
The Latter Rain and the Loud Cry
GC 464 “Before the final visitation of God’s judgments upon the earth there will be among the people of the Lord such a revival of primitive godliness as has not been witnessed since apostolic times. The Spirit and power of God will be poured out upon His children.”
EW 85, 86 “At the commencement of the times of trouble, we were filled with the Holy Ghost as we went forth and proclaimed the Sabbath more fully ….
“ ‘The commencement of the time of trouble’ here mentioned, does not refer to the time when the plagues shall begin to be poured out, but to a short period just before they are poured out, while Christ is in the sanctuary. At that time while the work of salvation is closing, trouble will be coming on the earth, and the nations will be angry, yet held in check so as not to prevent the work of the third angel. At that time the ‘latter rain,’ or refreshing form the presence of the Lord will come, to give power to the loud voice pop the third angel, and prepare the saints to stand in the period when the seven last plagues shall be poured out.”
6T 401 “…when the storm of persecution really breaks upon us, the true sheep will hear the true Shepherd’s voice. Self-denying efforts will be put forth to save the lost, and many who have strayed from the fold will come back to follow the great Shepherd….
The love of Christ, the love of our brethren, will testify to the world that we have been with Jesus and learned of Him. Then will the message of the third angel swell to a loud cry, and the whole earth will be lightened with the glory of the Lord.”
EW 227-279 “I saw a great light resting upon them, and they united to fearlessly proclaim the third angel’s message….
“The glory rested upon the patient, waiting saints, and they fearlessly gave the last solemn warning, proclaiming the fall of Babylon and calling upon God’s people to come out of her that they might escape her fearful doom….
“Servants of God, endowed with power from on high, with their faces lighted up, and shining with holy consecration, went forth to proclaim the message from heaven. Souls that were scattered all through the religious bodies answered to the call, and the precious were hurried out of the doomed churches, as Lot was hurried outSodom before her destruction.”
Read Great Controversy page 612.
GC 606 “Thus the message of the third angel will be proclaimed. As the time comes for it to be given with the greatest power, the Lord will work through humble instruments, leading the minds of those who consecrate themselves to His service. The laborers will be qualified rather by the unction of His Spirit than by the training of literary institutions. Men of faith and prayer will be constrained to go forth with holy zeal, declaring the words which God gives them. The sins of Babylon will be laid open. The fearful results of enforcing the observances of the church by civil authority, the inroads of spiritualism, the stealthy but rapid progress of the papal power, —all will be unmasked. Thousands upon thousands will listen who have never heard words like these.”
8T 20 “So mightily can God work when men give themselves up to the control of His Spirit.”
This is the time when the work of the church will be finished in a blaze of glory that shall enlighten the whole world!
5T 754 “…the swiftness of lightning represents the speed with which this work will finally go forward to completion.”
9T 96 “There will be a series of events revealing that God is master of the situation.”
Romans 9:28 “For he will finish the work in righteousness: because s short work will the Lord make upon the earth.”
6T 19 “The message of Christ’s righteousness is to sound from one end of the earth to the other to prepare the way of the Lord. This is the glory of God, which closes the work of the third angel.”
MB 43 (70) “The words of Christ through the gospel prophet, which are reechoed in the Sermon on the Mount, are for us in this last generation: “Arise, shine, for thy light is come, and the glory of the Lord is risen upon thee.’ (Isaiah 60:1)….if you have beheld His beauty who is the ‘chiefest among ten thousand’ and the One ‘altogether lovely,’ if your soul has become radiant in the presence of His glory, to you is this word from the Master sent.”
COL 415 “Into the darkness of the world is to be shed the light of His glory, the light of His goodness, mercy, and truth.”
EW 279 “I was pointed down to the time when the third angel’s message was closing. The power of God had rested upon Hi people; they had accomplished their work and were prepared for the trying hour before them. They had received the latter rain, or refreshing from the presence of the Lord, and the living testimony had been revived. The last great warning had sounded everywhere, and it had stirred up and enraged the inhabitants of the earth who would not receive the message.
TM 445 “Those who overcome the world, the flesh, and the devil, will be the favored ones who shall receive the seal of the living God.”
7BC 968 “Just before we entered it (the time of trouble), we all received the seal of the living God. Then I saw the four angels cease to hold the four winds. And I saw famine, pestilence and sword, nation rose against nation, and the whole world was in confusion.”
GC 613 “/../.the final test has been brought upon the world, and all who have proved themselves loyal to the divine precepts have received the ‘seal of the living God.’ Then Jesus ceases His intercession in the sanctuary above.”
The Close of Probation
EW 279-281 “I saw angels hurrying to and fro in heaven. An angel with a writer’s inkhorn by his side returned from the earth and reported to Jesus that his work was done, and the saints were numbered and sealed. Then I saw Jesus, who had been ministering before the ark containing the ten commandments, throw down the censer. He raised His hands, and with a loud voice said, ‘It is done.’ And all the angelic host laid off their crowns as Jesus made the solemn declaration, ‘He that is unjust, let him be unjust still; and he which is filthy, let him be filthy still; and he that is righteous, let him be righteous still; and he that is holy, let him be h only still.’…
“As Jesus moved out of the most holy place,…a cloud of darkness covered the inhabitants of the earth. There was then no mediator between guilty man and an offended God….
“Then I saw Jesus lay off His priestly attire, and clothe Himself with His most kingly robes. Upon His head were many crowns, a crown within a crown. Surrounded by the angelic host, He left heaven. The plagues were falling upon the inhabitants of the earth. Some were denouncing God and cursing Him. Others rushed to the people of God and begged to be taught how they might escape His judgements. But the saints had nothing for them. The last tear for sinners had been shed, the last agonizing prayer offered, the last burden borne, the last warning given….With terrible distinctness they heard the words, ‘Too late! Too late!’ “
Shall we not do now what many thousands will wish they had done when the plagues begin to fall? Then it will be too late to surrender without reservation and earnestly pray for a daily baptism of the Holy Spirit.
Now is the time to put self aside and make speedy preparation for the Latter Rain.
8T 22 “Why do we not hunger and thirst for the gift of the Spirit, since this is the means by which we are to receive power? Why do we not talk of it, pray for it, preach concerning it?”
TM 64 “…why should we not prostrate ourselves at the throne of grace, as representatives of the church, and from a broken heart and contrite spirit make earnest supplication that the Holy Spirit shall be poured out upon us from on high?”
COR 165 “Oh that we as a people might humble our hearts before God, and plead with Him for the endowment of the Holy Spirit.”
TM 310, 223 “Realize every moment that you must have the presence of the Holy Spirit;…
“We need to be sanctified by the Holy Spirit every hour of the day, lest we be ensnared by the enemy, and our souls be imperiled.”
Our task is not just to continue in the Lord’s service making large gains year after year. The hour is long overdue when we should let God use us to quickly finish the work by the might power of His Spirit.
9T 44 “Intense earnestness should now take possession of us.”
This is the hour of greatest danger.
All that will survive the seven last plagues is a holy character.
The vital need—the greatest need of the Remnant church is not more members, more preachers, more money, or more facilities. The greatest need today is Spirit filled men and women.
We have great institutions
We have the greatest literature in the world.
We have the greatest organization in the world.
Who will respond without reservation to the mighty challenge of this climatic hour of earth’s history?
DANGER AHEAD
5T 644 “…if Satan cannot keep souls bound in the ice of indifference, he will try to push them into the fire of fanaticism.”
Faith I Live By 140 “No one who claims holiness is really holy. Those who are registered as holy in the books of heaven are not aware of the fact, and are the last ones to boast of their own goodness.”
SL 7 “Those who are really seeking to perfect Christian character will never indulge the thought that they are sinless. Their lives may be irreproachable, that may be living representatives of the truth which they have accepted; but the more they discipline their minds to dwell on the character of Christ, the neared the approach His divine image, the more clearly they will discern its spotless perfection, and the more deeply will they feel their own defects.”
SC 64 “The closer you come to Jesus, the more faulty you will appear in your own eye: for your vision will be clearer, and your imperfections will be seen in broad and distinct contrast to His perfect nature.”
A Snare of Satan
GW 316 “As the end draws near, the enemy will work with all his power to bring in fanaticism among us.”
8T 293 “False theories, clothed with garments of light, will be presented to God’s people. Thus Satan will try to deceive, if possible, the very elect.”
7BC 907 “As we near the end of time, falsehood will be so mingled with truth, that only those who have the guidance of the Holy Spirit will be able to distinguish truth from error.”
TM 55 “False teachers may appear to be very zealous for the work of God, and may expend means to bring their theories before the world and the church; but as they mingle error with truth, their message is one of deception, and will lead souls into false paths. They are to be met, and opposed, not because they are bad men, but because they are teachers of falsehood, and are endeavoring to put upon falsehood the stamp of truth.”
TM 61 “God has a church upon the earth, who are His chosen people, who keep His commandments. He is leading, not stray offshoots, not one here and one there, but a people.
Those who are tempted to aid Satan by criticizing leaders or laity in the Remnant church would do well to ponder the counsel of God’s messenger in the following quotations:
6T 42 “Nothing else in this world is so dear to God as His church, Nothing so offends God as an act that injures the influence of those who are doing His service. He will call to account all who aid Satan in his work of criticizing and discouraging.”
8T 36 “We must be terribly in earnest. We have not a moment to spend on criticism and accusation.”
TM 156 “Those who love Jesus will love the souls for whom He died. The truth planted in the heart will reveal the love of Jesus and its transforming power. Anything harsh, sour, critical, domineering, is not of Christ, but proceeds from Satan.”
The inclination to criticize should be a danger signal to us, for when the Holy Spirit purifies and transforms us, our hearts will be filled with love for God and for our brethren.
While it is true that the majority in the Remnant church are in the Laodicean state, many of whom will be shaken out, yet there is in the church a faithful group that will give heed to the counsel of Christ the True Witness. They will be prepared for the Latter Rain, share in giving the message with a loud Cry, and be ready for translation.
This is the Remnant church. God will not leas another movement. When the faithful ones give the message with great power during the Latter Rain, a great multitude will come out of failed churches, witness for their Master, and triumph with the redeemed on the sea of glass.
Now is the time to prepare for the Latter Rain. And we should remember daily that this work of preparation must take place under the Early Rain.
ADDITIONAL QUOTATIONS FOR MEDITATION
EW 66, 67 “My eyes were taken from the glory, and I was pointed to the remnant on the earth. The angel said to them, ‘Will ye shun the seven last plagues? Will ye go to glory and enjoy all that God has prepared for those that love Him and are willing to suffer for His sake? If so, ye must die that ye may live. Get ready, get ready, get ready. Ye must have a greater preparation than ye now have….Sacrifice all to God. Lay upon all upon His altar,—self property, and all, a living sacrifice. It will take all to enter glory….’
“Heaven will be cheap enough, if we obtain it through suffering. We must deny self all along the way, die to self daily, let Jesus alone appear, and keep His glory continually in view….
“Said the angel, ‘Deny self; ye must step fast.’ “
KH 291 “Our future eternal happiness depends upon having our humanity, with all its capabilities, and powers, brought into obedience to God and placed under control of Divinity….
“Jesus became a man that He might mediate between man and God,… that He might restore to man the original mind which he lost in Eden through Satan’s alluring temptation.
“…Through Jesus Christ every man may overcome…”
1SM 98 “The Lord desires every one of us to be decidedly in earnest.”
9T 44 “Intense earnestness should now take possession of us.”
5T 267 “Pray that the mighty energies of the Holy Spirit, with all their quickening, recuperate,. And transforming power, may fall like an electric shock on the palsy-stricken soul, causing every nerve to thrill with new life, restoring the whole man from his dead, earthly, sensual state to spiritual soundness. You will thus become partakes of the divine nature, having escaped the corruption that is in the world through lust; and in your souls will be reflected the image of Him by whose stripes you are healed.”
CH 138 “In order to be purified and to remain pure, Seventh-day Adventists must have the Holy Spirit in their hearts and in their homes. The Lord has given me light that when the Israel of today humble themselves before Him, and cleanse the soul-temple from all defilement, He will hear their prayers in behalf of the sick, and will bless in the use of His remedies for disease.”
PK 233 “To the heart that has become purified, all is changed. Transformation of character is the testimony to the world of an indwelling Christ. The Spirit of God produces a new life in the soul., bringing the thoughts and desires into obedience to the will of Christ; and the inward mind is renewed in the image of God.”
7T 33 “All that the apostles did, every church member today is to do.”
AA 49, 50 “Daily they prayed for fresh supplies of grace, that they might reach higher and still higher toward perfection. Under the Holy Spirit’s working, even the weakest, by exercising faith in God, learned to improve their entrusted powers, and to become sanctified, refined, and enabled. As in humility they submitted to the moulding influence of the Holy Spirit, they received of the fulness of the Godhead, and were fashioned in the likeness of the divine
“…If all were willing, all would be filled with the Spirit.”
CH 437 “As the human agent submits his will to the will of God, the Holy Spirit will make the impression upon the hearts of those whom he ministers.”
MH 512 “Nothing is more needed in our work than the practical results of communion with God. We should show by our daily lives that we have peace and rest in the Savior. His peace in the heart will shine forth in the countenance. It will give to the voice a persuasive power. Communion with God will ennoble the character and the life. Men will take knowledge of us, as go the first disciples, that we have been with Jesus. This will impart to the worker a power that nothing else can give. Of this power he must not allow himself to be deprived.”
Unlimited Possibilities
DA 250 “He who loves Christ the most will do the greatest amount of good. There is no limit to the usefulness of one who, by putting self aside, makes room for the working of the Holy Spirit upon his heart, and lives a life wholly consecrated to God.”
MH 160 “To everyone who offers himself to the Lord for service, withholding nothing, is given power for the attainment of measureless results.”
ADDENDA
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5T 67 “I am presenting to you that which the Lord has presented to me… They are what God has opened before me in vision—the precious rays of light shining from the throne.”
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5T 158 “We should pray as earnestly for the descent of the Holy Spirit as the disciples prayed on the day of Pentecost.”
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DA 389 “So fully was Jesus surrendered to the will of God that the Father alone appeared in His life.”
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8T 23 “My brethren and sister, plead for the Holy Spirit.”
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But to finish the work of God, we must receive daily a fresh baptism of the Holy Spirit.
BEHOLD I STAND AT THE DOOR AND KNOCK
2SM 57 “The great sin of those who profess to be Christians is that they do not open the heart to receive the Holy Spirit.”
COR 146 “If you open the door of the heart, Jesus will supply the vacuum by the gift of His Spirit, and then you can be a living preacher in your home, in the church, and in the world.”
7T 33 “All that the apostles did, every church-member today is to do. And we are to work with as much more fervor, to be accompanied by the Holy Spirit in as much greater measure, as the increase of wickedness demands a more decided call to repentance….
“At this time, when the end of all things is at hand, should not the zeal of the church exceed even that of the early church? …Should not the power of God be even more tightly revealed today than in the time of the apostles?”

Hi! Sorry for what’s about to be along story lol
I (F28) moved in August and quickly found a group of friends. The girl (F32) I first became friends with seemed extremely nice, we lived near each other and were from a similar place in the country. Us, plus one other girl (F25), started hanging out multiple times outside of the main group. It honestly felt like I had found some real friends in my new city.
A few months in a guy (M28) from the group asked me out and we’ve been dating ever since. However, as soon as me and him got more serious my friendship with the first girl started to shift.
Multiple times when she’s been drinking she tells me to break up with him. One time in the fall she was hanging out with the guy and told him it’s not fair that guys like him always go after girls like me. Which stated a fight between them. I didn’t find out about it till we’d been dating for a while cause the guy didn’t want to upset me (it did). One time she wouldn’t talk to me at an event cause she wanted me to drive with her but I already had plans to drive with the guy. Last month the guy called her out on a lie she had told him. She got upset, immediately ran to me and told me that my boyfriend was being cruel to her. I told her it was their fight and I didn’t want to be apart of it. Yet every few days she’d say something about bad him, sometimes blatantly lies that he would later disprove. This went on for weeks until they got coffee and made up.
Through all of this I kept a smile on my face and was nice. I assumed she was going through something herself and let it go. She was a good friend when I knew nobody so I thought that’s what I needed to do. I honestly cannot remember ever saying an unkind thing to her till two weeks ago.
Two weeks ago the other girl (25) we were friends with started talking bad about someone I consider a friend. Honestly this wasn’t the first time she’d been nasty and I felt like I didn’t care about that friendship much. I pointed out that it wasn’t fair to talk like and later told the original girl that I’d be stepping away from the friendship with the 25yr old cause I didn’t need that drama in my life. She said “Oh but 25yr old was just talking about ____, it’s not like she was talking about you.” I immediately pointed out that didn’t make it right. She then agreed and spent two days kissing my ass.
On that third day she made the mistake of trying to take credit for a party my boyfriend planned for someone in the group. He immediately told her that was wrong of her and this kind of behavior is why people her manipulating and controlling. Of course she immediately tried to pull me into the drama. She was just crying about how unfair it was that people were talking about her behind her back. At this point I’d about had it and was like “but it’s okay that 25yr old was making fun of ___? It’s not okay now that it’s you?” This sent her over the edge and she left town for two weeks and I hadn’t heard from her.
Monday she sent me a message calling me “condescending”, that she feels like she has to “walk on eggshells around me”, saying I invalidated her feeling, that she was not open to talking about it, she was stepping away from this friendship and that she holds no hard feelings to me. Not going to lie it hurt. It then hurt even more when my boyfriend told me she’d texted him and it was WAY nicer than her text to me.
Last night I texted her back saying it was unfair to point a finger, not explain herself and tell me she wasn’t open for a conversation. I ended it with “I hope time gives you some perspective on this situation and if you ever want to have a real conversation where both parties can express their feelings let me know”. Not the nicest but I also felt I could have been meaner. This sent her off about how that last line was enough to prove I’m not a kind person and that she didn’t want to hear my opinion but I needed to respect her feelings. Basically I sent her another message saying I didn’t understand how she thought that was fair. I said “Yes your feelings are important but so are the persons on the other side of the phone.” This is when she told me I had gaslit her out whole friendship and that I was toxic. I sent one more text asking if she could explain how I gaslit her because I was confused but do not expect to hear back.
I didn’t sleep last night because I was trying to figure out where I might have gaslit her. Gaslight is such a strong word and I don’t want to do that to anyone. I’m okay letting this friendship go but feel lost by that last comment has left me reeling.
Just feeling sad and a little alone this morning.
Please ignore all grammatical and spelling mistakes… once again I’ve had no sleep and am not in a great mental place.

To preface this I have to explain something that happened before we got together. My partner, let's call him Donell. His best friend, lets call him Lowell is my ex boyfriend from about 6 to 7 years ago. He left me for his current gf, let's call her Lauren. One night when they were all drunk Lauren decides to cheat on Lowell with Donell. They kept it a secret for a year and were never planning on telling him. Lowell ends up finding out from a mutual friend. These 3 all work together and Lowell is Donells boss so he fires him once he finds out.
A month after this Donell and I start seeing each other through a mutual friend hook up. Let me add that me and Lowell are cool with each other and have been for a while. His gf Lauren seems to always have some issue with me because she is incredibly insecure.
There have been multiple incidents that have happened since Donell and I have been in a relationship. Lowell rehired Donell so now they all 3 work together again as weird as that is...
They ended up having a holiday party at their place of business which is a restaurant. I was invited as my boyfriends plus one. Every time I see Lauren I am very nice to her and try to be as friendly as possible and it's usually me and her that end up hanging out. At one point we were outside with a group of people and she starts screaming about how she hasn't had sex in over a month and how its because she is fat. I try to make her feel better by saying Lowell has always been with bigger girls it's ok blah blah blah.. even though I know Lowell is not attracted to her anymore since Donell told me he said this to him in the past. Later, Lowell and I were having a conversation in the group about my dad. Just generic stuff about how he is doing. It was about 4 am and I wanted to leave. I tell my bf this numerous times and instead he keeps telling me to wait while he consoles a very drunk Lauren who is hunched over at the bar while he is rubbing her back. Eventually we leave and when we get home he tells me she was upset and uncomfortable me and Lowell were having a conversation about my dad and he agreed with her.
So the next morning I get angry and text Lowell about what Donell said to me and I say how that's pretty unfair she is upset and jealous over having a conversation about my dad when she cheated on him with my bf. I then tell him in a joking but light manner to bang her already because she was screaming about not getting sex in front of everyone last night.
I work for a company that has weed products. Donell gave Lauren a bottle of distillate vial that I gave him for free for helping him with a project. She has recently asked him how much it is so she can get some. This is the second or third time this has happened where she refuses to ask me about product we carry and only asks him when I would be the one getting it. So I told him he can tell her to ask me directly if she wants to know.
Week later passes and he is obviously trying to hide he is texting her. I look over randomly while we are in bed and I see her name and he blacks out his screen immediately. I turn away and wait until he starts texting her again. I ask "so who are you textin?" He says Lauren and tells me its about asking for the distillate price and how he told her I said she needs to ask me. He told me she said damn that sucks. I ask repeatedly what was said and what he said and he tells me how he told her the situation is childish and she should just talk to me. I say why dont you just show me what was said because I feel like you are probably taking her side and making her feel like she is in the right. It just felt like he was hiding something. And he refuses to show me and slowly is changing what he said he was texting her. Eventually he does show me and I see how he has lied about everything. He says I've been acting weird about it and I refuse to tell him how much it is until she asks me herself. He instead of calling the situation childish, he calls me childish and dumb twice to her. She says why would she talk to me ever when I've been mean to her (me being mean was telling Lowell how she got upset I was talking with him about my dad and then telling him to have sex with her). And just now I know I shouldnt have but I looked through his phone a bit. Every time Lauren and Lowell argue she texts him long paragraphs about it. She calls him late at night. She seems like his back up boyfriend... I found more things where he is talking shit about me to her and taking her side.
Am I wrong to be upset about this? I feel like he has been fake the whole time to me. He lies about having my back and always takes her side. Like he wants to be the good guy to both of us but instead talks shit about both of us to each other. I feel like things are different now and I feel different now about how I feel about him. I dont trust him, he lies all the time small and big. It hurts that he works with someone that talks shit about me and manipulates him into having these opinions. She acts like the victim when she was the one who cheated. I don't understand why this is happening and I wish they would just not work together. Not sure how to move forward.
Tldr - boyfriend is talking shit with his friend about me and taking her side and lying about it. Important to note the friend is the gf of my ex bf from 7 years ago. Our bfs are best friends and she cheated on him with my bf before we started going out.

I'm thinking of travelling to Alicante over the Easter weekend, but was wondering if everything closes down over Good Friday / Easter Sunday? Mostly thinking whether cafes, restaurants and Supermarkets will be open? Thanks!

This will be long but I have to give context. My SD(5) and SS(3) are usually some of my favorite humans. They're good kids and we've always had a great relationship, healthy family dynamics. Me and BM are very friendly as well. They do 50/50 and I do everything for them when they're here. Baths, getting ready for school, making their doctor and dentist appts for them, homework, play with them buy them things etc. My SD and I have especially bonded in mornings before school. I always do her hair in fancy styles and it's a whole ordeal. We pick the style the night before and wake up early to do it. I genuinely care about their quality of life and try to teach them without overstepping my boundaries. I love being a stepparent/parent.
Then I had my baby(2m old now). It's also important to mention that my BF works all the time. So on our weekends it's just me and the kids. It was never a problem and I've always enjoyed my time with them, until now. I find them insufferable. I want to avoid them and I find it such a burden having to care for them. I have bad mom guilt if I have to put my baby down or let her cry for 2 mins while I tend to my SK. I just want to put all my energy into my baby.
I'm very uptight about germs and they're always sick so I don't really like when they hold her but I allow them to anyway. I cringe inside. My SS is in his "why" phase and I want to punch a wall when he goes off on his tangents. I tell him to go play and stop asking me questions. I know it comes off mean. My SD always wants to help, which is sweet but it's not real help and just more work/parenting for me. She's a talker and I just need my quiet time/ personal space right now, which I get none of when they're here. And let's be real, 5 & 3 are annoying ages.
I never play with them anymore. My baby is up all night so I never wake up to do my SD hair anymore. I feel like I do the bare minimum of care and provide them with just basic needs. I have no patience at all, granted that goes for everyone around me minus baby. I hate feeling like this towards them. I want it to stop because I feel it is going to cause irreversible strain on our relationship. My SD is extremely smart and intuitive and I just know she picks up on it despite me putting up my best efforts to act normal.
Does it get better? Will I always feel this way towards them now? These feelings came out of left field. I just feel like I've given so much to my SK and now it's time to give to my daughter. I'm her mom. She deserves me at my best. She deserves all my attention. I love my SK but it can't even compare to the love I have for my daughter. Idk why I feel like it has to be one or the other when it should be everyone.

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Fair warning, this is a fuckton of gushing and I know it’s corny, but I’m happy for so many reasons, want this to be out in the ether, and this is the one place I can shout it from the rooftops.
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I found him out of sheer luck in probably the worst place to find people (i.e., this very cesspool of the internet). He started as an acquaintance who I knew would like to fuck me, and I 100% tried to friendzone him because I didn’t want something long distance, and spectacularly failed. He found the perfect balance of making his continued interest clear while being respectful of boundaries I set, and proved to be a very helpful friend of good character. I never felt like he’d be pissy about just being my friend, he simply proved to me over time that he was worth the distance. He always had this underlying vibe of confidence that if he just kept being his awesome self, I’d figure it out. I fell for him way more than I was ever planning to.
One year ago today, we met for the first time, and it just fit. His hand just fit on the small of my back, I just fit between him and the wall, his presence just fit in my life. All the logistical reasons it wouldn’t work out or would be inconvenient felt small. Now he’s the one non-family person I’m sure will always be in my life. He removes the noise. When I’m with him, I’m home and I know everything will be okay.
He met me at a time in my life when I wasn’t showing myself the love or respect I deserved, and he’s made it his mission to get me to realize how I should be treated, especially by myself.
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This has been the best year of my life. Not measured in wild stories my friend wants me to turn into an HBO series or in material achievements – though there have been both of those. But in realizing my sense of self, in feeling safe and secure, and becoming a stronger person. Ultimately, that’s my doing. But if nothing else, having him in my life has been an amazing catalyst, guide, and incentive. (Frankly, I knew if I wanted him to remain in my life, I needed to get with it.) For the first time in a long time, I am living my life in a way that I am happy to take 100% ownership of.
For a while at the beginning, I definitely put him on a bit of a pedestal, and in a very real way he has saved me. He saw past the “together” façade, past the annoying and amusing ways my hurt and emotional unavailability expressed itself, and saw the resilient and kind woman underneath. I got extremely lucky he’s as good a man as he is to not take advantage of that. Definitely cashed in all my built-up good karma on that one. But in the second half of this year, we’ve dug a lot deeper, and I feel like I truly see him now, including his faults, as much as you can ever truly see another person. I’m with him because I wake up every day excited to choose him again. Though we have different life experiences and perspectives, I think we have a very similar soul.
He’s my friend, confidant, mentor, lover, sponsor, partner, and protector. All in a deeper way than he’s my boyfriend.
And he’s all those things with actions, not just lip service. When I need him, he’s there. He cares about my inner world, and has let me entirely into his. When I have questions about random life shit I haven’t come across yet, he knows the answer. This relationship is far from the only reason I’m sober, but his support is a big ass part of the reason I achieved that. I know I can always count on him telling me the truth, instead of telling me things that might be easier to hear. He makes it a priority that I’m cared for, happy, strong, and safe. If someone hurt me, he’d make sure they felt a world of pain.
He’s had experiences he could have easily used as excuses to become jaded, bitter, unmotivated, or selfish, but instead he worked hard, took risks, has been honest and introspective with himself, and remains a romantic at heart. He is intelligent, insightful, responsible, vulnerable, and empathetic. He genuinely cares for and supports those around him, from me, to his family, to his friends, to his community. Beyond all that, he has humility and honor. He is tired and stressed 99% of the time so that he can be sure those he cares for are secure and can count on him, and still finds time to be an amazing and involved father, son, brother, uncle, and friend, and the most caring and supportive partner.
He taught me that I can feel safe with a man, that I don’t need to feel bad about myself after sex, that fights don’t need to exist, that I can bring up concerns and needs without fear of being turned into the bad guy and ending up sleep deprived from arguing until 4am. He’s given me the positive reinforcement needed so that I actually look forward to having and resolving serious conversations, I no longer freeze and hyperventilate. I can be vulnerable and open with him because when he’s seen me at my worst he pulls me up, instead of standing over me screaming. He’s happy when I make social connections, instead of rewarding that behavior with abuse. He encourages me to have high expectations of him and, in return, has high expectations for me.
All of his actions over the last year have shown that he wants to make my life better, that he respects me, that he’ll keep me safe, and that he’ll give me an authentic version of himself. He’s the only man I’ve met who I 100% trust, respect, and admire.
And oddly, being with him has helped me realize that I can be happy alone. I know if the romantic aspect of this relationship ever ended, I wouldn’t feel a need to date again just to not be single. I feel secure that I deserve things, not that I have to earn the most minimal treatment by suffering for it. I know that if he ever broke my trust or I felt disrespected, I would stand up for myself. This is the first relationship where I feel like I’m choosing him because he deserves it instead of debasing myself to prove I should be chosen, and I’m never going back from the secure attachment that comes with that.
It might be better if I didn’t have to relearn those things, but I also wouldn’t appreciate where I am today as much. Not just with him, but appreciating my own capabilities, strength, resilience, and capacity for kindness and love.
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Yesterday I officially accepted a job offer that will let me move to his city, and will be moving when my lease is up in a couple months. Not only is it a job I’m really excited about, but it’s a city where I’ve grown to feel at home over the last year, can fix up a cute old house, build a secret sex hideaway with him, be in one place long enough to cultivate fulfilling hobbies, have a yard and a dog, and actually see Orion in the night sky.
I know he feels a little guilty that I’m shifting my life around and he was the impetus for it, and wants to make sure I don’t make any decisions I’d regret if we stopped dating, which I appreciate. But aside from the fact that I’m very excited for the life I see building for myself there over the next decade or so, and being rid of the logistics of a long distance relationship, I’d regret not going after something that fills me with so much peace and joy.
I’ve always had what I would call an optimistically cynical view of life. But I have believed in the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It had always eluded me. But today, it is a fine morning, and the current and I are finally headed in the same direction.
The next year, or two, or ten are going to be…interesting. But there’s not a scenario I can picture where he isn’t there somehow, or an issue I’m afraid we can’t navigate, or a person I’d be more happy to belong to.
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I wrote this and realized nowhere in it do I say I love him. I guess that just seemed like an unnecessary word given everything else I had to say.
I can’t remember off the top of my head the last time I told him I do, even though I first wanted to say it 11 months ago, and first did say it 10 months ago. The last couple of years have really changed my perspective on that word.
Everything else I’ve said here means more than that, and every action I’ve shown him and he’s shown me, as a consistent “body of work” over the last year, means infinitely more. It’s also just different than love, or at least different than any other time I thought I felt it. I think the other times were, in various ways, based in fear. With him, I just want him to be happy, in the most selfless and pure way. Maybe it’s the fact that I actually trust, respect, and admire him in addition to it. But very simply, more than I love him, I’m his.
He’s always been the one telling me he can’t really articulate how he feels about me, but I can’t really articulate it either. It took a long time to write this, because even that one word doesn’t say all that’s necessary, and all these words still say far too little.

My mother, my lifeline, my heart, my everything died in her sleep yesterday morning and I’ve been hurting. I was expecting to wake up to a “good morning” call but I’ll never get any of those again. I don’t know if I can do this without her. I feel like I failed her as a child💔

Heading up from Nashville Friday morning for the Regional, and looking for cool things to do in the city during the day and after the games. Anybody else making the trip and know of cool barestaurant/brewery hangout spots?

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I decided to try some samples of their other Document series, and checked them out this morning. Document Turquoise is very similar to Cyan in both color and behavior - exceedingly wet, feathers and spreads, but dries almost instantaneously. Document Red is better behaved - it's still pretty wet, but doesn't spread or feather even on lousy quality paper (which is where I need permanent ink). It dries fast enough, although not quite as fast as Cyan or Turquoise. Best of all is is Document Urban Sienna, which is a nice brown color and behaves like any "normal", non-waterproof ink - slightly wetter than average, and dries pretty quickly. That's what I'll use.

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